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Zayne x CrushingNurse!Reader | Part Four

When the joke stops being funny ( time for angst muahaha )

Part One • Part Two • Part Three

Love and Deepspace Masterlist

I | It started when you dropped a pen after Zayne passed by, and one of the nurses whispered loud enough for others to hear, “Careful, she might faint. He breathed near her.” You were shocked, still you laughed with them. That was the first time you didn’t meet Zayne’s eyes all day.

II | You used to prep his morning coffee without being asked. One day, a colleague asked, “Are you trying to date him or adopt him?”

You did not know how to answer her, you could only watch her walk away as she chuckled to herself. You could feel the warmth spread up to your cheeks, embarassment running through every single vein in your body- you threw the coffe you prepared down the sink, both yours and His. Later on, Zayne passed by the desk you were standing at and asked, “Are the coffee machines broken?”

You bit your lip as a pang of guilt - and embarassment again - hit you right in your chest. "No, they are not broken." You answered and looked back at your screen right after, quietly dismissing him. He stood there for a moment, you could feel his eyes inspecting you and you did your best to keep a poker face- after a few seconds he quietly walked away.

III | You started sitting at the far end of the table during meetings. Zayne glanced toward your usual spot. When his eyes passed over you, you looked down. He did not say a word about it, but the way his tone turned clipped for the rest of the briefing? He did not have to.

IV | A group of nurses giggled when you rushed into the OR after being called by Zayne. One said, “She gets summoned and sprints like she’s about to get proposed to.” You tried to laugh. It cracked in the middle. You were used to these comments coming from Mc- but you had built somewhat a friendship with her, these were just your collegues. Collegues whom you definately did not have the kind of bond with to be making such jokes. But, it's fine. They were just joking, they did not meet any harm.

V | You stopped wearing the pretty clip you used to use for your hair. The one Zayne had gotten for you as a birthday present. You had been shocked, but so excited when he congratulated you and had worn the golden hairclip ever since. Until a nurse asked you, "Do you wear it because your hair actually gets in the way or just because a certain doctor gifted it to you?"

VI | Zayne asked you a question and you stuttered again - usually you just laugh it off and Zayne raises and eyebrow. This time, you saw the same nurses that had been dropping comments about you chuckle as they looked your way. You just apologized and walked off mid-sentence. He stared after you for a beat too long, lips slightly parted like he might call out. He didn't.

VII | One of the new nurses caught you staring at Zayne across the hallway and whispered, “Dream smaller.” What? It wasn’t loud. But loud enough for the people nearby to chuckle. You chuckled with them, even though the knife that had been stuck in your chest these past weeks twisted even further.

VIII | Zayne corrected a minor error in your notes. Usually, you’d flush and nod and promise to fix it. This time, you just said, “Yes, Doctor,” and turned away before he could say more. He watched you walk off with something tight behind his eyes.

IX | The nurse’s break room got suspiciously quiet when you walked in. A moment later, someone said, “Wonder how she even got placed on his team. Must’ve blushed her way in.” You stood frozen. No one said anything, they just laughed as if your weren't standing right there, just making a cup of coffee. It felt like all the breath had been knocked out of your chest, because even though she worded it carefully as she did, you knew exactly what she implied.

X | You stopped speaking in group briefings unless directly addressed. Once, you did answer a question, and someone coughed “Pet” into their elbow. Zayne raised his head at the sound, you could see him question himself whether he really heard that right or not. He glanced at you. You didn’t meet his gaze.

XI | MC came to Zayne for a check up and found you pecking at your lunch alone at the desk instead of with the others in the breakroom. She walked around the desk and sat beside you at the empty chair. You tried to act fine. She didn’t comment on the cold sandwich or your red eyes. She just said, “Want me to punch anyone?” You shook your head. She muttered, “Coward,” and stayed with you anyway.

XII | Zayne asked for assistance with a patient and you hesitated before agreeing. He tilted his head slightly. “You always volunteer.” You shrugged. “I just thought maybe someone more… competent could”

"You are one of the most if not the most competent nurses here." He replied, then kept an eye on you. Waiting for the way your eyes would widen and shine at the compliment - as you usually would. And you wanted to, but you already feeling the side eye your collegue next you shot you- you kept your head down. Still, you helped him out. His jaw was tight the entire appointment.

