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SUDDENLY I CANT BREATHE WHERE HAVE THESE PICS BEEN ALL MY LIFE

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is pchs going to continue ?

Yes! Sorry for such a delay. Hopefully I will be posting the new pchs in a few days 😊🙌🏼

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Bittersweet Christmas Surprise (Jackson Wang) Part 1

Right so about a week and a half ago I saw a Roommate cut, which basically made me crying for 30 minutes straight. It was the cut where JYP surprises Jackson by bringing his parents to Korea for Christmas and it's one, if not the most, heart-warming things I've seen in such a long time. After that I just kind of started to think about this and had to write it down instead of going on and on about it in my head. Enjoy :P 

Concept: You've been dating Jackson for almost two years now but unfortunately couldn't celebrate your first Christmas together since you were both very busy that day. Seen as this year you will be able to celebrate it you're determined to make it extra special deciding on bringing his parents over as a sort of gift for him. Answering phone calls and making sure everything was perfect, little did you know that from Jackson's perspective things didn't look too good.

Side note: Eomeoni is romanization for 어머니 which is mother in Korean as daughter-in-laws are to call them that.

Also I know it’s been quite a while since I last uploaded anything here and I’m sorry about that. But I will be starting to upload more soon. I really hope you guys like this and everything that is there to come. :) 

Looking down at my phone I frowned worriedly trying to hide the name on the screen as I looked back at Jackson sitting next to me completely absorbed on the TV. Getting off the couch I quickly told him I needed to take the call before heading to the hallway away from his hearing range.

"Hello manager Kim" I said answering the call

"Miss Sara, I'm sorry to call at this time of night but you said to inform you about everything as soon as possible" He said on the other line

"It's alright.. It there something going on?" I asked looking back just to make sure there was no sight of Jackson

"Everything is perfect actually." He said with a somewhat enthusiastic tone "We were able to get the reservation you wanted, as you said it was quite hard to get it but they finally had an opening"

"Really? Oh my! That's amazing news. See I told you you were the best manager in the world" I said letting out a little laugh as I already knew he would roll his eyes every time I said that

"Oh by the way" He said quickly changing the topic "There's some final paperwork you need to do before being able to finally send the plane tickets" He mentioned

"Oh thank God! I worried eomeoni was starting to think I wouldn't send them after all" I said with a smile "I'll go fist thing tomorrow. Have a goodnight manager Kim" I finished off as we said our goodbyes

Looking down at my phone I couldn't help but do a little dance from how excited I was. I had been planning this for over two months now and everything was finally falling into place. Even though we've been dating for a little over a year and a half this was our first Christmas, we had planed on spending last Christmas together but our schedules just didn't work out. At that time I was in the middle of filming and he had a few concerts and other appearances to do with the group. Thankfully this time around I really didn't have much going on around the holidays, just a few interviews and appearances here and there. As for Got7 they had managed to get most of the holidays free, having somewhat of a little brake during this time. That's why I wanted to make this so special and well what better way than having his parents flown in. From the time that I've known Jackson one thing I came to understand was that his family were one if not the most important thing in his life, that's why holidays could be really difficult for him seeing as they lived in China while he was over here in South Korea. One of the only down sides of it being a surprise was that I had to be so secretive when it came to planing everything, running off to answer calls about it and having to do so many preparations in order for everything to go just as plan was really hard for me since I would usually tell Jackson everything and anything.

Putting my phone into my pocket I walked back into the living room only to find it empty, TV still on. Looking around I finally found Jackson in the kitchen, he was by the sink hands on either side and his head hang low. Coming behind him I wrapped my hand around his  torso and leaned my head on his back, loving the warmth he provided.

"Hey..." I said in a low voice

"Hey" He said as I felt him tense up a bit "Who was that on the phone?"

"Oh it was manager Kim, he said I had some paperwork to go over tomorrow" I said emitting the part of what the papers were for

"Don't lie..." He said taking my hands off of him as he started to walk out of the kitchen

"I'm not lying" I said quite confused at his sudden change of mood as I started to follow him

"Please... why would manager Kim call you at this time? Do you really think I'm that stupid?" He stopped as he got closer to his bedroom

"I don't! And yes he called me at this time because those are really important papers, so I told him to call me as soon as he got them." I tried to explain as turned around to look at me

"Oh really?" He asked in a bemused tone "Then what are the papers for?"

