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Web weaving on" To love and to be loved , to want and to be wanted"

{Words by: Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals; p. 165/Emily Palermo, What I Could Never Confess Without Some Bravado, published in Rising Phoenix Review/Haruki Murakami/@chaandajaan on Tumblr/desperation sits heavy on my tongue, @tullipsink / images: Pinterest}

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I am terrified of never belonging anywhere, I am scared I will never find a home for myself. I am scared that everyone will have their homes, and I will be that person again who belongs nowhere with no one. I am petrified of that kinda future.

I can't do anything about it though, no-one seems to like me enough to share a life with me and I can't be selfish and not be happy that everyone is finding their places in the world. Am I allowed to be envious of it? Cause it has always been my deepest darkest desire to make a home for myself full of love and laughter, but each year, it seems like a dumb dream cause who would want me anyway? What kind of home would I build except a screwed up one?

So each year I deeply hope iam wrong and someone will come along and help me build that home of mine, share it with me and grow old with me and every year iam wrong so maybe I should accept my defeat. I am unlovable, undesirable, and forever homeless.

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I always wonder about the people who only care about themselves. Do they live a happier life? Do they breathe more easily? Do they have no regrets? I wish I knew how to stop caring just even for a little bit

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“Love didn’t hurt you. Someone who doesn’t know how to love you hurt you. Don’t confuse the two.”

— Unknown

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I think all of us at some point were told to be something we are not, just so we are accepted by the world. I was told to be less, less loud, less weight wise, less sassy, the world has made me feel always too much of a misfit and so i tried my best to do what i was told fearing the rejection and judgment. Until one day i had enough of that, I felt like a misfit anyway, and i always felt as if i took too much space and you know what, i like being too much, i like being loud, sassy, snarky, fatty, whatever i was called it is mine and only mine to be and that i would embrace forever.

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“It’s quite an undertaking to start loving somebody. You have to have energy, generosity, blindness. There is even a moment right at the start where you have to jump across an abyss: if you think about it you don’t do it.”

— Jean-Paul Sartre

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“When people walk away from you, let them go. You shouldn’t have to talk them into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, or coming to see you … For if they really cared about you in the first place, they would not be going anywhere.”

— Unknown

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“Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.”

— Emily Bronte 

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“Love isn’t something you have to deserve.”

— Jennifer Echols / Such a Rush

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“I’ll be here just waiting and hoping for every long dream of you to come true.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

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