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[got-my-happiness]

DECEMBER 22, 2019

MAGING PROUD KA SELF HAHA SO HERE’S THE LASTEST UPDATE AND PROBABLE WALA NG SUSUNOD. ANG NEXT NA IPPOST KO NA AY MGA RANTS SA COLLEG3 LYF HAYS HAHAHAHA

i’m with some of my jhs batchmates, nagsamgyup kami. matagal ng plano to, actually nung una konti lang kami HAHA. then this guy friend of mine, let’s name him P, invited HIM (my almost). I kept on asking my guy friend kung sino sure since i lowkey wanna know if sure bang kasama siya kasi last year pa huling kita ko sakanya and i want to know if ganon pa din reaction ko towards him.

earlier that day, kinakabahan na ko and i kept on overthinking kasi after a year makikita ko na siya ulit, this will test if there’s still heartbeats and butterflies pag nakita ko siya. sooo as we went in, nakita ko na siya. daming nagbago. we looked each other’s eyes (as usual) but i know as we looked each other, wala na. hindi kami nagpansinan kasi i guess we feel awkward and hesitated to but we kept on looking with each other na madaliang pag tanggal ng tingin. i really wanted to say hi since i said hi to all of my guy friends there, nakakahiya naman if I didn’t perooo as i looked at him, nakaphone lang siya kaya hindi ko na siya tinawag, he looks busy. as time passed by, naririnig-rinig ko mga guy friends ko na inaasar siya katulad ng “dali sabihin natin kay (name ata ng girl, idk) atin na si GUY”, “ohhh i love you dawww”, “balita ko may kasama ka daw sa mcdo” and about sa ligaw thingy, and gustuhin ko man makinig pa pero di ko na sila marinig kasi may music din. and if ever man na he has someone na, i’m happy for him kasi finally hindi na siya torpe, he was able to express his feelings already. that girl must be lucky. aminin ko, it hurts HAHA kasi he will always have a special space in my heart, a little space that despite na almost lang kami and the pain i’ve felt years ago, may space pa rin for him. nakabawi naman ako, may tumabi sakin na guy friend ko (lets name him E), nangamusta and stuff. si P naman bigla umepal joke, he said “si (my name) may jowa, ay hindi ka-mu sa lozol” [if you haven’t read my post about it, entitled surreal? pls read haha], sinabi ko kasi sa guy friend ko na i have jowa kahit wala talaga, only few people knows the truth tho. i just smiled nung pagkasabi niya nun kaya they don’t know if totoo ba or not, and i saw GUY na he was looking and waiting for my answer but still, ngumiti lang ako and sabay sabi kay P na “ang daldal, shh” HAHA. So ayun nga natapos na kami, kumpulan pa kami sa harap ng kainan then nag usap pa mga guy friends ko kaya medj lumayo ako and i’ve realized nasa harap ko din si guy HAHA nagkatinginan ulit kami and “uy”, we had this gesture sa head na matic nagsside view whenever we see each other. we smiled at each other and nag apir lang. i felt nothing. usually, pag nagkakatinginan kami, i always felt the sparks and that our eyes are talking with each other pero ngayon, wala ng ganon.

healing is really a long process. i’ve been writing up letters and posts about him years ago and now ganun ulit pero not because I still have feelings for him or that i felt the heartbeats again but only because im already sure i can say this at wala ng bawian: nakamove on na ko. finally. everything’s not like before na and i knew it. so proud of myself. im happy for him if he have found the girl that would make him happy. happy din ako na walang taon na di ko siya nakita joke, i mean every time na nakikita ko siya may difference katulad ngayon, wala na lahat. our story have ended already, well it ended na 3 years ago, ako lang nahirapan magmove on and i hate it kasi nagmukha akong tanga. Anyway, masaya na ko. I swear, wala na kayong mababasang posts about him na this 2020 kahit na we’re friends HAHA. And achievement na to, this is probably the 2019 plot twist I’ve been waiting. hehe thank you for reading. 🧡

WHOOOOO NAKAMOVE ON NA KO GUYS!!! HAHAHAHA

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JUNE 30, 2019

Since my last post here nung 2018 pa haha I have an update from 2019-2020 HAHA I wrote it sa wordpress account ko but still posting it here 

i never thought i will see him unexpectedly today, as in unexpectedly. Supposedly the last post about him will be last and probably the final but i think it’s not ’cause here I’m again writing this thing about him again…

