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handlelovewithcareattitude · 4 years ago

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My journey to ( Motherhood)

Its a phase every women at least think about. I also thought it in a similar phase. I was trying hard to get pregnant but these days we have this problem called #PCOS alongside. I am also suffering from the same. I took almost 6 follicular cycles and one #IUI session. But nothing worked out. My mother told me to be stress free but that's just not possible. I had a polyp which was working as a good contraception and I couldn't get pregnant because of that. So i got it removed. Then came my 1st pregnancy and I was really looking forward to it and then miscarriage at 8 weeks.

Then after a year I again got pregnant and this pregnancy was a success but with a little twist as I was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes that too in 1st month. Woohoo!!!

I was looking forward to so many things but usually whatever you ask or you think doesn't come true. My husband has his own priorities and he used to have fun with his friends and used to go parties leaving me home alone. ( I live in a joint family with my in-laws). But things are not usually same which we think. My parents were my support system along with my husband. May be I had mood disorders and I dint like him going out. I was a working lady at that time, that actually helped me a lot, because when you go out and work that will not allow you to think too much. Then my day comes suddenly and literally I was not prepared for the delivery as it was my 1st time. I had to go for C section which I thought was a better option for me. ( People do take this thing very negatively if a lady goes for C section. Its actually not a big deal. I think its the safest option and doctors can never go wrong with this. )

So my doctor who is a male gynecologist is really a carefree person. He was in OT and was discussing about me with all the doctors out there and the staff that Im really apprehensive and at the same wanted my child to come and suck my breast on the OT table itself.

There the story of my motherhood began. I thought I will be able to handle the trauma myself and with my husband. But as parents we were inexperienced and could not do much so my husband left me with my mother in law. I wanted my husband to stand by my side. My mother in law has her own conservative thoughts and wants me to follow it which is beyond my ethics which I teach people.

I am a Doctor by profession and that too a #motherandchildcare specialist and a lactation consultant.

1st day in the hospital and I wanted to feed my baby and these people not being supportive enough he has to take formula which was beyond my ethics. But in that 48 hours I thought I have to get up and see myself , but this pain and irritation level increased and no one bothered. No one bothered that a mother hormonal levels will change after delivery and she needs care according to her. I hope I will be able to educate more people about this because its the worst time for a mother baby dyad if they are not being understood.

After all this hormonal change I came home, it was a nice welcome from the family but again everything has to go according to them. Now the story begins with a twist.

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