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using tumblr again is already giving me anxiety. i hate this shit

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if i wasnt mentally ill id be a tiktok kid

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ur son is hot

thank you

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is it just me who struggles with being seen? ive not been going out lately (wash your hands) so i havent had to feel the anxiety of being seen PHYSICALLY anymore/when i used to leave the house whenever i saw another stranger id take a different path or sneak around so they wouldn't have to see me/i always feel like a threat even in my own neighbourhood digitally its even worse though, the prospect of being able to completely rewrite your life for a new audience is just as alluring as it is manipulative, there are people my age doing things i could only DREAM of doing & instead of living my best life + being able to do things im so bogged down by my executive dysfunction and lack of stamina. additionally im so weighed down by my mental health these days that im no longer interested in things i love, and when i find something to invest my time in its only for a short amount/a couple of days or something i know im young and i know that the solution to this problem is to just keep living, to find ways to make the most of my time when im emotionally able to, to keep fostering whatever interests i have bc life is short but wow oh wow reality was already difficult enough for me to grasp before the pandemic but!!!!! having time be put on hold for so long!!! all while being in school but not really, with the energy levels of someone who's been on Indefinite Real Life Hiatus for however long lockdown has been going on!!!! i can't relax nor can i be productive even though those two things are expected of me by myself and the world at large - i can't just act like time to make things happen has stopped because it hasn't, but i can't really live my life like it was before - how do you live your life to the fullest in a pandemic when you've already been struggling with finding meaning in it before shit went down? this rant is also from an incredibly privileged place which makes me feel even worse, that ive been given access to so many opportunities and resources that are going to Waste from my inability and inaction. 

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miss smoking

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Oh my god

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living in the suburbs is like mall. Movies. Mall again. Go to target. Go to gamestop. Back to the mall. Barnes and noble. Back to the mall. Chili’s. Back to the mall. Eat hot chip. Lie. And I’m SICK of it!!!!!

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shut the fuck up about beanie baby snail, and beanie baby frog, and this and that. allow me to introduce- BEANIE BABY BATS

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Frogs with hats

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crows!!!! holding flowers!!!!! walking!!!!!! holding round things!!!

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oh my god this cursed site still exists i LOVE

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Productive Things That Aren’t Studying

washing the dishes

making your bed

tidying your book/dvd shelf/shelves

cleaning the cupboard/wardrobe

reading

sleeping

writing a blog

planning your month/week/day

replying to messages or asks

responding to emails

sorting through letters/mail

clearing your email inbox

organising stationery

clean your sinks

clean your toilets

pet your pet

sort through old clothes

give to charity

go on a walk

go on a run

clean down any surfaces

work out

meal prep

get rid of empty shampoo bottles from the shower

clean out old food from the cupboard/fridge

empty out your school bag

call your parent

unfriend/unfollow people you no longer interact with

watch a TEDTalk

empty the bins/trash

clean the mirrors in your house

hug your pet

wash some clothes

buy any birthday cards/presents that you need to

reply to any old texts

make a tumblr post on productive things that aren’t studying

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Hey guys, so I’ve seen some posts around about daily routines so I thought I’d share my own. I consider myself to be great at being productive even early in the morning, and here’s how I achieve that. Hope this is helpful, and feel free to ask me questions if you have any!

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DM Advice: I have a party that I've been trying to encourage to roleplay more, but whenever I present them with the option of handling a situation with subtlety and roleplaying they end up falling back on their murderhobo ways. Any advice on how to encourage them to roleplay more in these kinds of situations rather than 'kill first, ask the DM questions later'?

If your not already giving out xp for good rp, start there. Have an npc offer offer double the gold reward if the can do a quest without killing anyone. Increase the consequences for using violence when there’s another solution.

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as we all know, the best vines are the ones with dogs. here’s a bunch of doggy vines!!!!!!

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Bus to a field trip: light hearted yelling and fun dancing

Bus home: "Did you know I'm genuinely concerned I am unable to love?"