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If you drank Jack Daniels before you were 21, you may be entitled to financial compensation.

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No literally.

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I’m so sick of the government man😂😂😂 cause why you can’t enter the country if you got a meme of JD Vance on your phone but the White House can post the damn Bumpit’s commercial on their instagram?

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How you gonna mock my relationship from inside my dreams big dumbass. 😂😂 god I love sounding crazy on the internet.

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One thing about me is I have narcolepsy type 1 with cataplexy. Because of this I also get visual and auditory hallucinations, most of the time it’s just people breaking into the house, sometimes is a hallucination I can physically feel putting pressure on my body.

Why tf did I hallucinate my ex knocking on my front door and then coming into my house hollerin “HELLO? ANYONE HOME?” Like no man go on somewhere.

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Lmao she may as well have made her TikTok info say “future career in an occupation my husband’s ex was talking about wanting to do when they broke up”

The wife and the raggedy ass sister keep poppin up in my people to add on TikTok and I don’t wanna view their profiles and give them that notification just to block them. But I did definitely block captain crunchy socks like immediately after I seen him view my profile for the first time.

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I’m friend’s with my ex’s ex wife. Sometimes she tells me things about him that make me wanna hurt the man. I definitely won’t physically harm him but I might definitely call him a bad dad to his face one day. Which sucks tbh, cause it just shows how much this person he’s with has ruined him. Dude used to be at least an asshole with potential for redemption; I don’t know how you come back from yelling at your kids about how you don’t want to see them anymore. If it wasn’t already enough that his partner refused to wear actual clothes around his children to the point that cps had to get involved, he done went and did that. I will never understand the idea behind trying to come between a man and his children, and I’ve lived it from the kid’s perspective. But at least the kids see him for who he is now, but I’m just disappointed because I know he used to be a completely different person for those kids, like he would be the most doting and loving person to his kids, until he got with this person he’s with I never knew him not to genuinely want the best for his kids. And his partner is crazy too, but that’s for reasons that make them a little bit too identifiable for me to be comfortable posting.

Anyway. My ex is a bad dad and I feel bad for his children that they have to go through life with him as a father. They deserve better and I wish he would do better for them. At least he’s finally paying child support tho. Cause tbh, fuck that guy fr. I’m glad I left his dusty ass.

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You wanna know what’s always gonna be funny as fuck to me? Remembering that time my ex’s sister tried to come for me over my kid living with my mom. Cause I don’t think I said shit about it to her back then, but someone quickly go ask that bitch where the fuck her 3 oldest kids was living 5-6 days a week when she was cheating on her ex husband. Cause it definitely wasn’t with her. Her mom and dad had the oldest damn near every night, and her other two was staying with her ex’s family. And what was she doing? Well, you can’t cheat on your husband while he’s at work if the kids are home huh. Drove that man to trying to commit suicide, and (as I was told) had to call her mommy and brother to come pick up the pieces of the mess she made while her husband had a whole gun to his head and her sitting in the living room on her damn phone. And I absolutely love for those babies that she and her ex have a seemingly phenomenal co parenting relationship now, but 2016/2017 still happened. I was there. At her parent’s house damn near every day. I seent that shit with my own eyes.

Like how you gonna confidently try to come for me when you did all that, and more. Pathetic. If my ex’s sister has a million haters, I am one of them, if she has one hater, it is me, and if she has no haters, check on me cause I probably died.

Idk I just feel like if she said some shit to my face, which she won’t cause she a bitch, I’d have to say something back about that happening. And she’d either get mad as hell and shut up cause I’m right or she’d get mad and try to physically escalate the situation for me bringing up something she is HOPEFULLY ashamed of. I know emotions were a second to learning how to fight in that house, but damn. Maybe ole momma shouldn’t have missed when she threw that ceramic whatever the fuck at the wall.

And I do say all of this while still holding an immense amount of respect for my ex’s parents; especially his father for stepping up and helping his mother raise that sister of his who I can’t stand. Because I truly believe they were raised well, but I also believe his sister turned 18 and got that “you can’t tell me what to do” type attitude and then no one ever put her back in her place so now she thinks she’s hot shit. Her mother should have beat her ass in the yard over doing what she did to her ex, and for putting her kids off on other people while she did it.

Anyway. That’s the tweet.

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Imagine hating me and my biggest worry is how I’m supposed to make it to 3 different concerts this month without burning myself out😂

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I haven’t been gone very long, but it feels like a lifetime.

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Summer Bulbasaur

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Lmao

I was gonna tweet this but something tells me if I post it here it’ll still be seen by the correct audience.

AINT NOBODY WANT THAT MAN BUT YOU GIRL. AINT NOBODY WANT HIM BUT YOU. AINT NO DAMN BODY OUT HERE TRYINA TAKE YOUR MAN. AINT NOBODY OUT HERE EVEN THINKING ABOUT TRYINA TAKE THAT MAN FROM YOU CAUSE HE AINT WORTH THE EFFORT HIS POOR MOMMA PUT INTO MAKING HIM. Besides, going back to some cold, dusty ass leftovers ain’t gonna fill nobody up, just boutta make em puke. But also imagine actually reasonably thinking your man could be taken, and then still be worth keeping around. IF HE CAN GET TOOK LET HIS ASS GOOOOOOOOOOOO. BUT HE AINT COMIN OVER HERE THATS ALL I KNOW FOR D A M N SURE.