I’m with my 2 friends (lets name then CA and CV), we went to a mall near us para magbonding since medyo matagal na yung last na bonding with them. The mall has an open grounds or balcony sa taas, tumambay na lang kami dun since nandun na rin yung cinema, our movie tickets time is 3:45pm kaya we waited there. Umupo lang kami at nagkwentuhan, until silang dalawa na lang and I didn’t speak and nakatingin lang sa daanan ng tao…and suddenly I saw him unexpectedly with our common guy friend din. i know na kahit nakaupo lang ako, nagpapanic ako and i dont know what to do. hinampas ko si CA and tinuro sila since naging magkakaklase naman kami nung jhs. He was just looking at me hanggang sa lumapit sila sa pwesto namin. Those eyes na parang sinasabi na “uy namiss kita ang tagal nating hindi nagkita”, our eyes still has that connection. Then si CA keeps on smiling at me na nang-aasar, ghad can you stop hahaha. So ayun nga, he was just looking at me and smiling hanggang sa makalapit sila sa pwesto namin. We are both hesitating if babatiin ba namin ang isa’t isa so in the end we just smiled each other pero bigla siya nagsalita:

Him: sa u e ka pa din?

me: nope

him: saan na?

me: sa be nilde na *then he nods*

umupo na din sila sa tabi namin, eh that time nag-ggroupie kami nila CA and CV so sinama na rin namin sila haha hanggang sa tumayo na yung common guy friend namin na si PS at nagpicture since may hawak din siyang camera that time then tumayo si CA,

CA to him: ikaw ah busy ka dyan sa cellphone mo, siguro may jowa ka na

him: uy wala ah, puro group chat to

so medyo malakas yung pag uusap nila haha then biglang inaya ni CA si CV sa isang wall dun na pipicturan daw niya, magppphotoshoot silang dalawa and i was like, ano yun iiwan ako netong dalawa dito kay ano?

CA: oy kausapin mo yan *referring to him and ngitian ko lang si friend shet*

Pagkaalis nila, we looked at each other and smiled at tumawa lang kasi i guess parehas kaming hindi alam pag-uusapan. This is the most precious moment happened jk haha namiss ko tuloy yung grade 10 days na ganito din. Tinginan then ngingitian niya ko jk! haha

Him: kelan pasukan niyo?

me: aug 31 pa

him: ang tagal, parang prelims na siguro namin yun

me: oo nga eh, hindi ko na nga alam gagawin ko sa bahay sa next months before ng pasukan

him: gala ka,

me: wala na kong kasama, may mga pasok na mga kaibigan ko

him: samahan kita joke

me: may pasok ka din eh, wag ako

then he just looked at me and smiled. oy guys di na makatarungan yung mga nangyari kahapon :((( it felt so unreal. then there’s this friend of mine who texted me about our grad pic and suddenly i dont know how to reply at her kasi nanginginig kamay ko hahahha ohghad. im still panicking kasi katabi ko rin siya eh anoba. Lumapit na kami kayla CA. Hinawakan ko bigla yung wrist niya, i know he was shookt pero na-amaze ako sa relo niya eh bat ba, naalala ko nung grade 10 nag-eexchange kami ng relo hahahaha ohghad.

Inaaya na siya ni PS na bumalik na ulit sila dun sa loob pero I saw him na umiling, at ganun din si CV inaya na ko na pumasok na sa loob ng cinema and i was like pwede 5 minutes pa. ghad same feels kami. Kaya ayun nagusap lang kami about sa movies ni PS haha. Nakikita ko sa peripheral view ko na he was looking at me, pwede ba joke hahaha. May ginagawang film si PS and isa si guy sa parang bida or idk pa so nagshoot muna sila saglit sa mga halaman dun.

And yes, i was looking at him kasi busy naman sila sa pag shoot kaya i know he wont look back.. but again i was wrong. he looked back huhu and smiled again. grabi yung heart ko oh. i just smiled at him and kaya ayun pinagpatuloy niya na yung ginagawa nilang shoot. Until bumalik ulit sa pwesto namin, I checked the time and it’s 3:40pm na, bakit naman ang bilis? I may wanted to stay for long pero 3:$5 yung movie na papanuorin namin eh haha

cv: guys, mauuna na kami. magt-3:45 na rin kasi

ps: sige, balik na din kami dun

ca: bye guys

hinatid nila kami papasok ng cinema, and we said goodbyes

ps: bye guys

cv: bye

him: bye *and looked at me and smiled*

me: byeee! *and smiled*

pagpasok namin ng cinema, inaasar ako ni CA. ohgahd pakilayo nga ko joke hahahahhaha hanggang sa matapos yung sine na pinanood namin hindi niya ko tinigilan.

