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I decided to get high and work at my dairy, and blog some thoughts I have and songs I listen to whilst I work.

I really like this job because it work with one guy, let's call him Joe. Joe's very family oriented and I have a lot of respect for him.

It's my first break at 12 am, I smoked a cigarette in my car and almost shit myself so I had to rush to the restroom, 151 Rum by JID bumping through my J-LABS. Sweet release and back to work, Rona got me cleaning up extra special. 12:10

Fish by Tyler the Creator 12:21

I'm realizing now that my thoughts are few and far between so as not to dwell on anything at all for too long, lest it become depressing. Everyone likes shiny stuff, the dull is difficult to appreciate. True Believers by The Bouncing Souls 12:40

Sad Songs and Waltzes by Cake 12:54

99 Luftballons by Nena 1:15

Joe asks about my girlfriend, making me wish the Rona was over so I can go out and meet her, whoever she may be. What if? By Guttermouth 1:47

Taking my second walk around the plant checking temperatures of every freezer I feel is the best break before my real breaks. The desire for cocaine is strong in my mind, boiling the blood from my cerebellum.

Lunch time, 2 am, time to finish this blunt and eat a turkey sub. I don't much like White Owls but the gas station didn't have Dutches. I only smoked half because the whole parking lot started filling with smoke. It's not very windy. Let's dive into this SAMMICH! Finished at 2:15, drive down the block and finished the blunt and I'm zooming, watched Justin Roiland in a Vanity Fair YouTube video. Rick and Morty hits, so I wanna watch new things by the same creator. Finish strong with some Norm McDonald, back to work. Please Play this Song on the Radio by NoFX 2:34

An Idea for a Movie by the Vandals 2:48

Hang Up by Parasites 4:03

Break time, these cancer sticks are gonna kill me. Even when you're doing nothing, you can be smoking. It's like a fidget spinner that poisons you reeeeal slow. Does that mean all smokers are autistic? Ion no man. Best thing about working at a dairy is all the chocolate milk I want. Best Interest by Tyler, the Creator 4:09

And I head home to Rick by Rick n Dick, smoke a bowl and I'm ready to pass out

Promo, signing off for now 6:54

3005 by Childish Gambino

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Solace

Lose yourself

Find your help

Call the end a friend

Full send

Head first

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Oblivion

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You've done it

Lost yourself

Now find your way

But

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You're knocked off your feet

"What just hit my chest?"

You see not in the black

Another hit in the ribcage

Now you're on your back

You feel like you're choking

A higher rib cracks

You see a tiny light distant in the dark

So dim it means less than nothing

Then once more your chest is attacked

You arch your back

Light bursts into your eyes

Air floods your previously choking, empty lungs

There are two above you, scrubs and gloves

But there's one more

The peak where you chose

Where you looked for the end

And now here you lay

Right where you found it

And like everything else in your life

It was taken away from you

-Andrew Hughes

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I push myself into a corner as you stare me in the face, I drag myself out as you melt onto the floor, but you take form again without a glance in my direction.

Andrew Hughes

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💜Forever won't be long enough for us💜

Andrew Hughes

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I want to hold you till the sun goes down and kiss you till it comes back up.

Andrew Hughes

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My life began and will end with you.

Andrew Hughes

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I Actually Hate Myself

Isn’t heartbreak just the best feeling?

It’s fantastic to hand your heart to someone and watch them gingerly place it on the ground. Ever so lightly they pick up their foot with nothing but the good old Timbs on, and stomp the living shit out of the previously decimated, wounded, bandaged remains of what you call a heart.

Being the victim of an act like such must bring tremendous pain, because being the one doing the crushing hurts really, REALLY fucking bad.

So if you ever feel the need to end things, do it gently.

If you ever feel like it’s not going to work, don’t wait 4 more months and let the other person think you’re definitely gonna go far. If you ever need to give up, remember, “this isn’t giving up. No. This is letting go.” (Rise Against: This Is Letting Go)

For my sweet Juliet, I'll never stop loving you, though our future was never meant to be.

And don’t forget not too read this.

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Got time on my side 24 hours in my life

Every Single Day ~Pennywise

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Malpractice

ICU where pain is healed, Smile like a morphine drip. Emergencies you fight intently, With all of your tongue/cheek quips. I go to you in need and pain, Tho in my mind all that remains Is how you look with eyes of gold, "Placebo's never work," I'm told. But there you sit, right in my brain, Psychiatric wards are not for sane. And that's what you sent me there, That's the truth of how much you care. You sent me to a Looney bin, You knew that would make it true, You knew that e'en thru all my sin, I'll always be crazy for you. -Andrew Hughes ~For the woman I love and I know loves me

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Czech out the reels of the reels

Serious Comedy My homeboys YouTube channel Please support the shittiest video on the internet, any of the ones on that channel.

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THE Day They Gave Out Hearts You Were Sleeping

{Hook} (Spoken) Along the path of what is right and what we want we found ourselves careless of the thought that we shouldn't try to make it work but when we did it seemed great beyond what could actually be true and that's just what it was: beyond true.

