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Melinda's Tarot Reading

I think she used a Compatibility Relationship Spread.

Compatibility Relationship Spread

This tarot spread focuses completely on the dynamics between two partners and analyzes different aspects of your relationship that might be points of contention or unification. 

Your wants - What are you looking for in a relationship? What do you need from the relationship to consider it successful?

Partner's wants - What does your partner want in a relationship? What would they need for it to be successful?

Differences - In what parts of life do you two find differences? What are possible points of disagreement?

Similarities - Where in life do you find similarities? What brings you together?

Emotional Compatibility - How compatible are you emotionally?

Physical Compatibility - How compatible are you physically? How would you characterize your physical relationship?

Mental Compatibility - How compatible are you mentally? Do you find similar things to be intellectually stimulating?

Anya’s Wants- Reverse 4 of Cups

Choosing happiness

Sudden awareness

Acceptance

This card symbolizes being withdrawn and closed off. What she wants to be more open and honest in her relationship with Damian. This could refer to her telepathy and having to keep that a secret. She does want to share that with him (even though she did, and he didn’t believe her). So, order for her to be successful in her relationship with Damian, she needs acceptance. Telepathy and all. “You maybe convinced that there is only one way to solve your problems” (i.e. When Anya keeps asking to go to his house.)

2. Damian’s Wants- Reverse 3 of Swords

Recovery

Forgiveness

Moving on

So, the reverse meaning for the reverse 3 of swords is forgiving one another, moving on after pain, and separation. Now this could mean many things. This could be Damian wanting to asking forgiveness for bullying her, and the way he treats her. Alternatively, this could also mean a future event. Where Damian finds out that Anya has just been using him to get to his father. Their reconciliation may come after a time of separation, maybe years after the end of Operation Strix. What is essential for Damian in their relationship is forgiveness and moving on, that is what he needs. I think most of this indicates a period of separation. He needs time to recover from the hurt. If this is what Endo is implying for the future, I am going to be so cross.

3. Differences- Reverse 10 of Pentacles

Fleeting success

Lack of stability

Lack of resources

Now, we obviously know that there is a difference in their status. Though, it can also serve as a warning for future financial status. What this may imply is that an investment that they put a lot of time an effort into is faulty. What I think this represents is the fickle nature of Damian’s relationship with his father, how he always sought to please him. That’s a huge difference in their relationship. In terms of love, the meaning turns to “conflict between love and family” and “outside opinions about love”. Damian is overly concerned about what his family and others would think if he were to have a relationship with Anya. Which is the true tragedy.

4. Similarities- Reversed Death

Fear of change

Holding on

Stagnation

The Death Tarot is about change, whether it is reversed or not. When it is reversed, the subject is resistant to change. They may have trouble with letting go of the past. The big question is, “What are you afraid of? What are you holding onto?” Since this card represents their similarities, it is easy to see that they are resistant to change and cling to negative thought patterns and behaviors. Listen, Anya keeps believing that if she is not useful for the mission then her Twilight would get rid of her. She wants to keep this life. Damian doesn’t know what would happen if he disregarded his status and station, and if people would like him as a person, rather than jus a status symbol. They’re terrified of what could happen if anything about their situation changes. Of how they might be perceived (Damian). Of being abandoned (Anya). Both need to trust that things will be okay, even if things change.

5. Emotional Compatibility- Upright 3 of Wands

Looking ahead

Expansion

Rapid growth

The three of Wands gives us all the good things, meaning, momentum, confidence, expansion, growth, foresight, and looking ahead. This card represents planning the future and creating a stable foundation for yourself. It about thinking in the long term. In terms of love, it can mean heading towards the next phase. Mostly, it’s about creating a long-lasting foundation for a committed relationship. This can also be able travelling the world together. Basically, all the good stuff for people who love the Damian and Anya pairing.

6. Physical Compatibility- Upright the Star

Hope

Faith

Rejuvenation

This is nice too, the keywords for this card are hope, inspiration, positivity, faith, renewal, healing, and rejuvenation.

Honestly, I found the actual entry so touching, I’ll just copy and paste it.