This is one of the best unexpected moment happened sakin kaya it felt so unreal seeing him again looking and smiling at me. Alam niyo yun, i told sa last post ko about him na I’m getting over him, I’m letting this feelings for him to go.. then every time we see each other expected man o unexpected.. those feelings always come back like it never really left. those fast heartbeats happened again, those butterflies in my tummy that i never felt slightly a long time i felt again, and those eye contacts and smiles ohghad why. Idk what if may susunod pa, but i was just wondering if it will still feel the same the way i felt every time we see each other?? i still like him at times, sorry self. :((( Maybe there will always be a part of me na nandun pa yung feelings ko for him no matter what. aminin ko, i never felt this happy.. not until i saw him yesterday or basta every time na nakikita ko siya. Self bakit ganyan?? haha

then last night haha i posted our groupie with them sa ig story ko, then there is this girl classmate nung shs who messaged me: ‘Huy taga tip yung nasa dulo???” and i was like wtf haha, i replied immediately na “yep, tip qc haha… bakit??”

her: ahhh tip qc. Saaaad. Gwapu ih HAHAHAHAHA Tip mnl ako e

I messaged CA, CV, and a friend din about dyan, then sabi nila inaagawan ka bes ah/ano sugurin ko na ba bes/sabihin mo taken na o hindi na yun pwede.. and sabi ko baliw kayo. wala naman ako karapatan para ipagdamot eh hahaha sad. kaya in the end i deleted that story and sineen ko lang. then she replied,

her: grabe *my name8 sineed lang ako haysxzxszz HAHAHAHAHA porket di na tayo mag kaklase

me: *nireplyan ko siya agad haha* shet nalimutan kong replyan ka, sabay kasi kayo nagdm ng friend ko eh haha sorry. taken na pala yang taga-tip haha

her: Ay ano ba yan mag bebreak din yan HAHAHAHAH CHAROT LANG *name ko*. Kelan pasukan niyo??

and the rest is about my and her school na pinagusapan namin. jusko hahahaha share ko lang sorry.

so ayun, i just made kwento about what happened yesterday kasi i cant keep it all to myself. ciaoooo

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And on my wordpress account I wrote that I’m letting go of him already which is dapat ko ng ginawa before. Frankly, I still like him at times ngayon pero I have to stop kasi wala ng patutunguhan tong kwento namin na malabo. So here is the link https://gotmyhappiness.wordpress.com/2018/04/20/getting-over-you/ :) 

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so last april we met after months of not seeing each other (ano niya ba ko para magkita kami lagi). So I just want to post it here since all the kwentos and convos since grade 10 that is about him is here. I’m lowkey hoping na last ko ng post ‘to about sakanya cause i promised sa self ko and gusto ko ng panindigan yun. So here it goes, (I really posted it first on my wordpress) : 

This happened on April 6, 2018

I went to our jhs school today para kunin yung card ng kapatid ko since siya na lang samin yung nag aaral dun. Every kuha ko ng card sa kapatid ko, I always go sa grade 10 adviser namin para mangamusta and stuffs. She will always be my fave adviser ever. I went there at 9am, then nung may kakausapin ng parent yung adviser namin, I sat on the chairs na dun for students. Sinabi ko pa nga na “mam uuwi na rin po ako” but she insisted na magstay muna ako and wait for my other classmates na pupunta palang. Mga 10:30am dumating si V (our girl classmate), then she messaged sa gc namin nung grade 10. Quarter to 11 dumating si C and M (our guy classmates). Chinat din nila si kuya, and he said na traffic. I thought he was just kidding so hinayaan ko na din. Kwentuhan, asaran nang bigla kaming bigyan ng adviser namin ng money to buy some foods outside. As we went outside, paliko papuntang convenient store, nakasalubong namin si kuya (tawag ko sakanya yan bat ba, the guy kung saan my posts are always about: the almost).We are both shocked, obvious sa mga mata namin. Sumama siya samin sa pagbili, siya may hawak ng basket. Pagharap ko sakanya, tumingin siya sakin haha feel ko pareho kami na nahehesitate mag initiate ng convo. so ayun nga, pagtingin niya sakin,

Siya: Si CD (my best friend)?

