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@visionhaunted : "I do not know what lies the Jedi tried to poison your mind with but the truth is that I am out there risking my life for you and our daughter!" He grabbed her arm, preventing her from turning her back on him. Not today, not now. He was sick of people leaving him, of refusing to see his plans. "I am not doing this for personal gain or because I think it is fun or whatever else the Jedi might have told you. I can't believe you're questioning me in this!"

“ you can start proving that, by letting go of me —“ pulling her arm from his grasp, words spat through gritted teeth , gaze never faltering as furious eyes burned. anger was its own battle to be fought . and she’d done so with a stiff lip, and tenacious stoicism. “ and it does not do you credit to believe I’m so easily won I would let them sway me . one of us is protecting allana. the other is making the threat against her worse by the hour. you made promises to protect us. but you leave me defenseless. you leave me reliant on you when I do not even recognize you anymore.”

“ they did what you have not in a long while. they have told me the truth. they’ve shown me proof of things I never wanted to believe of you,” even after seeing them with her own two eyes.

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tenel ka and the implication she used sex as a coping mechanism especially after being crowned queen at 17 and constantly being revered/ lusted after since with the line ‘ lovers are playthings, I’d never play with you jacen solo’

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for a brief, passing moment she lets herself hold her little girl. not so little anymore, but still small enough to curl up to her this way. and opened up that link between them, a promise sworn in silence — you’re okay , it’s okay . nothing is going to happen to us. she would not be the cold, unfeeling, unpresent figure anymore than she had to be. to grant her the years at peace before reality swept in once more.

“ there is, “ not outwardly horrific, but decidedly inappropriate. “ you could’ve asked , “ she pointed out, “ I’m sure they wouldn’t have denied you. “ maybe she’d get her her own. with some privacy blocks in place, but if it was a way to keep her occupied during those jumps in hyperspace, it seemed the least she could do. the least she could’ve offered — though it didn’t make up for the time she wasn’t there . she knows how much it hurts her; and she was proud of her bravery. though no child should’ve had to deal with what she’d suffered . so she smiles sadly once again, “ do you know how proud i am of you ? every single thing I hear, or they tell me . you’re doing so well. “

and there it was . she should’ve expected that . duty, well behaved sort of fun, respectability that was expected of the heir to the throne. “ he does, “ she concedes , “ because that’s what children do. and what his children did, as well. getting into trouble is perfectly normal, sweetheart. nobody faults you for it, “ not like they would. “ i certainly don’t . “

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“ then she should’ve considered that before getting her for you,” she said lightly, brows raising as she listens to her, “ where did you learn that from ?” briefly diverted; researching her pet’s species was smart, and she wondered if she’d done so on her own . she wouldn’t doubt she would. frowning a bit at the brief glimmer of loneliness, she’s already moving to kneel infront of her when she hugs her.

kneeling down so she was at her daughter’s height as opposed to hugging her waist – she noted, with a brief unsurprising flash of heartbreak that she’d gotten taller, even the slightest bit a reminder she wasn’t here to see it- she held onto her now, and heart straining, she pressed a kiss to the top of her head. “ i love you, you know. so much,” so much she was willing to live without her. “ i always will. there isn’t a day i don’t miss you,” there was no other choice.

not one where she was happy . though she laughs at that, brief, “ your grandpa considers troublemaking a solo family tradition. I’d ask your aunt jaina about that, if you want an honest answer - they’re obligated to give you the correct one.”

   Head buried in her mother’s dress, Allana fell silent for a moment, only grasping for the warm and familiar light in the force that she knew was her mother — how often did she stop herself from reaching out, from trying to establish a connection because she knew it wasn’t the PROPER thing for the Chume’da to do? She was supposed to be strong, be Hapes’ best instead she was scared, caused trouble … all because she missed her mother.

    “ I took Jaina’s datapad and searched the holonet for information on Nexu. Jaina wasn’t very happy I just opened the holonet without anyone else nearby. She said there is a lot of stuff I shouldn’t see on there. ” It felt almost like a JOKE to her. She had felt her father do horrible things, had seen glimpses of his work and the death around him. What could possibly be worse than that? “ I love you too … ” A confession muttered into the fabric of her mother’s dress as she refused to let go for a moment. How long until she would see her again this time? It could be weeks, months … a YEAR.

