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Ok so I’m now 100% sure ao3 hates me bc I’ve formatted the new chapter of Dislyte Academy, but it literally won’t let me do ANYTHING other than type in the text box.

I’ll try on another device (if I can get one) since I’m doing all this on my phone. I’ve been struggling w this for the entire week and atp I’m just done

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I said “I want Toland’s divinate” so Toland took me by the waist and said “ok little lady”

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Doodling Freddy and forcing myself to actually finish him on paper instead of on my phone

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Bullying Toland like it's a 9-5 job

[DO NOT REPOST]

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i haven't played for a long time now but the old side stories at least delivered

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He who survived the end of the world…

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You cant look me in the eyes and tell me he wouldn't dress her up like him

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He rlly likes bats

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WE ARE SO BACK BABYYYYYYY

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Some snippets of the upcoming chapter of Welcome to Dislyte Academy :D

I’ll probably be able to get it out by this weekend. Hopefully

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ok sure!! so like, the best way i can think to explain this is by way of locus of control as compared to actual circumstance. (kinda long so tldr at the end)

(for context, locus of control is a psychological personality trait that describes how people perceive the degree of control they have in their own lives- someone with an external locus of control thinks along the lines of "things happen to me" while someone with an internal locus thinks along the lines of "i make things happen")

to start, li xiao has a strongly internal locus of control, even though most of the forces in his life are external (socioeconomic status, rigid cultural norms in tangton, institutional hierarchy etc etc). to himself, he makes things happen, and that is objectively true!! li xiao fought and clawed his way up from where he was against all odds, and this is also partially why he spun out so badly following the stampede- for the first time in 20 years, he lost control, and it could cost him everything. he locks down this control even further in his capacity as the head of the radiant guard after yun chuan's supposed death, because if there's one thing his life taught him, it was that the world owed him nothing, and he had to take what he wanted himself.

conversely, bi tao seems to have an external locus of control, even though his circumstances are mostly internal. according to bi tao, his "rivalry" with lu shang came about because lu shang was universally loved and bi tao was shunned and ostracized. sounds bad when he says it!! but there's a reason lu shang does not remember this rivalry at all, and it's because it was entirely of bi tao's own making. bi tao and lu shang were competitors for a school council position at the private school they both attended. and bi tao wasn't even like, a loser!! he was like second or third in the running after lu shang!! moreover, he was never ignored by lu shang, they just weren't explicitly friends, a key reason in that being that bi tao, in his desperate attempt for support, allied himself with the anti-esper camp, even though it's implied that he didn't actually believe in that. then, of course, in a twist of karmic irony, bi tao transforms into an esper mid-campaign speech, leading to him being rejected by the base he built his platform on. ironically, it was lu shang's honesty and bi tao's willingness to eschew his morals that made lu shang more likable to people. however, bi tao regards himself as someone who was dealt a bad hand, and lu shang as someone who just got lucky for no reason, refusing to recognize the actions he deliberately made that changed the course of his life, blaming others instead.

now, lu shang and yun chuan is a little harder to explain but stay with me here. one of the reasons that li xiao resented yun chuan so strongly was that he saw himself in him. he saw a man that, despite his circumstances, rose through the ranks via his own blood, sweat, and tears, and to li xiao, that made him a threat to his station. obviously, to someone as tirelessly driven as li xiao, the biggest threat to his efforts would be another li xiao, and that's what he feared from yun chuan. however, the paradigm of "internal locus of control despite strongly external forces" is much more applicable to lu shang than it is yun chuan. lu shang, for most of his life, believed in his own ability to change things, even after his life was irreversibly changed by an external force (the tangton council and bi tao orchestrating the deaths of his students), and he still holds this belief. what differentiates him from li xiao is the stakes- lu shang had the opportunity to move on and rebuild, but li xiao knew that his life was functionally over if the truth came out. on the other hand, yun chuan does have a strongly internal locus of control, but what li xiao didn't exactly realize is that his circumstances were also, by and large, internal. choice is a major theme in yun chuan's story, and it's why his trial revolved around the decision to take the fall for li xiao again- because it was, ultimately, a decision he consciously made, and he made peace with that. yun chuan's circumstances were almost entirely shaped by his own choices, and he regrets none of it, because he is both aware of this, and sure of his decisions. this is why li xiao wasn’t expecting yun chuan to take the fall- because it’s not something he himself would’ve done, and he hadn’t yet realized the difference in their thinking.

this is long as hell and kinda confusing so like thanks for reading if you did

tldr: li xiao and lu shang both just got the short end of the stick and decided to do something statistically improbable about it, yun chuan and bi tao both willingly and knowingly drew the short stick but bi tao blames it on lu shang and the world and large while yun chuan says yeah i meant to do that dw

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Su Jue!!! :3

I'm going back to my old artstyle btw!

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A collection of my old Sander/Falken dislyte fanart

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Ethan stole Leo’s glasses WHAT

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Tang Xuan doodle I did in math. Og sketch under the cut

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Academy!Leora with her hair down, who cheered

(I may be planning an academy au update in the near future)

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SALLY 😍😍😍😍😍

My wife