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(A thousand suns Or Unseen war Or The labyrinth)

*Verse one (?)* Or *One stanza (?)* Hot water. Cold air. The weight of the world to bear. I am numb I am going speachless My knees. My legs. Becoming strengthenless. I scream to the celing. I fall to the floor. I am trapped in my head no sight of the door. The empty rooms in my mind Are now filled with regrets and the one I left behind. *Chorus(?)* Or *2 stanza* The tears leave my eyes I realize I can never escape This hell i did create. I cannot see Blindly Fighting a war Thats inside of me. The weight of the world It's Holding me down Like the weight of a thousand suns. *Verse (2)* Or *3 stanza (?)* All the voids and sorrows in my mind An abyss stealing the light leaving me blind. The lonely thoughts. I feel emptiness. The constant fears. Are relentless I shake them off. I see the light. I try to get up. The demons hold me tight. *Chorus(?) Song version only* The tears leave my eyes I realize I can never escape This hell I did create. I cannot see Blindly Fighting a war Thats inside of me. I feel the weight of the world It's Holding me down Like the weight of a thousand suns. *Final break down (?)* Or *Couplet(?)* How can you win a lossing battle. When the enemy is youself. *Fading chorus(?) Song only* The tears leave my eyes I realize I can never escape This hell I did create. I cannot see Blindly Fighting a war Thats inside of me. I must escape.

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Something you regret, your greatest wish, and your greatest fear

I regret nothing. For everything made me who I am today. My biggest wish is to find a lasting happiness. My biggest fear is being abandoned and cheated on.

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Do You Love Someone With Depression?

If you have a partner or are close to someone who struggles with depression, you may not always know how to show them you love them. One day they may seem fine, and the next they are sad, distant and may push you away. It is important that you know that as a person who is close to them and trusted by them, you can help your friend or partner have shorter, less severe bouts of depression. Mental illness is as real as physical illness (it is physical actually, read more about that here) and your partner needs you as much as they would need to be cared for if they had the flu.

Your relationship may seem one-sided during these times, but by helping your partner through a very difficult and painful affliction, you are strengthening your relationship and their mental health in the long term.

1. Help them keep clutter at bay.

When a person begins spiraling into depression, they may feel like they are slowing down while the world around them speeds up. The mail may end up in stacks, dishes can pile up in the sink, laundry may go undone as the depressed person begins to feel more and more overwhelmed by their daily routine and unable to keep up. By giving your partner some extra help sorting mail, washing dishes or using paper plates and keeping chaos in check in general, you’ll be giving them (and yourself) the gift of a calm  environment. (I’m a fan of the minimalist movement because of this, you can read more about that here.)

2. Fix them a healthy meal.

Your partner may do one of two things when they are in a depressed state. They may eat very little, or they may overeat. In either case, they may find that driving through a fast food restaurant or ordering a pizza online is just easier than fixing a meal. Eating like this, or neglecting to eat will only degrade your partner’s health, causing them to go deeper into their depression. Help your loved one keep their body healthy, and their mind will follow. This is a great article that talks about the “Brain Diet” which can help the symptoms of depression, and this article talks about how our modern diet could contribute to the recent rise in depression. Here is a recipe for a trail mix that is quick to make and has mood-boosting properties.

3.Get them outside.

 The benefits of getting outside for a depressed person are huge. And it is possibly the last thing on earth your partner will want to do. Take them to be somewhere in nature. Pack a picnic and lie in the sun, take a leisurely hike or plant a garden. Being barefoot in the dirt, or “earthing” helps ground the body and reverse the effects of living in a world of emf’s, and digging in soil can actually act as an antidepressant, as a strain of bacterium in soil, Mycobacterium vaccae, triggers the release of seratonin, which in turn elevates mood and decreases anxiety. Sunshine increases Vitamin D production which can help alleviate depression. My friend Elizabeth wrote an excellent post about Vitamin D and its link to depression here.  For more information about other sources of Vitamin D, this is a great post as well as this.

4. Ask them to help you understand what they’re feeling.

If your partner is able to articulate what they are going through, it will help them and you better understand what you are dealing with, and may give insight into a plan of action for helping your partner. Also, feeling alone is common for a depressed person and anything that combats that feeling will help alleviate the severity and length of the depression.

5. Encourage them to focus on self-care.

Depressed people often stop taking care of themselves. Showering, getting haircuts, going to the doctor or dentist, it’s all just too hard, and they don’t deserve to be well taken care of anyway in their minds. This can snowball quickly into greater feelings of worthlessness since “Now I’m such a mess, no one could ever love me”. Help your loved one by being proactive. Tell them “I’m going to do the dishes, why don’t you go enjoy a bubble bath?” can give them the permission they won’t give themselves to do something normal, healthy and self-loving.

6. Hug them.

Studies show that a sincere hug that lasts longer than 20 seconds can release feel-good chemicals in the brain and elevate the mood of the giver and receiver. Depressed people often don’t want to be touched, but a sincere hug with no expectation of anything further can give your partner a lift.

7. Laugh with them.

Telling a silly joke, watching a comedy or seeing a stand up comedian will encourage your partner to laugh in spite of themselves. Laughing releases endorphins and studies show can actually counteract symptoms of depression and anxiety.

8. Reassure them that you can handle their feelings.

Your partner may be feeling worthless, angry and even guilty while they are depressed. They may be afraid that they will end up alone because no one will put up with their episodes forever. Reassure them that you are in the relationship for the long haul and they won’t scare you away because they have an illness.

