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pa-rant.

so i bought this.

i was supposed to look for a gift for Jai and i don’t want to go to the mall anymore so i just went to this shop - walking distance from my space.

i didn’t know that this particular shop is selling ‘premium’ quality of clothing. kahit pa alam kong wala naman premium or class A thing when it comes to brands.

my budget for a gift is only ranging from 500-1000 pesos, enough for a shirt or if meron, hoodie sana since Jai is a hoodie-freak.

ayun na nga. since walking distance lang naman, i was just wearing a shirt, shorts, and slippers. and i still looked decent naman.

so… alam niyo yung toxic na ugali ng mga sales person when you don’t ‘look’ rich outside, tatarayan ka lang. hahahaha. omg, sobrang asar ko talaga tho i know, it happens.

so, wala akong napili for Jai kasi ang mamahal. then i just asked this lady until what time sila nakabukas, inirapan lang ako and said until 7:30pm. i asked because i was waiting for my other friends’ opinion, if mag share nalang kami para dun sa hoodie na nakita ko sa shop na yon.

idk. tapos, siguro ma-ego lang rin akong tao and went to ladies section and saw this knitted top - which i really like naman and i really like the color.

i ended up buying this for myself and medyo pricey siya. nag-decline yung debit card ko kaya inabot ko nalang yung credit card ko since wala akong cash.

paglabas ko, hala si ate, bumait talaga. eto pang nakaka-loka!!! she said, “color ____ na po yung credit card niyo no, ma’am.”

and just like that, she became accommodating and respectful towards me… instantly after i pulled out my cc.

not that i’m saying that people are after money or that i’m bragging about my cc.

but you know, it makes me sad that people will treat you based on your financial status. hindi lang mga sales person but also our relatives diba.

PS:

i don’t recommend using CC. hehe. promise. you don’t want to spend what you haven’t earned yet.

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eat a pussy.

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https://www.instagram.com/p/CQbnB4anse2/

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Parang nasanay na rin ako na hindi nare-reciprocate yung love na binibigay ko. Na parang kapag dumating yung taong magpaparamdam sakin ng totoo at genuine love, it would scare me away.

Ni hindi na masakit. Hindi na masakit kapag mararamdaman ko na na nanlalamig. Ni wala na akong pakealam kahit pa harapan mong sabihin sa akin na hindi na ako. Na sigurado ka na na hindi ako.

Yun na ata yung depenisyon ko ng pagmamahal. Yung akin. Yung binibigay ko kay Carl. Ni hindi ko na alam paano tumanggap.

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“Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again.”

— Vladimir Nabokov

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Life Update (that you never really asked for) Part II:

I went to Singapore to have a break and to watch Paramore live. I had meet and greet with them too which is really nice & still can’t move on.

Singapore is a nice place and honestly wanna go back.

Met old friends from Malaysia and made new ones.

Love Laksa. Love Laksa. I could eat it all day.

Went back in Manila for another Paramore show in Mall Of Asia and Manila crowd is honestly the best crowd.

Went straight to the airport for Jakarta and watch them again live.

Honestly the wildest thing I’ve ever done.

Fell asleep just before the plane took off. Really tired.

Lined up to the venue from 8 in the morning and burnt by the heat of the sun. What the fuck and yes, I did that.

Too lucky to be in the front row again with small people in front of me.

But hey, they’re actually the wildest. Like, really really wild. And honestly, I didn’t able to take a lot of good photos and videos as I was being pushed from side to side. There were a lot of people who passed out during the show. Paramore was so alarmed too.

Jakarta is v nice but to tell you honestly, majority of them couldn’t converse in English. And I probably won’t go back.

I’m having PCD. Tour’s over and we’ll never know what will happen to Paramore, if there’ll be another album or whatever.

I’m still v tired but I’ll be back to work later today. Sucks.

Help me, I’m poor.

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don't be sad, gin! you'll meet them! maybe not this year, pero malay mo diba out of nowhere!!! baka di lang talaga tayo swerte sa raffles na yan pero we'll get there!!! 💖

Sorry, i’m so sad. Can’t fake it. 😭

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BurjKhalifa. 👌🏼

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11.30.17 // Dubai Mall

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fave song on AF?

Aww. This is too hard. I like them all. 🤯 I could listen to Idle Worship all day long. I like the lyrics of Tell Me How. “I CAN’T CALL YOU A STRANGER. BUT I CAN’T CALL YOU. I KNOW YOU THINK THAT I ERASED YOU, YOU MAY HATE ME BUT I CAN’T HATE YOU & I WON’T REPLACE YOU.”

And I like the song of hope, 26.

Of course, Hard Times & Fake Happy.

I love everything in this album.

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thoughts on after laughter? :)

Omg, don’t start this topic I won’t shut up. Generally speaking, AF is about what is really happening behind our smiles, behind our laughs. It’s exactly what we feel behind closed doors; when we’re finally alone. It’s what we really want to say when other people ask us what we truly feel.

I love this album. So much.

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when will you know it's time to let go?

When you’re the only one holding on.

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Why must a government change from time to time?

Because people needs change from time to time. Our needs change with time so a government must cope up with these changes as well. It needs continuous improvement and cope up with trends, technology, etc. that a government may take advantage of, to rule better.

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I know that people don't always keep the same friends throughout their entire life but I always thought I would."

Hayley Williams

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However difficult you think you are, there is someone out there who will love you.

They will hold your hand through your anxiety. They will be there for you even on your worst, angriest days. They will allow you to grow and evolve in the way you need. And even when you make mistakes, they will take the time to understand you and forgive you.

Love is not a thing that needs to be earned by changing yourself from the person you are. You can better yourself, but never ever think you need to better yourself for anyone other than yourself. Those kind of changes never last.

This is the kind of love you deserve. This is the kind of love you need. No one is too difficult to love when they have love in their hearts to give to others. Please don’t believe whoever told you that you will never find the love you need, not even yourself. Don’t tell yourself that changing who you are will get you the love you need. Because this you, all raw, all broken is still beautiful, is incredibly wonderful to someone.

Believe in yourself. You are not too difficult to love.

And you deserve love. Just like this. Just as you are.

Nikita Gill, You Deserve Love