     “ Grandpa keeps saying its a family thing like he EXPECTS me to misbehave or cause trouble. I don’t like it. ”

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@resistancesheir : ❛  I’d rather die on an adventure than live standing still.  ❜

“ if you do not stand still sometimes, you lose focus. calculation is not — it won’t , be found in constant motion. the danger lies in becoming idle, “ lessons she’d learned over a myriad of years, due to more things then she’d ever readily admit to. it did no good dwelling on the past. less so the things that would never be the same again. things would never be the way they were at the temple, and tenel ka could not allow the room to mourn it .

“ yet i do agree , “ and she would die on her feet, in battle . she would not die the death of a coward. she would not be caught by surprise by her own fate . “ one would hope for a life, and end, of meaning . of significance. “

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“ i don’t want this, “ a bit off beat, the queen’s voice is quiet, sudden, “ your family, her blood – is leagues better than my own. but there’s no other choice. nothing that will make life easy for her. I’m already suspect, being a jedi, “ being the daughter of a woman the whole of the consortium considered weak. a fact that never quite failed to make her nauseous . constant attempts on their lives to change the line of succession . her line, her legacy proving nothing but a danger, already. “ if anyone else knew , the outcry from what remains of her supporters —“ she wasn’t blind, even though she’d repeated the same story. again and again. “ a non hapan father, already, but a jedi ? “

“ you give yourself too little , “ yet she reaches for that link nevertheless — the bright, shining presence that was allana. and brushes it. a gesture meant to calm her even further . a reminder that she was here . and she wasn’t going anywhere. her brows raise as he speaks, and she waits, waits for him to get the words out - the gesture not an untempting one to take him up on . “ giving birth ? you can stay, as long as you’d like to . I’m not quite so offend-able I’d be upset over you asking to help. though i have my own duties to attend to . rest will happen — eventually.”

𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧,  tenel ka.​

she stared at him for a long moment before she nodded, nodded and said, “ that might very well be necessary.” she could not know the truth just yet, and even if she did, tenel ka would have to teach her to be quiet about the circumstances of her birth. moreover, explain the dangers that would result from it . “ there won’t . though i appreciate the offer, the best thing we can do is keep the truth far away from her — as to not invite questions . “ though that would be risky in and of itself . whatever might become of her and jacen, and the already minuscule amounts of privacy gifted by being at home, her guard deeming it safe to at least traverse her own bed chambers alone.

she softens, eyes going from anakin to allana, who’d quieted since. “ she seems to like you, “ she remembers, briefly. the knighting ceremony where he’d been much the same with a young ben. yet ben was now a boy of eight , and that had been years ago. and so much had changed since — the beginnings of a smile still linger, she’d never been quite so tired - even during the days at the academy . but this …. had been worth it . “ this , is more than enough . i promise you. “

                    anyone else might consider tenel ka’s reply a daunting one.   admittedly,  even anakin aches quietly as it sets in,  though not because he’s wounded by it  ⎯  it’s the reality of the circumstances that hurt.   he can’t quite empathize with the truth being huddled off into some dark corner far away from him,  but he knows well enough the notion of a family divided.   of a childhood shielded and barred.   for allana,  it’s what has to be done,  and for tenel ka,  it’s what she has to do.   solemnly,  he responds to her,      “   acknowledged.   ”

                    it’s easy,  to follow her gaze.   for a moment,  he holds the girl just a little bit closer,  as if that might help to protect her.      “   don’t give me too much credit.   i think she just feels you,   ”      anakin says to tenel ka.   he hesitates for a long,  long second,  as he tries to find something,  anything,  that would be well - suited to give her;   there is the urge to insist that he do something,  but she’s been through enough,  and pushing anything is the last thing tenel ka needs right now.   when he speaks next,  his tone is light,  careful,  and he goes on,      “   i won’t stay longer than you want me to,  really,  but i know how  …  exhausting it can be,  what you’ve been through.   if permitted  ⎯  and i don’t mean to push,  or undermine you at all,  and i’m sorry to keep offering  ⎯  i could keep an eye on you two while you rest.   ”

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she’ll say ‘ he’s the Most UnFunny ‘ and then proceed to be the first one encouraging him to joke

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she stared at him for a long moment before she nodded, nodded and said, “ that might very well be necessary.” she could not know the truth just yet, and even if she did, tenel ka would have to teach her to be quiet about the circumstances of her birth. moreover, explain the dangers that would result from it . “ there won’t . though i appreciate the offer, the best thing we can do is keep the truth far away from her — as to not invite questions . “ though that would be risky in and of itself . whatever might become of her and jacen, and the already minuscule amounts of privacy gifted by being at home, her guard deeming it safe to at least traverse her own bed chambers alone.