Me: wala, may pasok (may hindi kasi na-attendan na session for clearance)

Siya: bakit ikaw? Ikaw ah, cutting

Me: oy hindi ah, tutulad mo pa ko sayo

Siya: hala,

Our guy friends: oy, ilag-ilag

Siya: matagal na ko tumigil magcutting *then he looked at me*

Me: Wow naman

Siya: Hanggang kelan na lang pasok niyo?

Me: hindi ko alam actually

Siya: bat di mo alam? *natatawang tanong niya*

Me: joke tapos na, pero babalik pa kami for clearance and para kuhanin yung card

Siya: Bumili ka na ng kakainin mo, or eto gusto mo?

Me: Yung tinapay na lang na kinuha ni V

Then he looked at me, grabeng mga mata yan oh, lakas makipag usap.

Nung kami na lang natira sa aisle sa convenient store na yun, I asked him na pajoke since uso samin yun.

Me: Ggraduate ka?

Siya: oo naman, ako pa ba? *HE SMILES*

Me: advance congratulations sayo

Siya: Salamat

HINDI NA TO MAKATARUNGAN HAHAHA NGINITIAN NIYA KO

Siya: Kelan graduation niyo?

Me: Sa May 21 pa, kayo sa April 12 na diba? Ang lapit na

Siya: Ang tagal naman ng inyo. Saan kayo?

Me: Wala eh, p!cc

After the convo tinawag na kami ng mga classmates namin before na nasa cashier.

fast forward na tayo kasi wala kami masyadong convo nung nasa classroom kami haha. Paglabas namin sa grounds ng school since umuwi na yung adviser namin, tumambay lang kami. Kumuha kami ng chairs, and nakatabi ako sakanya. Seriously, kailangan ko ng umuwi nun haha since there’s LANY concert na pupuntahan ako !!! so ayun, ayoko pang umuwi kasi minsan lang to. Hinampas ko siya ng mahina ng card ng kapatid ko sa balikat, i was just trying to act normal kasi nga nahehesitate ako.

Me: uuwi ka after dito?

Siya: oo

Me: ano oras ka uuwi?

Siya: depende pa kayla C and M

Me: sabay tayo pag umuwi ka ah

Siya: sige

Me: anong course kukunin mo?

Man i was so curious sa course na kukunin niya haha so this is the right time

Siya: Comp Eng or IT

FF, umuwi ako habang nandun pa sila. sabi ko ichat na lang ako if aalis na sila. agad agad ako nagbihis, kumain. Then minention ako ni kuya sa gc namin haha it means pinapunta na ko, sabi ko kasi sa convenient store na lang kami magkita. Ramdam ko mga mata niya na grabe siya makatingin, sheez wag ganun boi. joke haha

So ayun sabay nga kami. Hindi ko alam kung ma-aawkwardan ba ko o ano eh. Awkward siya pero hindi awkward, basta yun. Maybe it’s the most comfortable awkwardness. I asked him, para naman di sayang yung araw na kasama ko siya

Me: Bakit hindi ka nagexam sa ibang universities?

Siya: sa TIP na ko, si C ba? (My best friend)

Me: dun pa din siya sa ue, si J nga (bf ni C) sa TIP din

Siya: anong course?

Me: archi, sa uste sana siya eh or pup pag may slot

Siya: ay oo sa uste, maganda archi dun. Ikaw saan ka?

Me: sa csb siguro

Siya: ang layo mo naman

Me: Naka specialize course ko dun eh.

Siya: Ano ba kukunin mo?

Me: culinary

Siya: Yun oh, sa susunod ikaw cocontactkin ko pag kailangan ng magluluto

Me: May makikilala ka pang iba

Siya: gusto ko ikaw, maghahanap pa ko ng iba

I CANNOT BAKIT PARANG DOUBLE MEANING JOKE HAYS

Me: future! (He told me before na somehow yun tawag sakanya, ang weird nga actually joke)

Tinignan niya and smiled, uy bakit naman. Dahil dyan,

Me: tusok mata!

And he cringed hahahaha

Siya: ikaw ah

Then naghintay na kami ng jeep, ganung oras pa naman ang hirap sumakay (tanghali). Naiisip kong mag lakad na lang since kaya naman lakarin yung babaan ko dapat pero si kuya medyo malayo pa pala plus wala akong payong, wala din siyang dalang payong haha pupunta nga kasi ng concert kaya bawal payong. Kaya naisipan kong maghintay na lang din, yes naman. Hanggang sa may lumabas na jeep sa street namin.