{Verse 1} One single picture One paragraph One pretty face One liked to laugh He writes first She replies Easy talks No big ties

{Chorus} Then they got kind of serious Physically it was delirious The emotions were strong But the whole time they were wrong He said this right from the heart She said that from the deep dark She really didn't feel anything When they gave out hearts you were sleeping

{Verse 2} He doesn't know She doesn't care He only knows The feelings bare But the feelings Open wide Were just slander She just lied

{Bridge} Desperation in his words Feeling lost without her Does she really feel it back He asks and her lies don't lack She says that he is her world He thanks God for this girl She says that she loves him so But now blocked he really knows

{Chorus} Then they got kind of serious Physically it was delirious The emotions were strong But the whole time they were wrong He said this right from the heart She said that from the deep dark She really didn't feel anything When they gave out hearts you were sleeping

{Outro} Sleeping sleeping Sleeping When they gave out hearts you were sleeping -An original {shit} song by me{also shit}, Andrew Hughes

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Cause for Revolution; Revolt for The Cause

  Music has evolved rapidly through time, influencing different epidemics and desires in the hearts of listeners. The late seventies and early eighties were generations in which music took a rebellious turn. Suicidal Tendencies is a band that went against the “normal” grain and thrived on defiant, misunderstood lyrical resistance. Their resistance was largely against a breed of punk that shames much of punk rock: racial, prejudice, and judgmental punks. These followers believe in racial and prejudicial principles that fought against true, pure freedom. Suicidal tendencies was born in defiance of this artifactual belief, and proposes that Latino, Asian, African, Pan-American, or other, non European/white punk rockers should fight back. The majority of followers of Suicidal Tendencies, or “Sui’s,” are these diverse ethnic groups because of the revolt against racial, anti-ethnic prejudices. The lyric “I'm not anti-society, society's anti-me... I'm not anti-anything, I just want to be free,” from “Two Sided Politics,” on their self-titled album, argues that  the world is out to get them and they want no part. The band denounces society as a result of society condemning them as a diverse ethnic minority and as punk rockers. Sui’s will do all they can to force acceptance through a rebellious, outspoken fight. Whether that makes someone walk with a sign or start a riot depends on how much you believe in finding equality.   Suicidal Tendencies emerged around the same time surfing was loved and skateboarding was an infant. Skateboarding influences many of their songs, such as “Possessed (to Skate)” from their album Suicidal Tendencies, in which skateboarding is portrayed as a psychotic outlet that takes someone fearless to pursue. A lyric at the end sings “Used to be just like you and me/ Now he's an outcast of society,” calling the revolution of skateboarding outlandish and bizarre, making it ultimately unwanted. Americans, as a whole, do not accept two things easily: change, and things they do not understand. Skateboarding was a change that no one expected, and was very easily misunderstood, if attempted to be understood at all. It is also one of the places their name originates from, due to the incredible death defying stunts that people performed on skateboards and in ramps, making them seem “Suicidal.” This is a large reason why Suicidal Tendencies endorsed it so rigorously. Skateboarding made people uncomfortable, and that forced them to see another perspective, whether they liked it or not. The band is pushing society into a corner and telling it to accept them. They are not asking people to change for them, just to realize that persecution prevents freedom. Freedom is just that: free. And persecution is putting a price on that freedom. As Suicidal Tendencies sings in “You Can’t Bring Me Down,” on their album Lights...Camera...Revolution!, “Just cause you don't understand what's going on don't mean it don't make no sense/ And just cause you don't like it, don't mean it ain't no good.” This portrays all of society as they live without an inkling of acceptance of any kind, denouncing things because they are a change. Without change, the world becomes stagnant. In a stagnant world, life cannot prevail. Suicidal Tendencies, along with many other punk rock bands, exists as the change we need to survive. Suicidal Tendencies does not want death, but a way to live until then. Suicidal Tendencies is one of many roots for revolution.

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Nothing More

Typing away with clicks and tacks Never to surface for air. Watching away, videos, ads Just to see something impaired And for what? Pleasure at Pain and discomfort sat Staring me down till I want Nothing But Death~ And death doesn't come and We never feel release because Unlike the rest, we are damned. While others destroy us both Mentally, physically, tearing Until we all feel outmanned. They press until purple And make us leek red, But they won't let us die. They'll never make us dead. But while we're alone All by ourselves, We live in our torment Our personal hell. If we stay here With no one to press, If we stay here No pain to obsess, We'll all self destruct And press on our own, Because all we want Is to be our own. And finally end Complete without bliss, All you need to read Is please don't read this.

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Tumblr and it's uses.

The purpose of the nearly pornographic social media site in which members write or "blog" about experiences and involvements is to create an outlet for the less fortunate. If one does not have a significant other, an easy way to put off steam is through words or even pictures, sometimes pornographic in content and provocative in feeling, with it being completely okay, allowing people to do, say, or feel whatever they want without the judgement and guilt. What I'm trying to say, is that I have no idea what Tumblr is for. I have no idea why I'm writing this. I have no clue why I exist. Goodbye. Good luck. And please don't read this.

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Real friends stab you in the front

Andrew Hughes