she softens, eyes going from anakin to allana, who’d quieted since. “ she seems to like you, “ she remembers, briefly. the knighting ceremony where he’d been much the same with a young ben. yet ben was now a boy of eight , and that had been years ago. and so much had changed since — the beginnings of a smile still linger, she’d never been quite so tired - even during the days at the academy . but this …. had been worth it . “ this , is more than enough . i promise you. “

𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧,  tenel ka.​

@jedais : “ some laws were meant to be broken. ”

“ not these,” she says abruptly, even as she mourned the reality of it - even as she gently lowered the baby into his arms. a meeting allana would likely never remember. a connection that … they could not share with her. she could never know her father, let alone her uncle. and she was to be raised to acknowledge that . to keep it a secret. “ she’s going to be burdened extremely, it may not be truly illegal, but the laws of society — have already put her in danger once. if it was to get out, “ a note of anxiety creeping in, brushing the back of her hand against the now squirming babe’s forehead, a gentle, calming gesture . “ it’s a secret, for a reason. it’s no small thing, to trust you with it . “

                    arms give way,  just slightly,  as tenel ka passes allana over to him,  as if to better cushion the infant as she was handed to him,  before his hold on her turns secure,  safe.   anakin is a dozen star - systems away right now:   only dimly aware of the fact that he’s spoken at all,  deep frustration  ⎯  which he can only imagine is wildly dwarfed by tenel ka’s own  ⎯  slipping before he very well has the chance to stop it.   that frustration,  though,  while not short - lived,  is quashed as he looks down at the girl,  replaced by a familiar swell of warmth.   in his heart,  in the force.   instinctively,  he lets the walls he has up in the force chip away just enough to share that.   with allana,  with tenel ka;   trying to emphasize how sincerely he considers this honor,  how seriously he understands the situation.

                    “   it is a secret,   ”      anakin says quietly,  so quietly that he may as well be mouthing the words,      “   that i will take to my grave,  then.   ”      he didn’t like it,  was worried for whatever may await allana in the future,  but tenel ka knew what would be best for her daughter.   reluctantly,  he takes his eyes off of allana and glances up at her  ⎯  his friend,  his sister - in - law  ⎯  and adds,  still hushedly as if someone might be listening,      “   thank you,  tenel ka.   words can’t  …  i need you to know  ⎯  while i might not be able to do much for you,  or her  …  if there’s anything you need  …  anything i can do  …   ”

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𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐌𝐄 𝐆𝐎 👀.

okay so i got like, three books delivered this week, and in anticipation i reread another book that i had, and lads, let me tell ye, it was like quicksand. so now i have a list, some from my head, many from my wonderful friends’ heads, of prompts that basically made us all very soft or very “pleasantly scandalized rich lady from the sixties who just found out a juicy bit of goss about the new neighbor”. i hope ye like them! (DO NOT ADD TO THE LIST. I WILL MAKE A PART TWO. AND THREE. AND FOUR. MANY MANY PARTS. EVENTUALLY. )

[ HAIR ]:          sender slowly reaches out to catch a loose strand of the receiver’s hair and tuck it gently and securely back behind their ear, letting their touch linger afterwards. (if the receiver has short hair, then the sender reaches out and gently runs their fingers through their hair to smooth it back.)

[ CLOSE ]:          while standing remarkably close to one another, the sender is unable to stop themselves from running their gaze across the receiver’s body, lingering for a moment on their lips, before returning to initiate prolonged, intense eye contact.

[ CHIN ]:          as they stand close to one another, the sender hooks a finger and tenderly lifts the receiver’s chin, tilting it up so that they can look at one another, and running a thumb across their skin lightly.

[ THUMB ]:          while cupping the receiver’s cheek in their hand, the sender slowly glides their thumb across their cheekbone in a tender, sweeping caress.

[ WOUND ]:          upon noticing a recent injury on the receiver’s person, the sender carefully moves closer, running a thumb (or hand) across the wound in a gentle, troubled manner.

[ INHALE ]:          while standing in very close quarters to the receiver, the sender shakily inhales with desire/anticipation as they realize how intimately close they are to one another.

[ DANCE ]:          when alone together (e.g. the bedroom, the kitchen, literally anywhere once they’re alone) the sender takes the receiver’s hand, and pulls them into a graceful yet intimate dance as a spontaneous act.

