god-trauma

[god-trauma]

block evading by killing myself and manifesting as a poltergeist in my ex's house

[god-trauma]

waking up after a suicide attempt and discovering that you're still alive is the worst feeling in the world

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you might think your life sucks when you're 15, but someday your life will be so much more unbearably worse that you look back at tenth grade fondly. no matter how bad things are, they can always be worse. and they will be! just stay alive and you'll experience tortures beyond your comprehension! every year will be a little worse than the year before and there will be no break in the agony and no one will ever help you and psych meds are fake and don't have the slightest effect and if anyone says they care about you they are absolutely lying and just setting you up for a new round of misery. if you're still alive im so sorry and i hope the sun unexpectedly supernovas some time in the next 3 hours.

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i hope everyone who's ever pretended to love me catches on fire and drowns in their own melting organs 😸

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im not scared of going to hell when i die because there's literally no way it wouldn't be an improvement. I'll be chilling in a lake of fire like holy shit this is so much better than being alive.

[god-trauma]

my morning routine is waking up and then screaming in anguish for 20 minutes or so because i didn't die in my sleep

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everyone who says to just hold on because life gets better after high school is full of shit. my life gets a little worse every single day. there's not one experience I've had in the past 10 years that i would be disappointed to have missed. if i had a time machine id go back to 1995 and smother myself in the cradle and the world would be a better place.

[god-trauma]

i wish i died the first time i tried to kill myself. could honestly have done without the past 16 years it's been nothing but downhill.

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oh good my ex came back to tumblr and blocked me instead of answering my question about getting divorced. i fully and sincerely hope we both die.

[god-trauma]

you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

[god-trauma]

[god-trauma]

the farthest away drug dealer you've ever heard in your life: im pulling up

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inception is a great movie and it's full of dudes ive been psychosexually obsessed with at one time or another but idk. this movie does not make me horny. it's got like negative sexual energy. anybody with me on this?

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does anyone else feel weird & not good or is it just me

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you know if some guys snuck into my brain while i was sleeping on a plane and tricked me into forgiving my father for economic reasons i think id be a little mad.

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Girl what do you MEAN?

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me: im kinda hungry, let's get something to eat :)

the evil goblin who lives in my brain: heh, what if-

my dad, diving into the room: WHAT IF THE UBER EATS GUY KILLS YOU WITH A MACHETE

evil brain goblin: 😑 mf stealing my thunder again

me: mcdonald.

every time i order uber eats my dad tries to convince me that the delivery guy is gonna murder me when he gets to the house. I'll be on my phone like hmm maybe ill get some chicken nuggets and my dad immediately runs into the room with a list of everyone in all of history who was killed by a delivery guy. the brain chemicals that give me paranoid delusions might as well just fucking retire and outsource their job to my dad he'll come up with shit they didn't even dream of 🙄