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My thoughts

I always have so much on my mind and don't know where to start. Everyone expects so much from me .... But I think every one feels that way. So how do you mange it all how to do tackle this never ending list that life presents you. Do you focus on your dreams first or do you focus on the real life tasks that consume you everyday. Finance, family, love and work. When you spell it out like that the list looks so simple. Hmmm but it's not all of those have subcategories that overwhelm me daily. I don't know just putting it out in the universe and hopefully one day it will come together

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Invite

So my son turned 13 the other day and we took him bowling and trick or treating this past weekend. Now we didn't to a big formal party just me my husband my daughter my mother in law and my nephew. So today I saw my aunt and she said thanks for my invite to My son's birthday. Let me be very clear that I don't have time to coddle your feelings. First of we are family second off if you want to be a part of my children's lives then reach out to them. It is not their fucking job not mine to make you a priority if I am not a priority in your. Relationships that means something to you are a two way street. If you feel the need to express you discuss for me about my lack of an invitation think about what you not doing to be at the top of that list... And I sick you mofos acting like they do it and handle shit so much better. I don't have time to be dealing with your petty insecurities. I'm over here dealing with my own problems and bitch want to ruin my damn day. See what else I won't invite you add to and by the by i really am not that ducking formal ....

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Customer Service

I think that customer service is a dead. No more do you walk into a place and people great you.... Are we so desensitized that we just dismiss people because they don't meet our own personal standard? I am so sick of being dismissed because you feel like I am not worthy of your precious time. I work with people everyday and I am constantly trying to give them a level of so service that's in matched. Service is this thing that people long for and want because we as a culture are so self entitled that we fail to see how we are to treat other people. If you don't want to do the basic requirements of your job maybe you should get the fuck out of the sales business. Yea there are good days and bad days but at the end of the day I still do my fucking job. Fuck you shitty ass sales people

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This guy

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Waiting at the bank

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Random

I always say I'm going to do certain things but never follow through because I think more so I am afraid of being judged. I live in my little bubble and don't really let people in. I want to be out on this great stage but just shy away. People always love my insight and how I just put it all out there but really I only put a little for them to see.... But why? I'm afraid but I am honest enough with myself to know that I am afraid to move to grow because thus far the growing process of life has tainted me has changed me in a manner that I didn't expect it to. It has made me weak, fearful of failing. It shouldn't have it should have made me stronger but in some ways it might have. My daughter told me that she see me in a manner that I don't see myself, selfless because despite how I am viewed I will bout everything thing aside to maintain their happiness... Comforting coming from a 16 year old but she is completely right. I do selfless things all the time that go unnoticed and just once I would like someone to notice. But maybe my real problem is me I claim to be honest with myself but I haven't been I have been hiding behind the pain to scared to fully face the truth about who I am. I am a cold hearted bitch and because society says that's really not nice I have tried my best to conform and it makes me weaker everyday. It still my inner peace and inner joy all the time trying to be sugar and spice and everything ducking thing nice. How come I can't just be brutally honest and people around me just suck the shit up and deal. Trying to tactfully deliver every message so not to offend people ugh... It's seeps in like a toxin and ruins who you really are. I'm really getting to old to be babysitting your personal feelings and plus it's making a mockery of my life. Oh just some of my random thoughts

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Turn the light off lady #Prada #yorkie #petsofinstagram #yorkielove #yorkielover #puppylove #puppylover #dog #doglove #doglover #instacute #instagood #instafamous #igers #yorkiesofinstagram #yorkiesofig #yorkies #yorkshireterrier

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Yup I was groven lol #ariannagrande #concert #instagood #fun #lol (at Scottrade Center)

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#ariannagrande the things we do for our kids lol #concert #mom #mommylife #mommy #daughter #tired #teens #fun #instacute #instagood (at Scottrade Center- St Louis Blues v Lightning)

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I'm not ready she is so big.... #homecoming2015 #homecoming #minime #babygirl #daughter #mom #mommy #proud #family #mugged #mug #painted #slay #swag #fly #done #beat #cute #cutegirl #noweave #lol

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She so fire I filter needed! #homecoming2015 #homecoming #minime #proud #family #qualitytime #growingup #mom #mommy #daughter #love #pretty #prettygirl #mug #mugged #painted #lashes #beat #slay #face

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Ikea yeasss! #ikeaselfie #ikeastl #selfie #selfish #hashtag #imsohappy #instacute #instagood #instafamous (at Ikea St Louis)

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Ha Ha my retail peeps know what I'm talking about #retail #sales #sale #commission #igers #hashtag #lol

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This guy up on the Jumbotron #usnavy #Cardinals #cardinalsgame #cardinalsnation #cardinalsbaseball #military #militaryappreciationday #hashtag #igers #instacute #instagood #instafamous #proud #navywife #love (at Busch Stadium)

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Military Appreciation Day, Thanks #Cardinals #cardinalsnation #cardinalsbaseball #usnavy #instagood #instafamous #instacute #igers #hashtag (at Busch Stadium)

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I love this little lady. #minime #daughter #mom #mommy #love #family #qualitytime #selfie #selfish #gocards #cardinalsnation #cardinalsgame #cardinalsbaseball #hashtag #igers #instacute #instagood #instafamous #pretty (at Busch Stadium)

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Hell yea ultrasound. Proud auntie #babyonboard #baby #ultrasound #family #auntie #auntielove #auntiesbaby #babyboy #babygirl #instafamous #instagood #instacute #igers #hashtag #imsohappy #excited