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Some comment: "Shapeshifting as a superpower might sound great at first, but imagine the identity crisis it would cause"

Me having an identity crisis already is the whole reason why i'd wanna be able to shapeshift in the first place 💀

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Hey so i have a question !!

Is it a thing to identify as something because you relate to the way it looks or it's "vibes"??

Like i've been questioning a Shark identity but i've figured i only really identify as such due to "relating to the vibe" (I genuinely don't know how else to explain what i feel)

This is less of a "is this valid" or "am i faking" question since i've honestly grown past that, it's just that i haven't heard of something like that before!

Like i know of Spiritual, psychological etc. Alterhumans, but "vibe" or "looks" alterhumans? Lmao idk xd

I hope y'all can help me

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Yapp time!! Just me talking about some thoughts i had lately (:

Disclaimer!! As some might know by now, English isn't my first language so some things might sound weird or wrong! I apologize in advance for that.

So, i often read about the ideas of transitioning socially or physically to the Nonhuman or Alterhuman one is

At first this was definitely more a wishful thinking, especially considering i never really knew where i'd even start, or if it was something i'd even "need" or want

I was also never really accepting the fact i might want to transition in one way or another for many reasons

But over the months i have started questioning myself a lot more, i often just kinda live on "autopilot" and don't really think about things i desire. But since i really started thinking about it (and i honestly still am) i have definitely accepted the part of me that somehow wants to socially transition

I think of options i have, how i could make them become reality etc.

One thing that would definitely mean a lot to me doesn't even necessarily have to do with the folks around me. Despite me being already quite open about being nonhuman (especially online) i have realized that in terms of thoughts and how i view myself and refer to myself, i'm still holding back

Despite considering myself Alterhuman i struggle to admit i'm animal and creature. I can't tell myself "I am wolf, i am not human" without hesitating. Not because it feels wrong, not because i fear i might be wrong, but because i feel like i'm not really worthy??

One of the main reasons why i call myself 'Alterhuman' instead of 'Nonhuman' or just straight up creature is just because i don't allow myself to

Aa sorry i'm kinda losinghe plot here xd

What i mean by all of this, i believe one of the things that i'd consider a big step in 'transitioning' would be able to just be(?)

Like, i wanna be able to look at myself and go "Yeah, i AM a moth!" "Yeah i AM a wolf!"

Altough this would be less social transitioning i guess, since it only has to do with myself?

Socially for me would definitely be stuff like using other pronouns that i feel better with (i'm currently using more like 'They/He' but i'd LOVE to be 'It" or something along the lines

Name change would be a huge thing for me too, Not even on paper but like, by friends

As you can tell i'm still at the beginning of this journey, but me accepting the fact i wanna be genuinely nonhuman on every way is a BIG step already!

I'm not gonna deny anymore that i want a friend to point at me and be like "That moth over there" or any scenario like this 😅

Like hell yeah, introduce me like "And this Hellhound here is *name i really wanna be called*"

So, since i'm quite tired especially after puring out heart and soul i'm not gonna really check if any sentences add up or make sense, but i hope my yapping entertained you or even made you feel less alone!!

Have a lovely Day/Night c:

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Identifying as male,

but in the way a fleshy Cryptid would identify as male after it learned what gender is

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Having an identity that has anything to do with one of your fears is the weirdest thing ever?!

What do you mean i'm Merfolk but i'm also afraid of deep water and swimming??

As a kid and early teen i was terribly afraid of Zombies and now i am one myself?

wdym i'm questioning spacekin when space scares me so much on so many levels

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A comment i just saw

Look, i know they mean this in a 'conspiracy' type way, but reading this as an Alterhuman is hilarious 😭

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Decided to make a meme out of a similar situation i had at therapy 💀💀

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I got something at the Kiosk with my tail on my side and heard some worker whisper to his coworker "I thought that was a dog?!" And i looked at them right when he pointed at me 💀

Don't worry sir, your eyes have not deceived you, it was indeed a dog buying a soda in a Kiosk

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So, this might actually be a controversial take, but i feel like if anything the Therian and Otherkin communities have improved A LOT

I always see posts talking about how much the community sucks these days and all the discourse going on etc. I talk about this often too, But actually looking back and doing research has opened my eyes honestly.

