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Animal lovers, especially female ones, are often accused of being neurotic and unable to relate to other human beings. More often than not, those pointing the finger have never had a pet. It seems to me the universe gave us three things to make life bearable: hope, jokes, and dogs. But the greatest of these gifts was dogs.

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See you in your nightmares....

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Me and Jess got painted red and spun fire as demon ladies for a short film our friend wrote the other day. Once it's finished I'll post it. It was wild! I really enjoyed getting painted and being able to walk around naked and I wanna do more of it! Although I wanna get better paints because it was regular greasy face paint stuff and it made everything so slippery! I couldn't really do much contact staff because as soon as it touched me it slipped and then was so greasy it made my hands slide and jeeeeez is it hard to not let a contact staff roll on you lol I'd really like to do more naked spinning tho! I had so much fun!

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Jess took some long exposure pictures of my staff last night. I like this one, I think it looks a bit like a UFO. I have to learn more shapes for these pictures!

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Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.

A.A Milne,  Winnie-the-Pooh. (via wordsnquotes)

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Do you know how much thinking and feeling I’ve done? It’s terrible. And nothing’s come of it.

Andrei Platonov, Happy Moscow (via wordsnquotes)

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I am not sure that I exist, actually. I am all the writers that I have read, all the people that I have met, all the women that I have loved; all the cities I have visited.

Jorge Luis Borges (via wordsnquotes)

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Animal derps cleanse my soul

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I used to keep a positivity journal where I only wrote all the positive things that happened that day so then when I was having a bad day or week or whatever I could always look back and see for myself that it wasn't ALL bad and that a lot of great things did happen...... I think I need that back. I always say I need to "get it out somewhere" but It really does me no real good.... It just makes me focus on it more. Gonna try to do that again! I need to find me again...... I feel like I've almost entirely lost who I am these past few years..... It's time to stop whining!

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Stephen King’s IT returns every 27 years in the story. The last film adaptation was released in 1990.

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What if I have a superpower and don’t even know it cause it’s too obscure to even think of, like turning vultures into cotton candy or making palm trees explode by rubbing tuna cans on Renaissance paintings.

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Give a man a beer, and he entertains you. Hold a man’s beer, and he entertains the world.

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Will work for fuel....

Burned my staff for the first time. I've burned my friends a bunch but it was my first time with mine. Me and joe played outside for most of the day and realized how incredibly rusty we both were at our favorite props so I really need to practice now that weathers nice again.... Then Bink got us and we went to The House of Tommy +Jess lol and burned a bit. I need my own fuel so I can burn every day so I don't forget all my tricks and repeat things like I did tonight. Full moon was nice but I feel like it messed us up a bit.... Bitch ass beautiful moon with too much moon juice in it! We've been having such a hard time saving any money and now I'm not gonna be working as much anymore so I need to find something else. I was hoping it'd pick up more, not die down sooooo..... Yeah, try this again...it's hard because we don't have a car anymore, which is hard to save for because we have rent to pay and need to eat food.....I need to pay a chick to do my food stamps or something.... Or I dunno, make joe say he's me and act offended if they say otherwise lol it sucks that I feel like I'm not the only one that can't get a normal job because of auditory confusion and need a bit of assistance because the not so normal jobs don't pay so hot...... I'll work as hard as I can, but it's never going to amount to much.... I don't know what to do. Diggity really hurt his foot and I can't even afford to take him to the vet and do all the X-rays and shit on top of it all..... I fucking hate money..... I need to think of what the hell I'm doing.....I hate when I'm like this because it makes shit so much more difficult for me.... I'm still having a hard time keeping things straight. I keep getting all panicky around people and I'm just panicking in general and repeating shit and on top of everything I still feel like nobody really likes me and just can't shake it off. I'd say I don't care but I do... I just wish I had someone to talk to that I didn't need to pay or just someone who actually wanted me around.... I dunno. I fucking fucked....... Need to make us all healthy and happy..... Need to figure out some kind of real fucking plan. Every time we get money it's fucking gone again immediately...... I just want us to have a car again so I could get something to help out more and save SOMETHING! I'm sorry my posts have all been so dumpy..... It's hard to get outta the head space. I'm working on it all.... I just need to get it out somewhere

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Wow.... First episode of legion was....difficult for me to say the least. I just cried thru the entire first half of the episode.... Glad I watched the first one by myself. I try to not make it affect other people but triggers are a real thing and it sucks, especially when you're enjoying something and your whole brain just goes away.... Voices in your head almost seem excited by voices on tv and everything's jumbled up and then you're simultaneously transported to a memory and when you come back you don't know what happened on tv and what happened to you and you question your entire existence....

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Delirium of the Endless - Skottie Young