“To receive the Star in your reading means that you have gone and passed through a terrible life challenge. You have managed to go through this without losing your hope. While you suffered, you perhaps were not aware of your own strength, but you are now perhaps recognizing that the loss helped you discover your own resilience and inner power. It is only now that you can really appreciate all that you have.”

Doesn’t this represent our Starlight Anya so well? In love, the star is about hope and optimism. Healing from past wounds. It says, as long as you remain communicative and honest, you’ll be fine.

"When all is lost, my hope still shines like a guiding star. I will follow it."

7. Mental Compatibility- Upright Ace of Cups

New Feelings

Spirituality

Intuition

The ace of cups represents new beginnings.

“Getting the Ace of Cups upright shows that it's time to let loose of whatever emotional baggage you have and start living your life to the fullest.”

This is about release, about letting go of old baggage, and moving on and forwards. This is one of the happiest cards to get in a love tarot reading. It represents an opportunity for growth, and it could mean awakening of new feelings.  

"I'm ready to experience all the emotions that life presents me with."

tl;dr

Summary

They used a compatibility spread for Anya and Damian. Anya wants to be honest with Damian, she wants to be able to express herself without having to hide anything. She wants to be accepted for who she is. Damian wants forgiveness or to forgive, depending on your interpretation, but it can only happen after a period of separation. Their differences are obviously their social status and how Damian cares about his appearance and how others perceive him. Their similarities stem from a fear of change, of abandonment. Holding on to things that no longer serve you, or help you grow. Emotional compatibility is creating a stable foundation in which to build a future together. Physical compatibility is about hope and optimism for the future. Mental compatibility is new beginnings and the awakening of new feelings. Learning to live life again and moving forward.

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a 2024 reading retrospective

so. i read a lot of fics in 2024. here are some of my favorites.

before i get started, please note that these are not in any particular order and these are not all of my favorites!!!!!!!! i wanted to include so many more but i just wasn't able to! also please don't roast me for reading stuff from more than two years ago :(((

anyway, here we go!!

1. Air by Cantare

as always, @cantareincminor knocks it out of the park. i'm a sucker for alternate first meeting AUs and Air is one of the good ones!! i find that it can be hard to find authentic sounding banter between yor and twilight, but cantare manages it somehow! they have such great and natural sounding dialogue. it's just a one chapter fic, but maybe if we ask nicely enough, cantare will continue one day 😏

2. like the wild geese by anonymous_viscacha

okay in all honesty, i read this for the first time last week and i scrambled to add this one to the list. it's a short one shot about a shared lunch break between yor and loid, but it's so sweet and endearing that i just had to put it on. i love love love it when people let loid and yor catch up on the childhood they lost because they deserve it. i'm kinda obsessed with this fic right now.

3. what happens outside by aerequets

it's kinda unfair that @aerequets gets to be a great artist and author but here we are. i'm not complaining tho because what happens outside is a delightful read. i enjoy exploring post reveal pre relationship twiyor and this fic is perfect for that!! it's also just really cute and reading things from yor's perspective is super endearing.

4. chaos theory by sarsaparillia

so ngl this one scared me at first because i do NOT like major character death fics and this one really seems like it, but this fic was unexpectedly wholesome and has a happy ending!!! it's short but bittersweet so i can't really talk about it without spoiling it any more. go read it! it's short!

5. eventually i fall into you, you attack my heart by princessguard

i know this is a controversial (and somewhat ironic) take but i usually really don't like eden AUs but. this fic is proof that there are always exceptions to the rule. this one is a short little story about a serious student at eden and the weird girl he keeps meeting in trees. i don't know exactly why i love this one so much but it do. it's cute and the epilogue got me grinning like a fool.

6. like real people do by Puolain

once again another alternative meeting AU. i dunno, man, it's just so much fun to see twilight and yor having the chance to be real people and accidentally fall in love which each other. i eat that up every time. great work @loveroma!

7. I'll Be There in a Minute, Dear by fluffmelange

i was SO CLOSE to putting fluffmelange's "Leave No Trace of Yourself" here because that one is SO FUNNY but alas, this delightful fic barely won out in the end. you know what you should do? read both. fluffmelange is keeping us all fed with short and sweet fics that are so much fun to read. this one is a favorite simply because the premise is so goofy and simple but i could 100% see it being canon lol. we are in your capable hands @fluffmelange.

