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i dont even like melbourne. i cringe at myself when i dont produce creative works and work just for money and just be the audience for others’ show because i dont have the network/language/technical ability to make works and show them. that is because i was self conscious as fuck. but now im making work, havent shown to a lot of people, but i feel good about it because i feel good about it. at this time i dont need anyone’s validation, in fact, some people were kind enough to give me compliments but i dont see how nice words contribute to my growing. 

at the end of the day my bones are tired and i just need to be fucked my brains out

but instead of caresses and orgasms, what i got was questions that never seemed to finish.

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I think that translating is the most profound, most intimate way of reading. A translation is a wonderful, dynamic encounter between two languages, two texts, two writers. It entails a doubling, a renewal….It was a way of getting close to different languages, of feeling connected to writers very distant from me in space and time.

Jhumpa Lahiri (In Other Words, 2016)

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Shocking info, I know

Muslim people are not terrorists

Black people and latinx people are not thugs

Women deserve equal pay and reproductive rights

Lgtbq+ people are people and deserve rights

Disabled people should not be mocked and are not burdens

Mentally ill people are not violent monsters

Working class people deserve a livable wage

People who meet at the intersection of these identities are still people

I know, who would have thought

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The best way to get along with people is not to expect them to be like you.

Joyce Meyer (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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Rotten

some people are like rotten fruits. I'm not grossed out by them but i want nothing to do with them. I am oftem infuriated by inequality despite knowing that it's a fact of life. Seeing him complaining about 'having' to go to the US to study reminds me of my high school time when I wanted it so badly, but was ridden with both intellectual and financial insecurities. How could someone go to uni and complain? I don't understand. Sometimes i would procrastinate doing my assignments but i never ever wished that i didnt have uni. Life has been so different for me if I wasn't exposed to western education. And he kept showing off his cars and talking about money. Money's a tricky thing: i want it like anybody else, but cant take shit from a job that gives me financial merit and nothing else. Materialism is totally a deal breaker for me. I have literally stopped communicating with a few people after they showed their desire for money and recognition. Doesn't mean im more morally superior- but i will keep my opinion that money is the cheapest thing and wanting recognition is a sign of creative/mental cancer. Don't ever think about shits like career and recognition, 'công danh' as they say. like patti smith has said focus on building a good name. Make consistently good stuff for the sake of it, for the creative reward of having digged deep and thoroughly followed a topic.

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last day of 2016. everything reeks of existential dread.

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i dont know

‘you had to resort to strangers eh? im here’. - she said

memories start rolling back to me from whatever corner i dont know, i thought cells in our bodies always start renewing and after 7 years we can have a totally new body, technically becoming a new person. 

i remember the last year of secondary school when i was preparing for the entrance exam for high school. back then it was a do-or-die situation and my singlemindedness sort of set me apart from my peers. i bottled up a lot of feelings, sometimes i would wrote a blog entry on Multiply, a social media site that stopped working a few years ago thus wiped off a part of my life. most of the time i would just listened to loud music, took a walk around the lake with earphones on so i still felt like someone was communicating to me.

my social circle now became much larger. i met interesting people, people who i could actually discuss things with, co-workers whom i respect and feel lucky to have on the team. why the loneliness? even when after i have had the love of my life? i feel like a 9 grader again, wanting something so much that conversations became sort of meaningless to her. i know that i want to create and live more fiercely, but this desire has been locking me in rather than opening up life. 

i may say goodbye to my clone facebook account. i dont want anyone to reply to my thoughts. no one has the right to do that.

everybody has to take on their own burden. remember that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NtxmnBQmfZs

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- I don’t know how to do this. - Do what? - Just help me. Can you just… just make this easy for me?

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I love these posts @word-stuck!

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takane no hana 高嶺の花 

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Masterpost: How to Begin Studying Philosophy

I get a lot of messages from people interested in beginning their education in philosophy - this is a masterpost for people who might ask that daunting question. From here you get to choose your own adventure. You can jump right into a philosophy book that you’re interested in, listen to podcasts, read a comic book, take an online class. Find what works for you. As with everything, you have to start somewhere.