Syempre tabi kami sa jeep. Pero parang parehas kaming awkward, since somehow may space sa pagitan namin.

Siya: Sa santolan ka baba diba?

Me: yeps, ikaw sa may south pa diba?

Siya: yeps

medyo awkward na kami here haha idk why

Nung nasa babaan na ko, bago ako bumaba i said “je, dito na ko” and he said “hatid na sana kita hanggang sa tricyclelan joke, ingat ka *yung tawag niya sakin*” And I just smiled at him saka ako bumaba and waited sa side since going yung mga cars and i cant cross. I was staring at him kasi nakatalikod siya kasi bes tapos na ang masasayang oras joke and mukhang kumukuha na siya ng pamasahe niya, so ayun nga I was staring at him kasi i know di naman siya titingin, pero i was wrong!! he looked back, and im shocked. dapat iiwas ako ng tingin pero di ko nagawa, that is so new.

He looked back, smiled, and waved bye.

The really best thing happened is when our eyes met, yung tipong kita mo sa mata niya na masaya siya ngayon. See you soon again kuya

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quickranthaha

I just have this rant about our one friend. Ever since nung nagka prob sila ng bf niya, she’ve changed. Akala ko nung una ako lang nakapansin nun but then our 2 friends agreed. There are times na nakakainis siya, im sorry. There are times kasi yung mga trip niya wasn’t fun anymore na akala niya okay lang. She became insensitive with other feelings, even set her pride higher kaya pag may nagawang kasalanan sakanya, she won’t be the first one to say sorry kahit na mas nakakabuti yun. Every time that she’s absent parang walang negative vibes kami, i mean parang ang gaan ng atmosphere and walang problem. Sabi ng isang kaibigan namin, parang walang problema pag absent siya, and my other friend said na siya lang naman warfreak satin, nihindi wala nga kaming pakealam sa paligid, na hindi na namin pinagtutuunan ng pansin (since andaming issue), pero pag nandyan siya andami niya rants sa life. May times nagreklamo sakin yung kaibigan namin kasi kagroup nga niya si eto, she said to me na leader siya pero parang ako na yung naging leader. wala siyang tinulong, ako na nga yung gumawa pero di man lang siya nagtanong ng updates about sa gawa namin. She hates being stress pero kasi you cant avoid yun lalo na ngayon na malapit na last day namin. When there are times na i wasn’t in the mood and tatahimik lang ako all throughout ng pag uwi namin, they keep on asking ano reason ko and ang sasabihin ko lang is im fine and wala naman akong sasabihin kaya tahimik ako. One time pauwi na kami ng isang friend ko, i opened it up about dun, i told her na the only reason kung bakit ako tahimik is naiinis na ko sakanya and i dont want to say things na hindi ko sinasadya kasi naiinis ako. Sabi ng friend ko, expected ko na yun. They thought galit ako sakanilang lahat but nadadamay lang talaga sila. Hays 

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wedontgiveafck

i really don't understand how can someone say 'na mas mali kami' when on the first place we didn't do anything against them even though na may ginagawa sila (such as parinigs on social medias/personal)? Di ko lang talaga maintindihan what part yung 'mas mali'. Nakakainis lang. I don't know if na-reverse psych0logy kayo nila, na sila yung nagmukhang victim when in fact kami naman talaga? na kami din yung may kasalanan when on the first place sila din naman? Man, speak up. You told us before na mas okay kaming kasama than them, but bruh what did just happened? Di kasi porket nakakasama niyo na sila ngayon, mabait na sila sa paningin niyo. Wag kayong tanga, ganun pa din sila until now. Lumalala lang. We know na ganun tingin samin ng iba sainyo, well who cares? Ano bang magagawa namin diba? Nababaliktad kami eh. A lot happened in our class last year.. kaya we closed our group of circle cause only few deserves a space, those who can only be trusted. For now, kaming magkakaibigan lang ang magpapakatiwalaan ang isa’t isa. Why don’t you try to ask our point of view, all you just know was their point of view then sasabihin mo ‘mas mali kami’. Tangina.  Ano yun pare? I thought nasa neutral ka, i mean walang pinapanigan both sides but in the end... well fck it. When you asked some of our classmates, “some”.. they know the real truth. Kalalaki niyong tao pero daig niyo pa mga babae sa pagconclude and pagkakalat ng mga impormasyon na hindi na dapat pinagkakalat. MAN UP MGA PARE. Bago kayo magconclude na mas mali kami, magtanong ka muna dun sa isang side kung anong point of view nila. Yung mas alam pa ng isang loko-lokong lalaki ang totoo kesa dun sa lalaking (mukhang) matino. I dont usually react with these things pero kasi nakakaasar eh. 