"I can't tell you that" I said trying to sound fine when in reality I was nervous to the bone of him finding out and having everything be exposed "Besides what does it matter what the papers are for? I mean you've never really cared to ask about those type of things when it comes to my career"

"Well I do now" He said coming a little closer in a way that I didn't like for some reason "So why don't you tell me. Or are you hiding something from me?" He asked with a raised eyebrow

"I'm not!" I tried sounding unfazed but clearly failed at it as you heard my voice

"For an actress you're a terrible liar, you know that?" He said with a little laugh at the end as he started walking into his room, going straight for the closet

"What-what are you doing?" I asked coming closer to him

"You know if you were going to cheat, you should've made sure to not get caught." He started as he took one of the few bags I had here and started going through the closet in search for my clothes "But I mean I'm not complaining, at least you're making it easier for me to do this. I don't need an excuse anymore" He said as he put the last piece of clothing in the bag

There wasn't much he could put in it since it was a small bag and from the time we started dating up until now I had managed to have a fair amount of clothing stay in his closet as he had told me once 'why take them home if you're just going to end up bringing all of your clothes here anyway'. At that time I remember being so happy and excited for what was to come, but nothing could have prepared me for this. Seeing him getting my things out made my heart brake little by little, the way he just took them out with a blank face saying those cruel words I'd never in a million years would have thought could come out of his mouth. I had to look away in fear that if kept looking at him soon tears would fall down.

Swallowing the huge lump in my throat I turned to look at his backside and tried to speak as clear as possible but failed as my voice came out shaky "What do you mean you don't need an excuse anymore. An excuse for what?" I asked dreading the answer I so well knew was coming but didn't want to believe

"An excuse to break up" He said as he still had his back facing me

Looking away I felt the tears starting to fall, not being able to hold them anymore. Trying my best to not let any sort of sound come out of my mouth unless it was something that I needed to say.

"You wanted to break up with me... since when?"

"Come on Sara" He started as I saw his feet move and he finally turned around to look at me or more so my body since I lowered my head not wanting him to see me cry "Did you really think that I wanted something serious with you in the first place?"

There it was, the few words that hurt so much. Ever since it came out that we were dating I knew to expect the hate comments, the endless chattering and the numerous speculation of when's, why's and how's about the whole ordeal. I knew to expect that but never from him, never those type of words from someone I thought I knew so well. With that so many questions came flooding into my mind, things like since when did he feel this way? Did he always feel this way? And if that was the case why had he continued with it for so long?

I wanted to say something, ask him something, maybe even slap him but I couldn't, I couldn't find myself able to do anything but look at him. Feeling the tears starting to run again I turned my head to the side as I felt a tear fall. It was stupid how before I never minded him seen me cry, sometimes even holding onto him for dear life when I did, but now I was almost embarrassed for him to even see a tear fall down.

"Alright" I said trying with all my might to sound as neutral as possible only to have my voice quiver at the end "I guess I'll go then"

Picking up the bag he had made I turned around and ignored him calling out my name as everything became silent to me, it was a weird feeling walking out of his house, we weren't exactly living together but at this point I was spending so much  time at his house that going back to mine felt strange since I didn't have him around. Even so I walked out of the house only picking up the bag I had set on the little table near the door and headed home.

******** Christmas Eve

The day had finally come, in a few hours Jackson's parents would be arriving at the airport. At first I had planed to have manager Kim peek then up and have them go to his house but since the fight I had to change a few things in order for things to still go as planed just not with me involved in them. Over all I still wanted to meet them so I told manager Kim I would go instead of him so I could at least meet them.

It was a good thing that I knew everything about their flight because I would have probably gotten lost trying to find the gateway. I cheeked my phone for what felt like the hundredth time just to make sure I was here on time, clearly anxious of meeting them. I felt my heart starting to beat a little faster when I finally spotted them coming out of the getaway,  luggage in hand. I waved at them as hot closer to them taking hold of the heavy looking suitcase Jackson's mom was holding.

"Oh you don't have to sweety" She said but I could tell she was clearly relieved by it

"It's okay. I can take it from here" I said as we said our hello's and started walking out of the airport and into the parking lot where I had my car

"I thought Jackson was coming with you" Jackson's mom said as we finally got into the car, everything already in the trunk

Slightly taken aback but at the same time having expected it I just cleared my throat and started the car "Oh well remember that this is a surprise for him" I simply said starting to make my way out

"Oh right right!" She said with a smile

The ride to Jackson's was even more pleasant than I had expected it. It was so nice that after talking to them via Skype or phone I got to meet them in person. They really were amazing and could tell why Jackson missed them so much. As I got closer to the building I spotted Mr. Choi the building manager whom I had told what was going on and if he could help them carry their things up to Jackson's since I felt like he wouldn't want to see me.

