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Daddy's Little Cum Dumpster 🥰

have you ever been away from your significant other for so long that you start to think and imagine the many ways they could use you like the filthy whore you are? all I can think about is being filled with cum, over, and over. fuckkkkk.

I'm struggling.

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wont you stay for a moment

I need you so, cause right now is that nothing here's new, and I'm obsessed with you, then I fell to the ground, and you smiled at me and said, "I don't wanna see you cry, you don't have to feel this emptiness". She said, "I'll love you 'til the day that I die". Well maybe she's right. 'Cause I don't wanna feel like I'm not me, and to be honest, I don't even know why I let myself get down in the first place. Tryna keep my mind at bay.

Sunflower still grows at night.

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Peekaboo

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D e p r e s s i o n

I'm going to start doing these because I need something to keep me busy while my partner is busy because everytime my brain repeatedly tells me he's just ignoring me, and that he doesn't love me. It's so fucking hard dealing with anxiety. But I'm not here to talk about anxiety, I'm here about depression. Depression literally keeps me in bed all day, and I'll wake up still tired. I never feel happy unless it's for maybe around an hour long each time, and it's so fucking shitty. I never feel good enough, I constantly have thoughts about ways to kill myself without anyone finding out, and without any of my family or friends, or partner being sad. I'm always sad, and it's so pitiful. I tell myself each day I'm going to get up and start focusing on positive things, and I end up back in this slump and I just feel so useless, like I'm always going to be in this hole. And maybe I allow it, but it's the only true emotion I feel, sadness. I am an empath, I'm constantly feeling as if my love is being taken advantage of, and used. But I know that could just be my anxiety talking, anyways to anyone who has depression I know it's a struggle to get out of bed every morning, to get up and get dressed, taking a shower is hard, washing your face is hard, but you're going to get through this, if you feel like you're at your lowest right now just know it can only get better from here, you're strong. you're beautiful, you're handsome, you're unique, and you MATTER! fuck depression. dont let it take over you.

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A n x i e t y

I don't understand why I feel like such a terrible girlfriend each and everyday, my anxiety makes me believe that no matter what goes on, I'm just a boring, normal girl and there's nothing special about me. I understand these things aren't true, but it still hurts to feel like I am. Like, as time goes on I feel like he gets more and more bored of me, and like effort doesn't have to be put in as much because I'm wrapped around his finger. I know none of this is true, but my anxiety is literally such a fucking bully and I am so sorry to anyone who has to deal with it. So with that being said, if you're with someone who has really bad anxiety and they tell you that they need a reassurance sometimes, they mean it. Our minds are the most cruel place, and sometimes it takes a little more patience to deal with someone with severe anxiety. We do not process things the same, we constantly think you hate us, or every bad scenario there is really. Please be patient♡

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"you are her even after, the hero of her book."

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“I know that I am losing my gentleness, the softness in my smile, but please know that I am trying to preserve what is left. Please know that I am trying, and that I am trying so hard.”

— Lukas W. // Losing

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“It passes, but it does not pass away.”

— László Krasznahorkai

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“I was horrified and knew that I wasn’t allowed to be horrified.”

— Christa Wolf, tr. by Jan van Heurck, from “Cassandra: A Novel & Four Essays,”

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skip it

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My cat isn’t allowed on the counter, but he likes to push our limits.

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Your body is like a museum of natural disasters.

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Believe in her

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