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girl help i’m having creation ideas above my skill level

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10 yr old me: omg i can't wait to be a teenager i'll go out to parties with my friends and wear cool clothes and skip school and drink and play music really loud and get grounded and sneak out and stay up late and go to concerts and have an amazing social life omg i can't wait

current me: spills cereal on self

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sorry i haven't read your fic yet it's been in my open tabs for 8 months

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me @ myself: don’t u get your hopes up ok also me: *gets my hopes up*

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preparing for reading this fic like it’s a romantic evening in, I’m making a special meal in the actual oven and I’m gonna wear my favourite outfit (my pyjamas) and dim the lights and put on music I might even pour a glass of wine

someone’s getting laid this evening and it’s my favourite fictional character

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someone: yeah i had a crush on them and turns out they liked me too so now we're dating

me: ......okay......that sounds fake but okay....

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Absolutely in lovelovelove with my original Yu Yu Hakusho artworks (”Delinquents” and “Yukimura Keiko”) by @maiji !! Srsly, I get happier whenever I look at them. <3

Visit - http://maiji.storenvy.com - to check out her art and other pieces for sale. I also own a copy of “Demon King! Urameshi” (a Yusuke fancomic) and it’s also so beautiful and makes me happy.

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There is one constant in medicine: doctors play a central role in delivering care. And they will continue to do so, irrespective of any future changes to the federal regulatory landscape. However, recent studies have found a growing shortage of physicians in the United States. Considering that doctors occupy the apex of the medical system, this trend should represent a significant concern to nearly all of the stakeholders within the American healthcare industry.

First, markets for medical services are deeply regional and unique to their various metropolitan statistical areas. Medicine operates within tight-knit clusters of physicians and practices, hospital systems, state licensing and regulation, and networks of payers. Despite this, very few studies focus on compensation at the local level.

Second, there is a longstanding concern surrounding the gap in pay between male and female professionals. In this report, we analyze the gender gap in physician pay, and report its results across specialties, states, and metro areas. While it is beyond the scope of this study to offer explanations as to why this gap exists in the way that it does, we do hope that this information can shed more light on this important issue.

Lastly, this report draws on the responses of over 36,000 licensed doctors to produce the most comprehensive and in-depth look at absolute physician compensation across specialties, states, regions, and gender. With 70 percent of all U.S. doctors as members, Doximity is the largest social network in medicine and uniquely positioned to enable this type of analysis.

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I have a chance to study from some amazing doctors in the ER but I’m so shy. In everyday life I am loud, brave and a risk-taker but there I’m just like “wow, I’m so dumb”. I even forget the most trivial stuff when they ask me questions, it’s so frustrating because I know I’m not stupid and am usually good with people. Do you have any advice? (I’m a med student)

Hi there, anon!

We’ve all been there; especially as a med student. I remember coming home feeling completely ashamed and exhausted from all the negative self-talk I pummeled my mind with on a daily basis. So I would tell you what I wish someone told me:

1. The more time you spend on thinking about how “dumb” or “stupid” you were yesterday, the more time you waste in the present to learn and engage in your environment. One of the hardest things I had to learn during clerkships was to forgive myself for my mistakes. We’re all perfectionists, to some degree and we are our worst critics. But if you cannot forgive yourself, it doesn’t matter how much your resident or attending tells you it’s okay. You have to start with you. 

2. EVERY SINGLE PERSON feels like the biggest idiot on the rotation that means the most to them. Because you want to do well, you want to put your best foot forward. 

3. No one is looking for perfection. They are looking for tenacity and passion. That is literally all anyone is looking for. I never remember how smart or dumb are my med students’ questions. I remember if they are polite. If they are helpful. Did they try. Were they team players. Would they make an effort. Even if they got something wrong, were they trying? That’s what counts.

4. No one expects you to remember everything they say. I certainly don’t remember everything. That’s why my pens and notebooks and cellphone photo album called “medical stuff” exists. And I often say “I don’t know”. It’s part of medicine! 

5. And to re-emphasize: we all remember what it was like. And we want you to succeed. Anyone who is going to be unkind to a genuine, passionate med student who is doing their best is an asshole. 

I hope that helps a bit, let me know how it goes!

Best,

md-a

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Me four months ago: So I finally finished working on my thesis - means I can waste time on the internet without being crushed by neverending guilt! How rad!!!

Me now, while wasting time on the internet: I should be writing my fic

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stuff i’ve been up to this week-

- i have spent the last two weeks looking for Count Chocula and nothing. it literally might as well not be October.

- Friday was my birthday! got chocolate chip pancakes and coffee with a friend in the morning, and the weather was overcast and nice so i ended up walking to the Rodin museum and they had public sketch pads and pencils, so i spent some time. then “tempt” choreography at pole and peach moscato at home.   incidentally, i think this was the first time i felt a little lonely on my birthday.. it’s the way things go though - overall i had a lovely day (minus the part where i scream internally at being definitively closer to 30 than i am 20).

- still watching 90′s anime OVAs. Gunbuster is perfect.

- struggling to finish reading The Violinist’s Thumb by Sam Kean, which is weird because i’ve never had this problem before... i think im so used to being online and listening to podcasts or watching youtube videos etc. i forgot what it’s like to just sit down with music and read a book that i don’t need to study.    i did manage to finish Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind Vol. 1 which is fucking beautiful. i spent twice as long with it as i usually would with a manga because hnngh every single panel...   America’s Bitter Pill and Lolita are still next.

- my first month of pole is almost over, and i still mostly just flop around pretending to look sexy, but since this is the first time in about eight years i’ve ever been consistent about exercising; i feel really good. i even managed to sort of climb/shimmy up the pole without a spotter on Saturday. gotta lift tho.   i also have been running about a 3.75 mile bridge three times a week and am seeing my pace improving. 10.45′ today from 12.00′ :)

- on my playthrough of Kingdom Hearts (ps2), i found this innocuous detail in the Hollow Bastion library - there’s a neat little abstract painting in white and green and blue and lavender underneath the stairwell by the table and chair and it’s just so pretty and special. so i’m in the process of replicating a real life version of it for myself. with glitter. because i can’t give myself enough projects. because idk how to handle my free time.

- actually have to start practicing for interviews, as well as reviewing onlinemeded videos for emergency medicine in november. basically my last real med school rotation ever omg.

- my succulents are thriving (i think).

- i really really wanna play cuphead.

- omg last thing, i had a really epic emotional arc with two mermicornio plushies in a barnes and noble that also facilitated a discussion with my mom about color and gender stereotypes.

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sometimes i think about how i spent like a year and a half of medical school literally feeling like i was stupid, and it makes me kind of sad.

i was over the moon when i got my step score back and also now that interviews are kind of trickling in, but really, i can’t even explain how relieving and nice it feels to know that i can do it. 

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Lyra Belacqua

Lyra goes up to the counter and orders an ever-morphing drink. In rapid succession, it is a frappuccino, an espresso, a cappuccino, a cup of tea. The grey-eyed barista picks up the drink and hands it to Lyra. It never changes again.

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Rust on the Pier - Submitted by Cubern-Art

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