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Everybody can fuck off either there "happy valentine's day" "love is in the air" bullshit. Shut the fuck up please. I'm not I'm the mood to hear that go away.

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Couldn't even last 2 days without relapseing shit.

And both days I was clean I had to beg myself not to relapse.

I'm not actually going to get better am I?

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just when I said I was clean another fucking thing happened

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for someone that wanted me back so badly you are amazing at ignoring me

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I should probably stop obsessively checking their tumblr… nah

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what the fuck do I have to do to be enough for you?

(that's an actual question, just tell me and it's done)

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Still does kinda sting tho.

at this point I've been left so many times it doesn't hurt anymore

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how could it all just end like this? I could have loved you for so much longer

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I don't know what I'm feeling I just know I want it to stop

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some people are just too sensitive to be alive

(I'm some people)

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I want love but I don't want to have to beg for it. Please love me too. Please acknowledge me. It's like you don't want me here anymore...are you better off without me? Is everyone better off without me?...

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I just wanna be good at something

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I'm so tired of feeling like this.

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tbh I’m absolutely terrified about what’s happening in the world rn, I was not supposed to make it this far and now idk what to do

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i can feel it it’s getting worse!!!!