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THE WAY HE LOOKS AT ME SHET PLEASE WAG :(( AYOKONG UMASA. NAKIKIPAG USAP YUNG MATA NIYA EH HUHU HE WANTED TO SAY SOMETHING BUT HE COULDN'T. HE WANTED TO LOOK AT ME THAT LONG PERO WALA EH WERE WALKING. PAKSHET OO GUSTO PA RIN KITA. ANG SAKIT LANG NA MINSAN LANG TAYO MAGKITA AND I GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. MAGKAIBA TAYO NG SCHOOL AND YOU'LL MEET A LOT OF GIRLS SAINYO. YOU DONT KNOW ANONG NAFEEL KO NUNG NAKITA KITA ULET, PARA I DIDNT SEE YOU FOR 5 YEARS NA 2 MONTHS AND 2 WEEKS. :((

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I SAW HIM IN THE MOST UNEXPECTED PLACE AND TIME ❤️ 062316

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THAT 7 TIMES KO NA SIYA NAPAPANAGINIPAN HUHU PWEDE BANG WAG LANG HANGGANG DUN?!? HUHU

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062316

Hi hello! Long time no post since the last day of sy before. I have kwento about kay guy ulet 😂 sabi ko wala na eh but yeah, bumabalik bat ganun? :(( So here is it. So yun haha On the way na sa lrt, I mean haha nakasay na kami sa jeep. Eh biglang nagtraffic, pero malapit na dun sa sakayan ng tricycle-lan kaya bumaba na kaming ng mga kasama ko (na schoolmate ko and classmates ko dati) papuntang lrt mismo. Pagliko namin dun sa may tricycle-lan haha may naaninag ako na apat na lalaki. Unang reaction, hindi ko sila tinignan kundi nagayos ako haha sabi ko sa sarili ko "shet may pogi" hahahaha then pag daan ko, "yes yes naman" pag tingin ko si guy, si guy friend tas some classmates before. Wow magllrt si guy ah, since sa tip siya nagaaral ako sa ue. Naks. I was surprise nung nakita ko siya shet lang. Nginitian ko lang sila/siya hahaha nahihiya ako eh. Putek, I was really hoping na makasabay ko siya sa lrt ganon since sa may anonas station siya. Pero bakit naman dun sa may tricycle-lan pa kung saan di ko siya makakausap :((( okay na din na nakita ko siya (the brighter side) kung anong nafefeel ko nung grade 10 sakanya, yun pa din nafeel ko nung nakita ko siya kanina. Sana naman next time sa mismong tren na kami magkasabay para makausap ko siya hays ❤️ POGI PA RIN NIYA BAT GANUN?!?! HAHAHAHAAH I MISS HIM SERIOUSLY. :( 062316

