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Hani Entry #1 <3 11/10/23

My names Hani and I hate the DPS. I've been struggling to attain my drivers liscence ever since I became a legal adult, and I hate it. Where I live the city is not walkable at all. I bought apple cider today when I went to the store. I loved apple cider when I was little, so I hope I love it just as much now. I am praying that I will be able to get my driver's liscence before we go on turkey break for my college and work. One of my besties is coming all the way from Chicago to come see me and I've missed her so much, I cannot wait to see her. These entries are a culmination of my thoughts throughout the day, or perhaps only the end of the day when I get to write. My favorite color is purple so I hope there is a way for me to change my page color to pastel purple. I hate being broke, I work full time and live with my mom and I am still broke. I don't know how long I can leave my wallet with this brokeness disorder. College is obliterating me, anyone else in the same boat?  I know I procrastinate quite a bit, but this work load is insane. I haven't been able to take my lab class for chemistry which is the only reason why I want to major in Chemistry ( for the fun experiments) and its making me very sad. Today I cried after about the 394762th failed attempt at getting my driver's liscence. I just came home and plopped on my bed and started bawling. I went to the store with my mom, its a nice one with food area's and all ( I love the sandwiches they have). When we got to the register the boy taking care of our items kept smiling. I see him there every time I go with my mom and I always wear my older brothers dusty sweater when I go (quite literally every time). The cashier is really tiny and adorable, he's shorter than me (he looks like he could fit in my pocket and he has a braces smile). When I was crying about my liscence I thought of his face and it made me cry more, because I thought at least he probably has his driver's liscence and I don't :< I know how to drive it's just, every time I think all of the mechanical issues with my moms car are gone, a new problem pops out on me, not allowing me to get certified. I got my permit again though (its not that useful, I cant drive by myself). I don't want to go to school next semester but my Colombian mom would whoop my ass, so I should probably register for my classes tonight before they fill up.  I really do think having a black cat would solve all of my problems but i'm allergic I hope every one reading this has a great night, may all of your fuzzy blankets stay warm and all your pillows fluffy. I love gummy worms. (I think he like's gummy worms as well, he spoke to himself once at the counter and said "ooh gummy worms!" ) That was adorable. I need to make more money, I will continue to clock in at my clinic. For the good of the people/patients and my wallet.