"We're here" I said stopping at the front and turning off the car

"You're not coming in?" His dad asked as they unbuckled their sit belts

"Umm well..." I started knowing this was coming sooner or later "The thing is that Jackson and I had a fight, so I don't think he really wants to see me right now." I said as I got out of the car and help Mr. Choi get everything out

"But I'm sure it wasn't that big of a deal, right?" Asked his mom as I just gave her a small smile not really wanting to tell her the full extent and that I basically got dumped by her son a mere few days ago

"I just think it would be better if I don't go up, but Mr. Choi will help you guys out." I said as he introduced himself to them

"But we will get to see you tomorrow right? I mean you leave so far away from your parents as well, you must spend Christmas with us" She said coming closer to me with a warm smile to which I get a weak one in return

"I really appreciate it but I think it's just best if I give Jackson his space." I said "Oh could you please give this to Jackson" I said going to the front of my car and taking out a small envelope, handing it to her

"What is this?" She asked curious

"It's just... Something of importance I think I should give Jackson at least." I said with a little shrug "Could you please give it to him?"

"Of course." She said pulling me in for a hug "I'm sure Jackson is just being silly and he will say he is sorry for whatever he did." She said releasing me

"It's okay." I reassured her "It's my fault really, I shouldn't have been sneaking around so much with this. I know how that would have been taken the wrong way. But don't worry, I hope you guys enjoy this week" I said before saying my final goodbyes and seeing them start to go inside the building

Having a small smile on my face I turned around and got back into my car, driving back home but wanting to stay so badly.

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Are you ever gonna continue pchs??

Hey, yes I will for sure continue it. I know I've been in a log sort of hiatus, I've been really busy but will soon be uploading more of it soon. 🙌🏼

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His face when he realized his mistake..ugh my heart

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you shine brighter than the sun

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Hey... 👀

So I know I've been really MIA since pretty much a few months if I'm correct. I'm not really going to try and explain myself, I'll just say that I had a bit of a bad time and wasn't in the right state of mind to write anything properly but am much better now. I've been thinking of new things to write and one idea was to write imagines based on songs. It's a concept that I believe is really fun and exciting. Let me know if it's something you'd be interested in and if so send me songs you really like or that you'd like imagines be based on. Also with whom you'd like those imagines to be with. 😁😄 I'm very excited to start writing again and hopefully get better at it. 🙌🏼 P.s I'm also starting to write things with kpop stars so if you have a bias that you'd like me to write about let me know 😋🙌🏼

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Is there going to be a new chapter of pchs???😍😍

I'm in a bit of a hiatus at the moment since I am yet to finish on the hole concept for what could be the "second season" if you will. Once the concept of what will happen is done I'll be back to writing it and posting 😊🙌🏼

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happy 1st of halloween!

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the new louise/dnp collab looks great!

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So just wanted to somewhat clarify the question I was given and also why I deleted it or hid it. I think however wrote that to me wouldn't really want their question to be put on blast or whatever as people could potentially comment something rude so that why it's no longer up. And to give a more broad answer to their request if you will it that even if I didn't tag what I wrote on the tags that it had, which by the way I have taken down and put proper tags to it, it would still be on either the Dan Howell tags or the Harry Styles tags because of my writing, so things I put out are more likely to be featured in those tags. I hope this is a somewhat better answer to my previous one on the matter but I did really wanted to know why this person seemed bothered by it, anyway I hope this is a better if not the answer you were looking for 😊

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Question, please reply

So I’ve been friends with this boy for a few years now, a year after we became friends he confessed to me and I to him but we never became something official although we did act like it at times. A lot of things happened to us during the years and we were always there for each other one way or another but since a few months ago things changed. He became distant and wouldn’t talk to me as much as before, some things I said would piss him off or just annoy him which really confused me. Now present time we don’t talk anymore and I thought I was okay with it. Since we have mutual friends one of them invited me to go camping with a group in which he was in as well. As I was added to their little group chat I found out that there is a girl he likes who was also going on the camping trip which for some reason really pissed me off and hurt. I ended up not going just in fear that I would see them kissing and being all couple-y like, not going didn’t really bother me since where they were going is close to my home… My question is, how can I still have feeling for this boy after so long? Do I really have feelings for him and if I do which type of feelings are they? Why am I not able to forget him and move on? I know this is kind of strange and sort of out there when it comes to this blog but I just really need help on this, some enlightenment on the subject.

