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WHEN I DIE I MAY NOT GO TO HEAVEN I DON'T KNOW IF THEY LET COWBOYS IN

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Controversial take but.

Pro-ana blogs make me feel sick. Genuinely. It's one thing to accept your problems and mental illnesses and be kind to those who are struggling. It's a whole other thing to encourage these deeply toxic and dangerous mindsets and ideas about beauty standards and health.

It ESPECIALLY pisses me off on a personal level because while these people are voluntarily starving themselves and destroying their immune health, gi health, and energy levels, there are people who go through that shit against their will. I am one of those people. I am unable to gain weight no matter how hard I try and I am constantly cold and my bones dig into my skin and it hurts sometimes. I have a weak immune system and get sick easily and when I get sick it gets really bad even for mild illnesses. I have a chronic illness that literally makes eating hell for me no matter how healthy I try to eat. I will never reach a healthy body weight. I will never be able to eat without getting sick and feeling extreme pain and nausea. And these people have the ability to do those things and yet throw them away like they are worthless. Like their health that not everyone is fortunate enough to have is worthless. And of course I don't want to get into this zone of judging people for a mental illness they may not have full control over, an illness they were likely influenced to have by twisted beauty standards. But the thing is, the very worst of these influences, the most deadly of standards, are these sorts of blogs and social media pages which actively promote starving yourself and purging and whatnot. These blogs that encourage this sickness. This kind of content legitimately kills people. Someone could starve to death because of you and your stupid posts and you'll be like "at least they'll be nothing but bone in heaven 😇🙏." Shut up. If you think this is okay behaviour you can go fuck yourself. Stop encouraging people to harm and kill themselves. Fucking stop it. Stop encouraging people to destroy their functional bodies.

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Beast Akutugawa and Atsushi sat together not knowing what to say.

Because they both suck at social situations and Akutugawa starts rambling about farming techniques and stuff.

He and Kenji having been doing more farm work and it's the first thing he can think of.

And doesn't realise for a long while what he's doing, he's about to stop but notices that is Atsushi paying attention.

He's absolutely confused and lost but he's paying close attention to what Akutugawa's apparently very passionate about.

Which makes Akutugawa feel better and carries on.

Later he finds out from Kenji that Atsushi asked him some questions, saying he wanted to know more for next time.

He wanted to learn because it was something important to Akutugawa.

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started reading beast..

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When I first saw that scene my brain short circuited

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atsushi bday :-)

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shin soukoku but it's beast and mainverse meeting up for the first time pretty sure mainverse atsushi would bat an eye at beast atsushi and absolutely have his jaw dropped and say, "that's ME!?" beast akutagawa and mainverse akutagawa would prolly be too focused on their respective atsushis to care that much then they would go on about how they met in their own worlds and be absolutely flabbergasted and shocked that they're the same people but in different fonts </3

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Hiiiii first time using tumblr!!!!!

Drew using charcoal (never used them before sooo)

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ada team uniform for annoying dazai

ada all own a chuuya shirt to mess with dazai but like after a few months the joke dies down but the ada all still have the shirts

it starts with atsushi going to go shopping in an old sleep shirt and running into akutagawa at the store and aku wan stares at him and atsushi is like 'wtf is ur problem' and aku is like 'wtf r u wearing' and atsushi is like 'leave me alone' and he leaves and aku is so damn confused

and then one day kunikida is doing some house maintenance and uses an old shirt so his other clothes dont get dirty and he decides to go get lunch before continuing and happens to be in a restaurant where port mafia executive chuuya nakahara is eating and chuuya is just gaping at him and kunikida is like 'what? i dont have time for this' and gets his food as take out while chuuya is still there gaping at him

kenji just likes the shirt so he continues to wear it, he wants one with all his friends; he doesn't get why so many people side eye him but he doesn't really care either

kyouka wears it one day cuz her clothes are all in the wash since it was so busy at work for a while and household chores got postponed; so she just has that shirt; she knows why everyone non-ada is side eyeing her but if they care they can help her and atsushi with the laundry

ranpo wears it only to appear in chuuya's side view and fuck with him

yosano wears it only in the privacy of her apartment

junichiro just wears it casually, he kind of forgot chuuya was like a person and not like a book character dazai's weird about so he doesn't even register it until he runs into like the black lizard and theyre staring at him like 'wtf r u wearing'

anyway

featuring the pm having a meeting about the ada's strange tactic to convert chuuya into an ada member

featuring a very flustered very confused and very weirded out chuuya wondering wtf is happening

and featuring a very prissy akutagawa who's not gonna let jinko win over chuuya too

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swapswap

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New meeting

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longing.

inspired by a trend on tiktok which was inspired by the post below lol

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I hate how much I rely on food. I hate that I have to have food. I hate how much I need food to survive. I hate food.

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So... maybe you guys see i gone for a while. Calm down, i din't die. It was only a break for mental health (it din't work, but here we are)

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My favorite fraud 🥰❤️