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too close haha

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Dreamed of jdje

like what the hell men, what the hell! hahaha shet tagal ko g hinintay na mapanaginipan ko siya then this is it! Kwento ko hahaha Nasa isang classroom kami. Wala pa yung teacher that time haha so mainggay magulo yung chairs. Then biglang dunating yung teacher namin pero hindi nagalit. Pinaayos niya lang. Dapat tatabi ako kay N haha hinila niya na yung upan ko sa left side then nagreact si mam. 
Mam: Bakit mo nililipat yan? 
Hindi ako sumagot haha kaya binalik ko yung chair sa right row and then kulang. 
Mam: mr j, dito ka sa tabi ni ms *name ko*
Naghiyawan yung mga kaklase ko, like whats happening haha 
Ngumiti lang si j non 
Mam: hindi bat yan ang gusto mr j, sabi nila may crush ka daw kay ms *name ko* (mahina na yung “sabi” part) 
Naghiyawan ulet, at inaasar na kami. And nilipat na sa tabi ko. Ang awkward wth. A (classmate): Hala, swerte mo.
I smiled at her, anong ibig niyang sabihin? Me: *tumingin kay j na nakatingin sakin* bat kita katabi? (then i laugh, at ganun din siya) Mamaya i feel hands sa side ko, and someone sa classmate ko na wanted to hold aubrey’s hand. A: sino yun?
I checked kung sino then yun nga classmate ko. 
Me: si (classmate)
A: oh akala ko si J, sayang
Me: haha pinaasa ka The next subj, inasar ulet kami. Dahil kay mam. Mam: oh mr j, katabi pala niya ang crush niya 
Hiyawan ulet, at inasar kami. Ngumiti lang si J haha pogi as ever Ayokong mag assume mahirap na no. Free time. Katabi ko nga si J Tinawag siya ni C at nginitian ng mapang asar, at ngumiti din si J. Hahaha Pumunta ako sa harap para may kunin haha then pagbalik ko hinarang ako nila G at M G: ikaw ah, yiee
M: j ka pala eh haha Tinignan ko lang sila ng poker face pero nakangiti haha baka sabihin sungit ko haha Guy friend: yes naman amber 
I smiled at him Umupo na ko sa chair ko na nandon din siya nakaupo sa tabi ko. Damn ang bilis ng heartbeat ko.. nakatingin siya sakin Winave ko yung kamay ko para ilihid niya yung tingin. At tumawa lang siya, nginitian ko na lang at sabay tingin sa other side. Yiee Hanggang sa puro magpadala ng libro daw ganyan dahil biglaang assignment. Best friend: c sabihin mo dadalhin yung fili book and ntbk Tatayo na si c *ALARMED HAHAHAHA PUTEK YAN!! PANAGINIP LANG PALA HAHAHAHAHA SHET BUT THANKS, KAHIT PANAGINIP LANG AT LEAST MASAYA. NAAALA KO TULOY YUNG KILIG MOMENTS NUNG GRADE 10 ❤️ AFTER ILANG DAYS AND MONTHS NGAYON KO LANG SIYA NAPANAGINIPAN HAHAHAHA FINALLY! LAGI KO SIYANG INIISIP PARA MAPANAGINIPAN KO NON EH KASO WALA HAHAHAHAAH GOOD MORNING PEEPS MAY 8, 2016; 5:30am

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And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.

Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via larmoyante)

Everything Love

(via thelovenotebook)

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K12 pero parang college hehe, nagtatanungan na "ano sched mo?" "patingin sched mo?" Like omg!! I can feel the k12 vibes hahahahaha shet

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Dear to the used to be our bestfriend

Sino ba unang nagbago satin? Oo lahat naman tayo nagbabago, we all know that. We understand the reason kung bakit ka nagbago, syempre you’ve got the new set of friends where you have freely express yourself. Matagal naman na kami may problem sa attitude mo eh, pero nakakasawa na din kase na mag oopen kami regarding about it then in the end ganun pa din, walang pagbabago kaya we keep it all to ourselves. Anong the shoe fits? Well obviously kami naman yung pinatatamaan eh, yung about sa pag seen ng message mo sa groupchat natin (friendship), bakit big deal sayo yun? Yan yung ugali, magpaparinig ka sa twitter hanggang sa may makapansin pero hindi mo pa naman inaalam yung reason behind it. May reason si (bestfriend sa group namin) kaya di siya nakapag reply, naka data lang siya. Grabe naman yun. The shoe fits ka pa. Obvious na nga idedeny mo pa. Bago pa man nag grad nagbago na lahag kaya please wag mong ibalik samin nag grad lang parang nagbago na ang lahat. Maganda ka na sana friend kaso yung ugali mo wala. Hindi ka naman kase ganyan dati ( a lot of people na nagsabi niyan) well, totoo naman. Ang sinabi mo sakin non youve change hayaan kita sa bagay na nagpapasaya sayo at ganun naman ako sainyo eh hinahayaan ko kayo na maging masaya , hinahinayaan ka namin dahil dun ka masaya diba? Ikaw na rin nagsabi na people come and go but they have choice if theyll stay or not. Bago mo kami dabihan please look at yourself first. Thank you at naging kaibigan ka namin, since we will be going to different school this june. :)

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muntik na hahahaha well, i tried doing this pero pagka pindot ko ng @ e hahahahaha name niya yung lumabas sooooo di ko na tinuloy. Bakit kase ily pa eh hahahahahaha pwede namang iba dejks

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My summer is freakin boring haha if only i have money