[ BARE ]:          as they get undressed, the sender gently places a soft, tender kiss against the receiver’s bare shoulder.

[ SCAR ]:          noticing a scar on the receiver’s skin, the sender tentatively stops them from covering it up, and rests a gentle, soft kiss over it.

[ FOREHEAD ]:          placing a hand on the back of the receiver’s neck, the sender guides them close and rests their foreheads together.

[ PALM ]:          taking the receiver’s hand, the sender brings it to their mouth, and places a tender kiss against the receiver’s palm.

[ LINGER ]:          taking the receiver’s hand, the sender lifts it to their lips, and gently kisses their knuckles, lingering for a moment before withdrawing.

[ BEHIND ]:         upon entering the same room as the receiver, the sender steps behind them, and winds their arms around the receiver’s waist, drawing them close against them.

[ WAIT ]:          realizing the receiver is about to leave the room, the sender hastily reaches out and catches their wrist, preventing them from continuing their departure.

[ ARM ]:          after holding their hand, the sender releases the receiver, but slowly glides their hand up the full length of their arm, lingering on the upper arm, then the shoulder, then resting their touch against the side of their neck.

[ HOLD ]:          while close to the receiver, the sender wordlessly takes a hold of their hand, for no other purpose than to be holding it.

[ PLAY ]:          while sitting together, the sender absently lifts the receiver’s hand, idly running their fingertips across the lines of their palms, mapping out every inch of their hand with slow, lazy touches.

[ GUIDE ]:          in the process of guiding the receiver through a crowded place, the sender’s hand protectively grazes against the small of their back

[ TOUCH ]:          while touching the receiver’s waist, the sender’s hand briefly dips beneath the hem of their shirt, skimming briefly across the bare skin of their waist.

[ CUP ]:           bringing both hands up to cup the receiver’s face, the sender draws them in closer to them in order to get a better look at their face.

[ TUG ]:          the sender tugs the receiver close against them by resting a hand against the small of their back, pulling them flush against their body.

[ HUSH ]:          while standing close to one another and hiding from pursuers, the sender reaches up and places a finger against the receiver’s lips to prevent them from speaking and revealing their location.

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she would’ve had to know what happened to ta’a chume purely because jacen was the one in the room with her

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@jedais : “ some laws were meant to be broken. ”

“ not these,” she says abruptly, even as she mourned the reality of it - even as she gently lowered the baby into his arms. a meeting allana would likely never remember. a connection that … they could not share with her. she could never know her father, let alone her uncle. and she was to be raised to acknowledge that . to keep it a secret. “ she’s going to be burdened extremely, it may not be truly illegal, but the laws of society — have already put her in danger once. if it was to get out, “ a note of anxiety creeping in, brushing the back of her hand against the now squirming babe’s forehead, a gentle, calming gesture . “ it’s a secret, for a reason. it’s no small thing, to trust you with it . “

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like if u save

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teneniel, isolder , tenel ka, allana, ta’a chume, taryn/trista

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he’s leaving again. with the coming morning, though hapes did not see true night — he would leave before no other knew he’d been there at all. her guards knew, but whether they’d spoken a word… she trusted their secrecy. trusted in that small show of loyalty more than most. and she’d learned not to mourn the confines of their relationship , love spent in the days he could get away — whenever she could give them time. it was never going to be like it was. when the world did not lean so heavily in on the two of them, when they were beholden to no other beyond the order, and themselves. “ i know you must, “ she said softly, “ but everytime you leave, i miss you . “

@astraldestiny : ❛  04 .   a  kiss  to  apologize . from jacen

the kiss lingers, and she leans her forehead against his, palm bracing on the back of his neck. “ the galaxy may not, but you and i know the truth, “ she’d never been the best with emotion, not quite grasping the finer aspects of how you declare such a thing so openly . but it had never mattered to him. never mattered to the boy he’d been or the man he’d grown up to be . it had never phased him, the lack of such things. and in the process he had become something so integral to her , without the necessity of the force linking them together. the promise they’d carried out through action, coming together whenever they could .

“ i love you.” their secret, that though the likelihood of them never declaring themselves openly weighed, part of her liked having this all to themselves . no opinions, no people coming between them and what mattered most - at least would could matter most right here. the only place it had ever truly been safe to feel entirely .

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endless gifs of kate sharma - 179/∞

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A DOLL 🥹🫶🏼❤️

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her hiding her lightsaber in her dress 😌

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the fact she had to stone face people calling teneniel weak to her face because then they’d think the same about her