By looking up old forums and also thinking about the first time i interacted in some ways with the communities i've realized that we've become much more accepting as a whole.

There's so many posts from years ago that talk about how physical alterhumans aren't welcome, how Otherkin is mainly a spiritual belief, i've seen posts about how "Therians don't actually believe they're animals" "we know we're human we just feel connected" (Posts from 2012-2015 btw)

Also users hating on other users for having more "intense" shifts such as wanting to howl or chase something.

I genuinely feel like it's much more chill today, if you say you're physically a wolf, then you're physically a wolf. Ofc there's always gonna be someone hating but i fear that's just the internet

I also remember that in like 2013-2014 i was in my first ever Forum that was full of folks that identified as wolves on different levels, what i also remember very well tho is the constant fighting. Some users got mad at others for lying about physically shifting, others told us to "stop roleplaying" all together.

During that time i also remember that if you were anything other than a wolf you were either not valid or were practically kicked out of the forum.

I also have this memory of someone in the forum asking if they can still be a wolf even tho they're a poc and basically being told 'nah' (not saying this isn't a thing anymore today, it just seemed to be worse back then, correct me if i'm mistaken please)

With all that being said, despite all the stuff that is STILL going on in the community i gotta give the current community props for being a lot more open and accepting!

Does there still need to be a lot more inclusiveness and work done? ABSOLUTELY

Is the current state of the community better than a lot of it from the past tho? YEAH honestly

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Despite always saying "identities" or "kintypes" i can't deny that it has been feeling so wrong for a while now to say it like that

For me personally calling my different forms "identities" just doesn't feel right, and it honestly never really has

They're not identities to me, they're ME. Although one could argue that these go hand in hand 😅 but i think you get what i'm trying to say

Like no, i don't "just" think of myself as a dog, I AM dog, right in this very moment

Same with 'Kintype', "my kintype is a werewolf" just feels off. I also usually don't say "My name is ___" i always say "I AM ___" and it just makes a lot more sense to me

Just as a disclaimer!! It is ABSOLUTELY fine if you prefer to say "my kintype" or "i identify as" this is really just me and my preferences (: I don't mean to exclude or invalidate anyone!

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"If you identify as anything else but human it means you're mentally ill!"

Aaaaaaaaand??

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I thought y'all would appreciate these temporary tattoos i got

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Speaking of having a lot of Identities-

This is so relatable LMFAO

all my theriotypes in one photo!!

get it... cuz im an omnitherian.... this is a really funny joke

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Having many Alterhuman and Nonhuman identities as once definitely has it's pros and cons

On one hand it feels good, like, hell yeah! I am many creatures at once!!

On the other hand some of my beliefs and wishes change depending on which creature i am the most right now. I can literally go from "Oh yes i am a dog!! I am a pet! I have not much on my mind, just silly!" To "I am a Shadow creature that has a LOT on my mind, i could never imagine being a silly dog?? A PET??"

Don't even get me started when it comes to me being Fictionkin and i just identify as human again, but a fictional one 💀

Genuinely tiring and also lowkey confusing at times

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No because i remember that one time when i was like 10 and me and my family were at this restaurant

And one waitress had a fox tail attached to her pants

The day little me realized that wearing tails is an option-

I remember being absolutely fascinated and i asked my mom if i could also have a tail

Back then i was already pretty aware of being a wolf, i just didn't know anything about gear or Alterhumanity so that definitely changed my world view lmao

"Maddie knew who she was from a very early age" 😭

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*Some video on TT appearing on my FYP*

"Today's fairy tale is about a medieval gay werewolf!"

IS THIS FUCKING PLAY ABOUT US

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The urge to make at least one outfit based on one of my kintypes, basically as a form of gear i'd say??

Like, an outfit that screams "Creature trying so hard to appear as human as possible but ends up getting clothes and accessories that make it obvious what it really is"

A "Human oc based off a moth" type fit

Like this would give me so much euphoria damn

But where would i even start, i mean i know how to craft stuff which is great! But i still have no idea where to start 😭