Books 

General Philosophy - Meditations by Descartes, The Apology by Plato, The Anti-Christ/Birth of Tragedy by Nietzsche, An Inquiry Concerning Human Nature by Hume, The Problems of Philosophy by Russell, Meditations by Aurelius 

Ethics - Famine Affluence Morality by Singer, Nicomachean Ethics by Aristotle,  Utilitarianism by Mill

Political Philosophy - The Republic by Plato, On Liberty by Mill, The Prince by Machiavelli , The Social Contract by Rousseau 

Environmental Ethics - Sand County Almanac by Leopold, Animal Liberation by Singer, The Ethics of Climate Change by Garvey

Existentialism - Existentialism is a Humanism and Existentialism and Human Emotion by Sartre, Myth of Sisyphus by Camus

Eastern Philosophy - Bhagvad Gita, Tao Te Ching (the Laozi), The Art of War by Tzu

Students of Philosophy protip - if you’re reading a book, it’s a good idea to have that book in print so you can actively read. Mark your philosophy books up with a highlighter, underline, take notes in the margins. Most philosophy books can be found on Amazon for pennies or at discount bookstores. 

Philosophy in Literature (these are stories heavily imbued with philosophy)

Thus Spoke Zarathustra by Nietzsche, The Stranger by Camus, All Men are Mortal by de Beauvoir, any of Plato’s dialogues actually, Siddhartha by Hesse, Under the Net by Murdoch, No Exit by Sartre, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance (philosophical autobiography)

Overview Books 

(books to give you a general overview of philosophy but that aren’t persay a “philosophy” book)

History of Western Philosophy by Russell*

From Socrates to Sartre

Sophie’s World (also a fictional story)

Doing Philosophy by Gerald Rochelle (”how” to “do” philosophy)

Students of Philosophy protip - reading a “history of philosophy” book that goes through various philosophers and trends in philosophy will help direct you towards what you’re interested in and is Bar’s recommended platform for learning philosophy, even if it isn’t the most fun method

* This is the book I see most often recomended for begniing an education in philosophy. 

Other Mediums to Learn by

Learning by Listening and Watching

Crash Course in Philosophy (Hank Green PBS youtube series)

Partially Examined Life podcast (roundtable discussion about philosophical ideas, accessible for beginners)

Wireless Philosophy (youtube series done by university professors)

School of Life (well made educational youtube series)

Comic Series

Action Philosophers Comic Series

Online Courses

Oxford University Philosophy Classes

Oxford University General Philosophy Podcast

1200 Open Courses 

Wes Cecil Lectures

Students of Philosophy protip - if you haven’t already seen, most words are linked back to their original source. 

Reference Links

Specific Genres

Analytic Philosophy (a long step by step guide)

Existentialism 

Other Guides to Beginning Philosophy 

Pathways

Quora

Existential Comics (a truly wonderful masterpost-esque guide)

Helpful Posts

How to Read Philosophy

Areistotle’s “How to Study” Masterpost

Why Study Philosophy Anyways Masterpost

More Links 

Study Guide for the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy

How to Study Philosophy on Your Own

Female Philosophers

TV Shows with Philosophical Themes

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rest in peace, angel. (1990-2016)

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We are a product of our past but we don’t have to be its prisoner.

Rick Warren (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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Do your chores, Kelly Reemtsen

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“Unhappy consciousness is the fundamental theme of the Phenomenology. Consciousness, as such, is in principle always unhappy consciousness, for it has not yet reached the concrete identity of certainty and truth, and therefore it aims at something beyond itself. The happy consciousness is either a naive consciousness which is not yet aware of its misfortune or a consciousness that has overcome its duality and discovered a unity beyond separation. For this reason we find the theme of unhappy consciousness present in various forms throughout the Phenomenology.

Nonetheless, unhappy consciousness, in the strict sense of the term, is the result of the development of self-consciousness. Self-consciousness is subjectivity constituted as truth, and this subjectivity must discover its own inadequacy and experience the pain of the self that fails to reach unity with itself. As we have seen, self-consciousness is the reflection of consciousness on itself; this reflection implies a split from life, a separation so radical that consciousness of it is consciousness of the unhappiness of all reflection. As Hegel says, ‘consciousness of life, of existence, and of its acts is only pain concerning that existence and those acts. For it is conscious only that its contrary is essence and that it is nothing’. This passage concretely defines the misfortune of self-consciousness. Consciousness of life is a separation from life, an opposing reflection: to become aware of life is to know that true life is absent and to find oneself thrown back on nothingness. This feeling of disparity within the self, of the impossibility of the self coinciding with itself in reflection, is indeed the basis of subjectivity.”

J. Hyppolite, Genesis and Structure of Hegel’s Phenomenology of Spirit

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Stellan Skarsgård on stories, Scandinavia, and showing his dick for Lars von Trier.