9. Challenge their destructive thoughts.

A depressed person’s mind can be a never-ending loop of painful, destructive thoughts. “I’m unlovable, I’m a failure, I’m ugly, I’m stupid”. Challenge these untruths with the truth. “You’re not unlovable, I love you. You aren’t a failure, here are all the things you’ve accomplished.”

10.Remind them why you love them.

Look at pictures of happy times you’ve had together. Tell them your favorite things about them. Reminisce about your relationship and all the positive things that have happened, and remind your partner that you love them and they will get through this.

(via The Darling Bakers)

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Life gets though there is no easy answers. Keeping moving forward forget all the traders. Leave behind you've left their mind. Left their mind. They don't deserve your time. Time is priceless Don't waste the gift on someone who doesn't deserve you. If they desert you. They never deserved YOU. Keep going forward. replacing the limbs with new stronger branches. Those who replace you. Are easily replaced themselves. Don't hold your breath. They past is in the past. Time moves forward. As we all do. Time is priceless. Don't waste it on someone who doesn't deserve you.

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Lost weight? Good mirror.

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He’s scared of losing her Because that’s all he’s ever known. He wants a happiness that lasts Rather than a smile that fades.

He hides his imperfections As best as he possibly can. A mask of maturity and strength… Or at least he tries.

Maybe this is it… Maybe she’s the one! But Fear holds him...

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I know it's easier said than done, but please don't yourself. You're beautiful and we love you.

I try not to. Thank you I appreciate it. It just hurts and sucks. You know. I try to hold on. Sometimes it takes over.

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Written earlier today. Oh the difference a few hours can make when your anxious and depressed. The scent on your cloths. The look of your face. The bliss I get In our arms and legs embrace. Your eyes transcend me. Into your soul of happiness and giddy. I hope you don't see to much of how you make me. Being me to the joy of a child a kiddy. You make me happy. Anyone can see. All you need to see is my smile to see the glee Stopping to cuddle. We lay side by side. Cuddling till sleep takes us for a ride. Awaking to feel our embrace. A smile lights upon my face. Knowing you care means an extraordinary amount. The spend we time is a heavenly bliss. Thank you for spending the time with me. A kiss to show and provide a sense out unison. A hug to show the security of the love we live in.

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Rip me out rip me away. The girl I have I know she'll never stay. Rip me in two throw me away. I know on the end i will not be okay. Cut out my heart it wants something it can't have. Rip out my eyes for it betrays me with a future filled with beauty. Slash of my hands they doesn't deserve to feel the being that is her. Cut out my tongue it is dirty and degenerative. Cut if my ears for music can't not save me now. I am in too deep. I know it won't work. Why don't I just call it off now. Is it really worth it. I know it will hurt. I hope it will pass. I need to accept she won't stay. She will move on and leave me in the dust and hay. Nothing wrong has happened but I know ill fuck up. Ill drive you off. Ill scare you away. Why can't I accept I know I won't be the one for you. Why must I be selfish and hope that you settle. For a looser like me no money on my tree. Settle for a guy that can only provide love. Eventually you will grow tired of me. You will send me away. I just hope that I never see that day. Maybe ill be drunk, high, or in auto pilot. I can tell you now the scream won't be quite. It will screen and scare anyone around. Hopefully ill be in the Forrest where no one heats the sound. The tree falling, failing, and whaling, until it hits the ground. The earth shakes no one will care. After a few months it will seem like it was never there. Strong and proud. Destroyed by its own stupidity and a disease that is not easily shown. Maybe someday it will be made into a thrown. For the alive to relax and sit. Maybe it will rest and decay. Who is to say what the future holds. Today is my time and I will try to be okay.

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The pain of anxiety

Anxiety tearing me. Limb from limb. Skin and bone ripping. Everything demeaning. A beast to fight. A protector that's is overbearing. Slaughtering me from within my own mind. Blood spills to the floor. A knife across my bicept. Letting out the hate. Letting out the love. Trying to calm from the thing that scare me most. My own imagination. It's a terrible sensation. The feeling if desperation. To escape my mind. To find some time to spend wisely. Anxiety. Let me be. I can't do this anymore. My heart is racing I fall. Knee to the floor. Letting up the hate and beast. Seeing my past feast. And it will never go away. I try to save you from myself. I know it's not okay to feels this way. You are a brain shield but your tearing me apart. Just make It stop.

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You can have me but don't touch her. You can have me under your spell. The ideal that when I die I go to heaven. The ideal that this earth is hell. The ideal it can't get any better. The thought that it would be better if I died. You can have me. Take my mind. Take my thoughts. But don't you dare touch her. She's not aloud to suffer. She has so much to live for. She can do so much good to the world. Don't make her carry this burden. Don't touch her mind or thoughts. Don't ever make her feel like she deserves all the pain and hurtin. I will do anything for her. Just don't touch or corrupt her. She doesn't deserve to have to deal. She has done nothing bad to anyone but let them heal. Now it's her turn. Leave her mind. Give her peace and pride. Give her hope and love. Let her see that she is as beautiful as a dove. Let her be. My sister means everything to me.

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Counterparts - Reflection [x]

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Aren't they pretty when the water comes before a good cry. Before all the blood comes and makes then red. I tried to crop the sides out.