grangerdang-r

[grangerdang-r]

Hello!

I used to be addicted to Tumblr in high school, it was my safe space, and now as a full ass adult I think it's going to be my safe space again so I wanted to reintroduce myself.

My name is Madison/Madi, 27, my pronouns are She/Her, I am Bisexual and married to my amazing NB partner Sasha (he/she/they).

I am a writer and honestly might return to fanfic writing to allow myself and others a way to escape.

Disclaimer//On this blog you may see a lot of posts from years ago that involve people that have since turned out to be... Not good. I apologize for this and don't want anyone to think I STILL support them and I'll try to remove certain things as I see them. This includes Colleen ballinger, Shane Dawson, and JKR. I couldn't possibly delete every single Harry Potter post I've made but anything that might reference her in any positive way is no longer my opinion of her. As far as YouTubers, I was a teen and didn't do my research and know better now.

I'm looking forward to reviving this space and can't wait to meet new friends and form a healthy community here!

Be prepared for Gaylor theories and lyrical analysis galore 😂 I was too afraid to make tiktoks as my family would see me being a Gaylor on main but here we are!

[grangerdang-r]

Dual Taylor Theory- Lavender Haze/Midnight Rain Outfit Change

If you need context on the Dual-Taylor theory, I will link that here (x)

The following is under the Gaylor assumption so keep that in mind, I won't be trying to justify that part in this post.

SO, I believe the outfit change during the midnights set is very intentional- this is not something she does any other time. The songs being performed- Lavender Haze and Midnight Rain are a stark contrast of both Taylors individually. Lavender Haze is taylor the person, who feels safe and comfortable in her Lavender relationships while she gets to do as she pleases behind the scenes. Brand Taylor continues the "conversation" between the two by coming out and singing Midnight Rain, a song about how Taylor the person "wanted it comfortable//wanted a bride//family" etc. while she chose to pursue fame and make a name for herself.

I'm making this in somewhat of a rush, there are contradictions and holes but if anyone else wants to play with this idea feel free!

Further lyrical analysis below the cut

I've been under scrutiny You handle it beautifully All this shit is new to me

This is Person Taylor addressing Brand Taylor (BT), giving the media handling over to her.

I feel the lavender haze creepin' up on me Surreal, I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say No deal, the 1950s shit they want from me I just wanna stay in that lavender haze

Person Taylor does not want to conform, doesn't want to be public either, just live a happy queer life with her privacy.

Talk your talk and go viral I just need this love spiral Get it off your chest- Person Taylor Get it off my desk -Brand Taylor

Again addressing BT, "do what you need to do and I'm going to do what I need to do"

and a line that feels like speaking to each other here-

"Maybe you should get this off your chest, let go of the expectations so I can be free"

"Get it off my desk // not happening we're thriving in our career" etc.

Now moving to Midnight Rain:

he wanted it comfortable I wanted that pain He wanted a bride I was making my own name Chasing that fame He stayed the same All of me changed like midnight

PT wanted a normal quiet queer life, BT wanted the fame and chaos and success, but it came at the cost of personal relationships and her reputation.

My town was a wasteland Full of cages, full of fences Pageant queens and big pretenders But for some, it was paradise

The life of being a celebrity, full of "big pretenders" like herself. Still, many people idolize this life, including her younger self who wanted this more than anything.

My boy was a montage A slow-motion, love potion Jumping off things in the ocean I broke his heart 'cause he was nice

This reminds me a lot of the lover era, "jumping into pools from balconies" "love potion" and the very sad-looking aesthetic change that followed.

ie: this sad af performance

She broke her own heart because it didn't fit her image to be openly queer.

It came like a postcard Picture perfect, shiny family Holiday, peppermint candy But for him it's every day

So I peered through a window A deep portal, time travel All the love we unravel And the life I gave away

Comparing the life PT has in private with family and loved ones (and maybe a lost female muse) to what she gave away when she continued the BT image.

I guess sometimes we all get Just what we wanted, just what we wanted

Feeling heavily what she wanted- for better of worse. She has her success, but not the life she wanted to live.

And he never thinks of me Except when I'm on TV

BT only exists when on stage/public eye, etc. PT tries to separate herself from this persona as much as she can.

I guess sometimes we all get Some kind of haunted, some kind of haunted And I never think of him Except on midnights like this (midnights like this)

BT tries to forget PT exists while performing and putting on the show, but it can't be obviously very difficult and painful to play the part.

Starting LH with "Meet me at Midnight" and ending Midnight Rain with thinking of PT "on Midnights like this" is also very telling.

Again, a lot of holes here, not extremely thorough in examples but please let me know if you have any ideas that would make this theory more solid or if you think it holds any validity. Just something that's been on my mind!

[grangerdang-r]

idk i thought he was cute

[grangerdang-r]

I have returned to this god forsaken website

[grangerdang-r]

The 2nd Amendment is no longer the right to bear arms.  The 2nd Amendment has become the right to take lives. The 2nd Amendment is no longer aiding citizens.  The 2nd Amendment is now abetting murderers.

When the laws don’t work, the laws must change. 

[grangerdang-r]

[grangerdang-r]

# precious

[grangerdang-r]

The ides of March is coming up what’s everyone getting me?

[grangerdang-r]

me, every single month without fail: huh weird I feel kind of bloated and lethargic but also very hungry??? and I’m breaking out??? and my back hurts??? this is so strange I have never experienced this before in my whole entire life… what could this be

me a few days later, every single month without fail: oh

[grangerdang-r]

Peter Parker after leaving the soul stone: so what did i miss?

Tony: the Jonas Brothers are back together kid

Peter:

[grangerdang-r]

Day number 121 without Michael Langdon: I still miss him.

[grangerdang-r]

Cody Fern for British GQ Style (March 2019) — [x]

[grangerdang-r]

You sell your soul to God. Instead of having bliss in life and then damnation, you life a life of utter misery and then go to Heaven when you die.

[grangerdang-r]

lemony snicket was really out there teaching us as elementary schoolers about grey morality, about how neither good nor bad people always get what they deserve, how being clever and kind doesn’t always guarantee you will triumph (although it’s certainly better than the alternative), how ignorant/complacent/dismissive though well-meaning adults can have just as harmful an impact on children as those with ill intentions, and how not every story has a happy and complete ending

[grangerdang-r]

If you show me too much love, it makes me leave // Guess it’s one of many things that’s wrong with me // Looking past you when you’re right in front of me // I won’t do that anymore // I won’t do that anymore · sabrina carpenter, paris

[grangerdang-r]

[grangerdang-r]

Flaunt Magazine