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I got listed in this and it's really cool. Go check out the other writers and @reveriehs blog and support them

List of Harry Styles Writers

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First there will be a link to their blog homepage followed by the links to their writing.

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Can you not!!!

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wait tell me in what way is the 5sos fandom sexist

Okay so I’m gonna preface this with clarifying that I am in no way asserting that everyone in this fandom is sexist. The point of me bringing this up and trying to open a discussion about this is so that an acknowledgement of the worrying portion of the fandom that is sexist can be made.

The biggest problem, in my opinion, is how, in general, the 5sos fam treats the girls that 5sos see. Regardless of your personal opinion on these girls, the things that this fandom says about the girls they date are disgusting.

Before we even know anything about the girls, people immediately jump to the conclusion that the girl is dating them for the money, that they’re manipulating the guys, or that their only worth is their relationship with the boys. It feeds in from the ancient archetype of the Evil Woman™ who only cares about vanity and who only has her best interests in mind.

People act as if these girls have no lives outside of destroying the lives of the boys. As if they have no personal lives of their own, like their relationship is literally all that defines them. That. Is. Not Okay. Girls who see people perpetuating these ideas are then led to believe that who they date or have dated in the past are their only defining factors.

Of course, I realize that it’s hard to avoid this since it makes sense that we’d only talk about the girls in context of the boys, but some of the posts that I’ve read that are dedicated to tearing the girls down will make them out to be self-obsessed monsters who truly don’t have anything going for them outside of their relationships. Most, if not all, of us don’t know jack shit about these girls’ personal lives. We have no place to be making such presumptions.

The part of the fandom that actively hate their girlfriends also make it seem like the boys are helpless kids who are the victims 110% of the time. I’ve said it a million times and I’ll say it again: 5sos are anything but perfect. They’ve made so many shitty decisions in the past, but most of us recognize that that’s okay (to a certain extent). We realized that their shitty decisions aren’t the only things that define them and we know that we ourselves have done or said equally shitty things before as well. So, acknowledging these things, we move on from their “””problematic””” histories and move on.

But then?? If one of the girls did something on May 22nd, 2011, at 8:02:35 am, you best believe people in this fandom will be pulling up those receipts non-fucking-stop. It’s ridiculous. Like I said, you may have your own personal opinions on these girls, and that’s completely fine, but the notion that the girls must be perfect angels almost every moment of every day while ignoring the fact that the boys are anything but is ultimately and undeniably sexist.

Even just the idea that the boys are helpless and clueless idiots who can’t possibly survive unless we, their 170 IQ, 4.7 GPA holding fans, educate them by “””exposing””” what their gfs have done is sexist to the boys as well!! They’re full grown adults. People in this fandom act as if they’re  children who don’t have the brain capacity to decide on their own whether who they’re dating is good for them or not.

And this sexism isn’t new either. Even before any of the boys began officially dating girls, the “groupie drama” of yesteryear was just as ugly. I’m not gonna get into whether any of it was true or not (because frankly who cares), but even if hypothetically they did have “groupies”: 1) The term itself is gross. It reduces the girls down to nothing but casual fucks to not care about later and 2) The girls would always be the ones getting called sluts or other similar, shitty names, despite the fact that, surprise surprise!! Sex involves at least two parties!! Anything that the girls were being blamed for should have, at the very least, been directed to the guys as well. (Not that any hate like that should ever be directed to anyone ever, for the record.)

The sexism was high key years ago, and it’s just as bad today. Even just searching Crystal’s name on Twitter/Tumblr/Insta will get you to posts of people hating on Crystal for dying her hair blonde,,, as if Michael - her boyfriend!!! - hasn’t dyed his hair a million times before.

And if anyone reading this is still not convinced, I urge you to imagine if any of the boys were dating a guy instead, and then try to tell me if the guy would get even a fraction of the hate these girls get. (Of course, that’s also a product of the regressive fetishization of homosexuality among fandoms in general, but that’s another rant for another day.)

Everyone definitely has differing opinions on these girls that they’re dating or have seen in the past, and I’m sure those opinions will greatly influence your opinion on this matter. However, I think even by just looking at the drama in this fandom objectively, it is undeniable that even if all of the hate caused by the idiosyncrasies of their relationships with the boys were removed from the equation, we’d still be left with the immense amount of internalized sexism that parts of this fandom have wrongfully encouraged for years now.

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I couldn’t help myself… I had to play it!! Also can we just appreciate how hot my daddy looks? I think I did a pretty good job 🙌🏼😍💜