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bitches hate me for my earnest whimsy and my pathological degree of avoidant behavior

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Unhinged tumblr posts in the early hours of the morning🙃 hate to see it

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My mom has some audacity. And like, this ain’t got shit to do with my kid, so. But I was telling her about all these signs I feel like I’ve gotten from a specific member of my spirit team, that I’m largely ignoring, not because I don’t trust or believe in this specific member of my team, it’s just like. I’m good where I’m at right now, I do not want the person they keep trying to push me towards. I haven’t wanted that person in many many years, and I do not ever see myself wanting that person ever again. But I was telling my mom about it cause I was like “haha yea bro came with the fuck shit lmao” and she goes “I WANT THAT TOO! THATS WHAT I HOPE YOU DO TOO!” And like— first of all, rude. Like just fucking R U D E. Christopher already knows she doesn’t like him, but she doesn’t have to be this open about how much she wishes I was with someone else. I’m fucking sick of the shit. CAUSE NOT HER ALSO LITERALLY CALLING ME “ON ACCIDENT” AND THEN CUTTING ME OFF IN THE MIDDLE OF TALKING TO SAY “I GOT A [red beard McCringe] HUG TODAY” like. Good for you? Why’d you say it in that tone, bitch? Was I meant to be jealous? “Does that bother you?” That you hugged him? No. That you cut me off and said it how you said it? Very fukin much so. Like. Was it supposed to bother me, mother? Was I meant to be jealous about that shit? I don’t even want to be in the same room as him, and yet I still feel the need to over explain how much I don’t want him because I’m terrified of being misunderstood. Let me make it abundantly clear, spirit team member that keeps throwing those messages my way, I love you, I miss you, I appreciate your love and wisdom; he had a second chance, you were there. Not something I’m trying to ever revisit, not someone I ever want to or plan to peruse again.

The man I’m with is good to me, he makes me happy, he makes me laugh, he feels like home, I want to spend the rest of my life with him because I love him and he loves me, and he makes me feel loved. His patience is unmatched, I’ve gone through so many different mental health issues, done some awful things, at one point my therapist had me on different medication every other month trying to figure out what was the best one for me, he dealt with me and the side effects of taking the wrong medication during that process, I cheated on him in a manic episode, I also hung out with someone and didn’t tell him and then I got s/a’d because that person’s girlfriend’s babydaddy bailed on her so she couldn’t come hang out. And he stood beside me. He’s held me while I cried over everything from missing Connor and not being able to see him for a while to accidentally spilling my drink on my shirt; he’s held my hand through getting the repressed memories about my dad back, he’s talked me through those memories as best as he can and if I didn’t have him to talk to about those memories then I literally wouldn’t have anyone at all because I tried to talk to miranda and a couple other people and they just called me crazy and said I was trying to start shit because I’m mad. He was beside me through going no contact with my dad, stepmom, and grandma, and losing brynlee and grandpa and Miranda in the process. Hell, the man held my right leg as I gave birth to his child almost 4 and a half years ago. He’s not been perfect, he’s definitely made mistakes; so have I. We’ve grown together as people and I love him, I just love him, that’s all there is to it. I’d risk it all for that man. And will risk it all because these god damn signs that I need to break up with him and wait for captain crunchy socks to hit me up are becoming unignorable, and I’m kinda tired of it. And the way it’s got me like, if it can’t be Christopher just make it Andrew and not dollar tree Tyler Cheilders, makes me gag; like dear god just make it my closest friend in the world (other than Chris) if it can’t be Chris cause I don’t even want Ed Sheeran in my line of sight.

And like, I wouldn’t take these things I’m seeing and the cards I’m pulling and the songs I’m hearing as signs if it didn’t happen almost every day for almost a year. It’s been happening longer than that, but it’s been constantly happening daily for almost a year. Like I can’t sleep at night because when I close my eyes sometimes all I see is the passenger perspective of driving down a backroad. Thoughts of what could have been flood my mind for the first time in years, and it makes me want to throw up. My stomach is turning now at just the slightest inclination of theorizing about what could have been. And not because it makes me sad to think about, but because it makes me angry that I allowed him to lie to me the way he did that night, and then I also allowed him to vent to me about how unhappy he was, and now they look like the most perfect little family in the world and honestly I truly think they’re adorable together and that they have a beautiful family together; like, between the two of them I miss her. Losing her friendship like that hurt more than losing him ever did. Finding out from other people that they had been lying on my name and talking shit behind my back hurt more than losing him ever did. Shit, having to block Andrew over political disagreements hurts more than losing him ever did. Are we seeing the pattern here? So I would like to stop having the “Landlocked Blues by Bright Eyes” card literally thrown across the bed at me when I’m shuffling the cards I made, and I’d like to stop receiving messages in my tarot cards that I need to end my relationship with Christopher every time I get my cards out. Like. I mean what’s meant to happen will happen regardless of what I want or what anyone else wants, but it would be cooler if it could just not this time. Like. I’m tired of this grandpa. And it shouldn’t be too damn bad.