8. I've Been Throwing Bricks At Your Window Like There's No Better Way To Say Hello by thesmallestfishinthesea

this fic has such a silly and simply premise but i love it so so so much. it's about the three times yor forgets her keys (plus one extra time loid forgets!!!!) and it's so cute to have a view inside yor's (often frazzled) mind. i don't know what else to say other than READ IT RIGHT NOW!!! great work @smallest-fish-inthesea!

this is not all!! i really wanted to include the wonderful works of @whateversawesome, @briefhottubcoffee, @spencer-is-alive, luinel, and more (ao3 literally went out just as i was typing this UGH what awful timing) but i wanted to do something to give back to this awesome community. fun fact, today is my birthday and there's a tradition in my family where the birthday person gives presents to others. so this is my present to everyone!! thanks for everything you guys and here's to another great year!

oh oh oh one last thing, i tried to link everyone's tumblr if they have one, so if there's an author on here who has a tumblr that i didn't link, let me know and i'll link them.

okay! thanks everyone!

(ALSO DON'T MAKE FUN OF HOW DIFFERENT SOME OF THE DRAWING STYLES LOOK IN SOME OF THE ILLUSTRATIONS, I WAS EXPERIMENTING WITH DIFFERENT TECHNIQUES AND THEY LOOK STUPID ALL PUT TOGETHER LEAVE ME ALONE😭😭😭😭😭😭)

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Fire 🔥🔥

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"Dance practice for Eden"

can't wait for season 3... i miss them so bad!!

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Character Developments and Parallels in Chapter 103 (1): Twilight and his performance

[Manga Spoilers alert]

As everybody knows, Ch.103 is the real 100th chapter since Ch.3 is the first chapter in which the Forgers became a family. There are a lot of callbacks between these two chapters. What do the callbacks tell us about character developments? What has changed?

Ch.3 shows us how Twilight really operates as a spy - he observes as Twilight and performs as Loid. He is both the spectator and the spectacle. Being a good spy, for Twilight, means the two roles align perfectly with each other.

While it is true that the three constantly acted as an audience in ch.3 (in an opera house, an art museum, or a political rally), what Twilight really wants to show off is their identifications of being a part of these audiences. The audience is then also the performer. Being an audience in Ch.3 is a preparation for being a performer in Ch.4.

In Ch.3, the major conflict is that he is a spy, a cool liar and a good actor, while Yor and Anya are not. When Loid gets anxious about the family's performance, Yor decides to take Loid and Anya to the park.

They retreat to a place where they could take a step back, shed their roles as performers and observe the crowd as spectators. She shows Twilight the place which "reminds her to get back to work" for the sake of the people while staying away from the crowd, She reminds him what his work is really about.

This happens again in Ch.103.

But the thing is, ch.103 is not really about work. Rather, Yor reminds Twilight of something opposite of work. She reminds him that it's totally fine to let go and not think about work.

As opposed to ch.3, which is about work.

Ch.3 is set in crowded places. Twilight doesn't want to stand out but he needs the crowds. As a spy, he needs the affirmation from others that his pretend family is convincing. He gets what he wants in chapter 3 by getting the affirmation he needs from a random person he saves.

The fact is throughout the whole story he has been stressing the importance of playing a convincing part in front of the others (ch.29, 47, 67).

Before Ch.75, we see a clear pattern in Twilight's performance as Loid, namely "for the mission", an excuse that allows Twilight to align his two roles (spy vs father/husband) with each other. Ch.75 is a watershed. There is a crowd, and for the first time, Twilight refuses to perform for the crowd. Or us. He refuses to give us his thoughts about his observations. Instead, he starts to offer excuses to his colleagues. He did it again in ch.86.

And after that, again, in ch.87, we see a tired and wounded Twilight hiding in his bedroom, refusing to perform for us. The fact is, he no longer even uses the "for the mission" as an excuse for himself. He no longer talks to us, the readers, hiding the answers even from his thoughts. He starts to find his own faults in his performances - Loid should act according to Twilight's will, but what if Twilight's wrong?

