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Med Management

So. As I mentioned before, I take medications. Psychotropics to be exact. I take them for my mood swings, depression, and anxiety. In terms of how long I’ve been on meds, I’d have to say that once I found the right med type and dosage, it started to help. For a long time when I first started on them, I was on 6 different ones (Had a pretty fucked up mind). Recently I just dropped down to one medication. I’ve been feeling great with the one med for the last 2 months. Problem is..... 3 days ago, my placement did something that could be potentially dangerous for me and everyone around. They forgot to refill my meds and I ran out. So for the last 3 days I’ve been unmedicated. I know 3 days doesn’t sound so bad to be without it but my body instantly knew the difference because it was a low dose (took a lot of convincing to get my dose dropped a lot) and my body burns through it so fast. Basically it caused me to have terrible paranoia and a panic attack so I’ve barely been able to sleep because I feel like some scary ass demon is gonna slit my throat open. Good thing that my meds come in today. Idk if I can go another night like this. I’m trying to do school but I’m so tired because I barely had any sleep. Anyways, hope everyone is having a great day and if you’re not, do what I do. Compile all of your favorite memories in your head, think about them for about an hour, and take a nap. Trust me. That nap is gonna hit waaaaaaaayyyyy different. I love you guys 💚🛸

[gothgirlcliqueinthecastle]

Intro

Hi everyone! This is going to be the start of a long journey of trying to express myself. I don’t usually do things like this but maybe it would make me feel better. Idk... Anyways, I just wanted to introduce myself. My name’s Rae. I’m 16. I’m in foster care (Story time on that later). I love music, art and anime. My favorite colors are black and neon green. I’m a super smart mega nerd but I fail school on purpose because it’s boring to me. I have Bipolar and PTSD (Currently on meds for it). I’m a Junior in high school. Lastly,  I reside in the “Great” state of Florida :))) I hope you all will enjoy my blog/diary and I hope it at least helps or entertains someone out there. 💚🛸