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I really can't walk back into that place. It makes everything worse. I'm already bad enough. I hate this I can't fucking do it.

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sh culture is cvtting out of boredom

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You know for somebody who let's their ed rule their life, I sure do suck at having an ed

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it’s always awkward when people speak to me about 3ds not knowing i am head under the water drowning in one HAHAHA

suffering in silence >>>>

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Lately feeling like my guts have been ripped out and someone is eating them raw, with all the blood spilled all over.

So, um, anyway, how are you?

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5 days into 2025 and im still not sk!nny

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December is such a hard time to have an ed it’s basically a month dedicated to eating foods that make you fat

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your mental health will take everything from your life until it eventually takes your life

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It's barely the beginning of the year and I'm already failing

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i wish anorexia in men and boys was more recognized because it's so invalidating to be told you can't have this disorder let alone struggle with self image issues or eating problems. I just also think that other men with eds might not even recognize that they have them.

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I actually feel so empty that it's not even a joke

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no matter how many scabs you pick you can never take the wrong off your skin

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Real though I hate it

Sh culture is the terrifying thought of 'actually I'm too tired to cut'

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Might go ghost really debating it rn.

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I hate eating so much. Every time I eat I swear I can feel the fat on my body growing. Ew ew ew ew ew.

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I need to stop being so fucking nice and a people pleaser I can't fucking deal with being a therapist friend either anymore I want to fucking die.