Ch.94 is interesting in a way that for the first time, it's not about aligning the two roles, Twilight and Loid. He's still "performing" as Loid but he's not thinking about the mission at all. He's not trying to be a spy.

What makes ch.103 very special is the absence of the crowds. Becky appeared for a moment and left quickly. Endo deliberately created a private sphere in a public space. There was no audience to perform to, so there was no need to perform. There seemed to be a mission - to find and observe Belle, but they were not actively looking for Belle. They were not trying to get Stella starts out of Belle. Different from what he did in ch.94, he's not using any of his skillset. He listened to Yor, sat and waited.

He no longer feels the need to perform in front of Yor. Echoing ch.86 in which Yor tells him he doesn't need to "be so perfect", as a response to Yor's suggestion about Belle, he just tells her about his "fault/weakness": "Waiting idly isn't what I'm great at either."

If his self-reflection in ch.14 and 35 could be interpreted as his attempt to fix something, he really didn't need to share this piece of info in ch.103 at all. He is a very private person. He doesn't talk about himself, not even to Franky. But it seems that he likes talking to Yor. He opens up to her.

He knows he doesn't need to perform in front of Yor, and that allows Twilight to make an attempt to relax.

The massive walls of texts (the ones while he thinks) disappeared as he tried "to not think for a while, to not worry for a while, to just relax and let go". Endo chose to draw a space that is empty of crowds and buildings. For a moment, it was just the four of them enjoying themselves.

For a moment, he's not Twilight [as a spy] or Loid [as a husband/father]. He's just [redacted].

He relaxed. And for the first time, he didn't faint (or die). This is the biggest character development of Twilight, really.

And therefore, this is the perfect 100th chapter.

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A follow up to my last post regarding the SxF manga's recent hiatus: the official Shonen Jump+ Twitter account finally gave an explanation today - the hiatus is due to Endo's poor health.

It's a relief that we finally know what happened and all the crazy rumors disguised as facts that have been floating around on social media can be put to rest (though I wish they would have said something sooner so the rumors wouldn't have spread in the first place, but better late than never).

I'm sad that Endo's health has been poor though 😥 I really hope he gets well soon and whatever's wrong with him isn't too serious. Since they haven't changed the December 23rd release date, perhaps that means he's getting better 🤞 I won't go into detail here since I already vented about this topic before, but people seem to forget that Endo is a person just like any of us, a person who can get sick or have any number of personal issues come up, which should take priority over keeping up a rigid manga schedule. Even if he has to take an even longer hiatus in the future, whatever's best for him is, ultimately, what's best for the SxF manga.

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*anya proceeds to read his mind and find out exactly how much love he needs*

this is the original reference image by @danielcalmdown (which was reposted on pinterest without credit :[ )

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She is in love💞 hehe

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She is in love💞 hehe

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takes a long drag of my fake cigarette

here we go again. retirement pt 2

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you can’t hold on forever

but you can try

lyrics from lovesick by laufey

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the forgers get a cat (it has telekinesis)

it probably like, snuck into radioactive waste or something that project apple left behind and came out with telekinesis

not enough to do serious damage but just enough for tomfoolery and shenanigans

yor found the kitty. it immediately loved her. yor is its favorite

bond is terrified of this cat 1/8th his size

bond is sad when anya shows this cat love, but also can't do anything because aforementioned fear

it likes to mess with loid because why not? make his life harder. go kitty

doesnt have a name yet 🤔🤔

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best friends to lovers is only good if theyre still best friends while theyre lovers

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you can’t hold on forever

but you can try

lyrics from lovesick by laufey

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when i think of a twiyor reveal this is exactly what happens in my mind... 😳

so... haha let me yap here about the story:

it's a scene "sketch" of a twiyor reveal comic i've been dreaming of for a while (don't know if it's any good tbh and my skill is lacking 😭)

it just takes place after code: white (in that whole setting, the day after) so... here, loid has gone a bit unlike his usual self and is trying to talk to her, when stuff goes awry (this scene + more)

i shouldn't spoil my own story 😭 but at the end of the day it's a sappy confession and semi-identity reveal with a good ending!

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loid can’t understand anya’s childish behavior bc most of his childhood is tainted with war and he didn’t have time to act his age.