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Wow wow i havent been on here in forever. Well anyway im alive and well (ish) just wanted to say im on a new blog now its @spicymemedaddy . I dont post much bandom if any, its mostly just funny shit i find or memes with some rare bandom. No need to follow it, its mainly just if you want to stick around me because i dont really come onto this blog anymore, so this will probs be goodbye for this blog. Gonna keep it up for history and the good ol times but it will be inactive. Feel free to contact me/follow me from my new (ish) blog. Hope you all have good days n stuff.

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Sorry guys but i think im going to archive this blog and move to a new one. Just too much here I don’t like and I need a fresh start tbh. It’ll either be archived by later tonight or in a couple days. May not leave a link to my new one. Idk.

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Not gonna lie im really tempted to delete my blog. So if im ever just gone one day you know why.

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This is an update on why i’ve been gone if anyone  has cared. Please don’t read if suicide/ self harm trigger you please.

You’re aren’t missing out on much. Other than a bunch of babbling it basically says I won’t be coming back for now. But you could skip to the end that part is safe.

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This is an update on why i’ve been gone if anyone  has cared. Please don’t read if suicide/ self harm trigger you please.

You’re aren’t missing out on much. Other than a bunch of babbling it basically says I won’t be coming back for now. But you could skip to the end that part is safe.

I’ve been gone because for the past couple months my depression has taken over me entirely. I couldn’t stop it no matter what I did. I shunned my family, friends, and everything I could so I could try and pull myself together. I have come to terms with that I’m transgender but that I have a mom who refuses to believe its real and that its a phase. My dad says he “forgets” to call me by my name and the right pronouns. It’s been horrible. And through this all I’ve been maintaining being clean from cutting, currently around 4 months. But it got worse, way worse. I did what I thought I never did, I tryed to kill myself. I had acted normal and then just cracked. It felt like part of me broke off and I just.. couldn’t do it anymore. I took 20 pills that night, which was Tuesday night. That night I had wished to go into the new year relapsed and with a failed suicide attempt.. Or dead. I cryed after the first 10 realizing I didn’t want to do this, but the worst part was that I couldn’t stop it. No matter what I did I just couldn’t, it was the part of me not overtaken by mental illnesses watching them win and kill me. I tryed to puke but I couldn’t but I have some amazing best friends. One of whom called the police. I thank both of them, because without them I wouldn’t be here most likely. The pills made me mostly tired but I’m not sure if thats because I was in the hospital or what. I got out of the hospital New Year’s Eve. The main point is is that I’m not coming back yet. I’m not ready but I’m trying to stay alive. And i’ve found a very large amount of support coming from Truce and Trees, from my sibling, and from my friends. Without any of them I would have never saw that I COULD do good. I may still believe I’m a burden but in my heart I know I’m not. So with all that said, thank you. Thank you all for being here no matter what and I’m thankful for you all. I’m thankful for twenty one pilots. And I’m very truly grateful to Pax, Amy, and Bradey. Please stay alive everyone not just for me but for those bands that you love to death, the kid next door that smiles at you when you come outside and frowns when they don’t see you outside for a couple days. For you cat who either annoys you or is an absolute sweetheart. For any animal that you will touch and will look at you with wonder. For the person that will see you on the street and think how you look so cool or how they wished you would smile cause they are sure you have a beautiful one. For your first kiss, for the wedding kiss, for the kiss after you adopt/ give birth to kids. For everyone out there that believes that they don’t matter but everyone around them sees them as a blessing and loves having them around. Even though they may not say it they show it. You know that everyone matters so why do you think you don’t? Everyone matters, There is no reason that you wouldn’t. Everyone has a place. Be it good or bad. And you, you will be amazing. You will do so much just hold on. Hold on till your 90 and then you can wonder how’d I get this far, but you’ll see it’s something amazing that you did.   I, a suicide survivor, can tell you personally that it’s worth it, you can get past the tsunamis of pain and make it to the sunny beach island on the other side. Trust me. And with that I end this.

Stay Alive everyone, its worth it, I promise |-/

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Dan Michael your Buble s

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reasons i still need tyler to make a snapchat

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yeah you could say i’m a gamer

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when you’re not paying attention in class and you finally look at the board

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Anonymously tell me a problem you have with me.

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Am I Actually Being Ignored Or Do I Just Think That I’m Being Ignored Because I Have An Exorbitantly High Need For Attention: An Autobiography

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Ahh can u please reblog/like this post if you think chubby girls are adorable n cute??? I’m having troubles with self esteem rn

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JOSH DUN IS SOFT AND WARM LIKE MASH POTATOE

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Heavydirtysoul: "this is not rap" ARE YOU SURE? ARE YOU COMPLETELY SURE TYLER? + street poetry lyrics I'm sobbing

Stressed Out: Insecurity + Anti-Capitalist vibes

Ride: Reggae-techno-emo-rap

Fairly Local: That one high note. You know what i'm talking about.

Tear in my Heart: The cutesy love song we all needed tbh

Lane Boy: Remember when you thought the Ode to Sleep rap was hard? Hahahahahahahaha.

The Judge: Weird-ass noise at the beginning + ukulele + freeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Doubt: k but the beginning part sounds like cats meowing really fast.

Polarize: This song low-key makes me feel like I'm in a hip hop music video tbh

We Don't Believe What's on T.V: @josh dun just fuc k me up...shove ur trumpet u p mya ss...stab me w ith a drumstick...i'm not picky...just f uck m eu p

Message Man: chill af + dat bassline doe

Hometown: super cool alt-rock vibes

Not Today: "this one's a contradiction 'cause of how happy it sounds" dID YOU MEAN ALL OF YOUR FUCKING SONGS EVER???

Goner: i am CRYING UNCONTROLABLY tyler joseph it is YOUR FAULT the tiny bean is SCREAMING again