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*** I M P R I N T ***

APOLOGIES   -&- FORGIVENESS     In my time on this Earth I’ve unintentionally bedded-pillowed many a fair maiden;   Sadly, parting too soon Without them ‘knowing’ me ..   Although, physical intimacy dominated; Knowledge of me remained hidden ..   Truth be told,  I was unaware  of a ‘me’-to-know, which I came to know.   Being transient, of a more or less free-range upbringing,  I established…

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R E V E A L .. .

M E N T AL     H E A L T H:       Reduce being anxious – despondent – depressed about things Impeding the enhancement of my post-stroke recovery, ..  Eliminate constant assaults on my mental health ..  ..    “My continual thoughts on ‘death and dying’:    Going through sensational doorways, .. Feeling every part of self:   Body – Mind – Soul Thoroughly occupying awareness .. .   Something about…

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** E-V-O-L-V-I-N-G **

* L – O – V – E  *   ‘Love’, a sentimental word I’ve lived with and usually associated with ‘pain’; Never has it left me with more than temporal ‘joy’, .. Vanishing immediately upon being uttered, .. Depositing an accompanying long-lasting ‘sadness’ ..   The saying, ‘this too shall pass’, intrinsically flawed, .. Insofar, as applying only-to-pain; Implying only ‘pleasure’, Its ‘pain’ having much…

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*** S - T - R - O - K - E ***

D E A T H   ‘Knell’   M A N I F E S T O   .. !     This is not my expected future-present, even in being still alive; ..   Not imagining myself as a younger version, as I had no imaginings of being an adult, much less ‘this’ adult, ..   I can think of things unworthy of energy and time, to bemoan this allotted time / space experience: ..     ‘THOUGHTS’ emerged as ‘automatic writing’ transcribed…

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E M O T I O N S .. .. .

G R I E F   …   …   …     This is long overdue in a most unexpected way .. I never thought I’d have this emotion to express, and not toward this person considering how we met.   Sometime toward the tail end of my career Scheduling placed us in proximity of having lunch This non-event was to become our regular thing ..   We had but one thing in common; being teachers, I retired earlier, minor…

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F A L L E N . . .

R E C O G N I T I O N  . .  .     It’s come to my attention from empiric mind-scapes   There’s a vast difference in physical sensations when  One rises from the floor when one’s an infant, an adolescent, A young-adult and, then an elder-adult .. .   I contemplated doom memories in an instant-in-time;   Which occurred while I was two-stages removed, but .. In the latter stage, ruminating on…

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** I N S I G H T S **

MINDFUL  ~  ERUPTIONS   Upon viewing the AFI 2019 Awards speech given by Julia Roberts to Denzel Washington This came to mind, Upon witnessing-presented-experience; *** I remember despite growing up without a father, at times a mother; I didn’t have anyone who was becoming a mentor until I was in Teachers College, but lost out because I was-too-hyper, living like I was feral as I did in childhood…

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R U M I N A T I O N . . .

An   Ongoing   Constant:   a Rumination   I’ve often taken time to do deep dives inside;   But,   recently my tours Have taken me down rabbit-holes   with deeper insights which much earlier  offered dangerous options;   Options dangerous to utter, Nowadays, the options still appear   But, in these adult years, they are but hollow tomes   To be left in the dust,  forgotten to where they rest   To…

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AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL ... ... ...

MY  ~ S I D E W A Y S ~  LIFE:     Until recently, 2022 midway into the COVID-19 Pandemic,  I was living what appeared to be a somewhat upright life; Unbeknownst to me my body was to knock-me-sideways !   Born on a lovely island in the Caribbean, into dysfunctional families Under ‘Colonialism’, a system which held not only secrets, but also a myriad of multi-dimensional & multi-layered effects…

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a ~ P A U S E . . .

*** W  A  I  T  I  N  G   ***     With what I know of ‘death’, extrapolation during projections often accompanies numbness, .. Which follows vacuous sensibilities misunderstood-in-time; .. What can I say to bring comfort for those waiting in-the-wings .. ?   On one mindful – meditative – walkabouts, came internal dialogues: ~ being fearful of expressing thoughts led to incessantly proof-reading…

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* * * L E G A C Y * * *

H I S T -OUR- Y   2 0 1 9       Our/sTory   heading into/and through COVID-19 the Low/Ebb  in/of our lives with age/health factors, .. As pertinent aspects in/of the cycle of our lives 🎭 !                            *I’ve never considered having a particular type-of-future, .. much less, this one I’m living through;    It’s often been mention to me, as a compliment no less  complementing my…

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S O M B R E .. .

SOBRIETY    🌻   Insights surface revealing a ‘dark’ side of my soul,  Beyond ‘D A R K’ bordering on ‘I N S A N I T Y’;    I’ve seen it – smelled it – felt it – tasted it !!   It is more than a ‘N I G H T M A R E’, you wish no energy,   Allowing this ‘V O I D’ to manifest-ITs-melodramas 🎭!       S L A T E ?

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A C C U M U L A T I O N ! ! !

A L T E R C A T I O N S     .. .     Living in each future-present moment experienced as is,  without stress-attachments pure states-in-being, in-sync;     that’s how I’ve lived each and every moment in each day .. .      Now, I endure ‘the slings and arrows of outrageous misfortunes’; .. Anxious apprehensions turning-into / becoming increasingly uplifting experiences ..  Reminding me of possible…

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*** N - A - P - P - I - N - G ***

In   Memoria  . .  .   Upon laying down for a Friday afternoon nap This thought came to me, If I didn’t awaken from this,  or any other, This is how I’d be discovered .. .   What precipitated  this construct ?   Upon being discharged from the rehab hospital in 2022, ..    I was to learn that a good friend and former colleague .. . departed this mortal coil when  I experienced-a-stroke;   Knowing…

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* * I-N-S-I-G-H-T * *

A L T E R A T I O N S     . .  .     Living in each future-present moment experienced as is,  without stress-attachments in pure states-of-being, in-sync; ..   that’s how I’ve lived each and every moment in each day; .. .      Now, I endure ‘the slings and arrows of outrageous misfortunes’;   Anxious apprehensions turning-into / becoming increasingly uplifting experiences, .. Reminding me of…

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I - N - S - I - G - H - T s .. .

L I F E    ~    S  P  A  N       FORTUNE   -&-   MISFORTUNE    Living in a simultaneous vein in this human realm from birth; .. Before conception there was confusion, when birthed dysfunction was the norm, ..   Into a Life of patterned constraints trickling into my developing mindset with untoward influences; .. These influences has physiological affectations of asthma, anxiety followed by a…

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e ~ M A I L ... 2 .

  Our generation has literally lived through and witnessed more than any other in every dimension-of-life. It is our generation that has literally adapted to “CHANGE”. A big round-of-applause to all the members of a very-special-generation, which will be UNIQUE. TIME DOES NOT STOP “Life is a task that we brought ourselves to do at home. When you look… it’s already six in the afternoon;…