XIII | MC watched you fumble and apologize for a mistake that wasn’t yours as she was seated in the waiting room. When you left, a nurse said, “She’s scared he’ll stop liking her if she breathes wrong.” MC raised a brow and said, “Funny she is the one scared when she has the least reason to be." Silence.

XIV | You dropped your ID badge and someone said, “Pick it up, maybe he'll see something that'll actually catch his attention” You laughed. Later, when Zayne said your name, you had to push back tears at his voice. He noticed.

XV | You once brushed past him in the hallway and he turned slightly, as if expecting a nod or greeting. You didn’t say anything. Didn’t even slow your pace.

XVI | Zayne began checking over your work more than usual. Not criticizing—just… looking. Quietly. One day he said, “Your....way of leaving notes to me have changed.” You said, “I’m just trying to be more professional.” He looked like he wanted to ask something. He didn’t.

XVII | You tried to smile at him when handing over a chart, but it came out wrong—tight, strained. He took the clipboard and said nothing. But he was still holding it when you walked away, not flipping the page.

XVIII | Zayne told a mildly sarcastic joke during rounds- keeping an eye out for your reaction expecting your usual nervous giggle.. The group laughed. You didn’t.

XIX | Mc showed up again, something told you it had nothing to do with a check up or another reason she had to see Zayne for- maybe you were delusional, but you thought maybe she came to check up one you. No one had in a long time. “You know he’s not blind, right?” You smiled, “I think he might be.”

XX | One evening, Zayne passed by and paused near your desk. You didn’t look up. He said, “You’ve been different lately.” You kept typing. “Just focusing on work.” He didn’t move. “…Did someone say something to you?”

Silence.

"No." You responded simply, quietly- but somehow that single word felt like a cry, a shout- as if you were banging on a invisible glass cage you were trapped in.

He walked away but as he lay in bed that night he could not stop thinking about it.

All Rights Reserved © DarlingsBlackBook

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Pretty Dan Heng !

DAN HENG APPRECIATION POST !!!! Full pic on instagram!!!!! Coloring on Dan Heng's tail was inspired by @/zephyere on insta!

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Idk if you take requests or not but I love your little roommate blurbs, and maybe zayne w/ roommate watching a movie and falling asleep together?

Love your writing ❤️

warnings/content: sfw. modern & roommate au!, teasing, zayne might be a little ooc, not proofread.

author’s note: AHHHH MY FIRST REQUEST!!! THANK U ANON U WILL FOREVER BE IN MY HEART! also im so sorry that this is SO LATE. college life is so busy omg. i also apologize if this is bad- i tried my best with this one i promise 😭

“how many times are you going to watch this movie?”

a smile appears on your face as you hear your roommate talk softly in your ear. you’re still looking down at your phone, stopped mid scroll on a random social media app. you shake your head at his words, your smile slowly turning into a smirk.

“as many times as i please, thank you very much.” you say sassily. you continue on with your scroll, even as zayne sits down on the couch next to you. as he sits, the couch screams with a squeak. he leans back in his seat, crossing his arms over his chest, staring deeply at the tv screen in front of the both of you.

you and zayne stay silent, the only noise surrounding the two of you are the characters talking through the tv speakers. you swiftly turn off your phone and place it on the arm rest of the couch before you glance over at your roommate. you notice how a strand of hair falls into his eyes under his rectangular glasses, the way his eyes squint at the bright tv screen in the dark living room, and his simple yet adorable outfit he has on. it just might be red and black plaid pajama pants and a plain black t shirt, but the sight still made your heart skip a beat. your eyes look down his beefy arms, tracing along all of the scars present on them. you wonder where he got those from.

zayne’s eyes suddenly drift over to you, but your head quickly snaps back in the direction of the tv. you hear a small chuckle leave his throat, and out of the corner of your eye, you notice that he does the same but in a more calm manner.

“seems like someone found a more interesting thing to look at,” zayne teases, looking at you in the corner of his eye. you huff.

“i’ve just never seen you in pajamas. it’s quite a sight to see.” you give him a cheeky smile, but zayne just rolls his eyes.

more silence passes between the two of you.

about 20 minutes later, still watching your beloved movie, you feel your eyes begin to feel heavy. somehow, zayne notices it.

“come here.” he says with his arm open. you look at him with a confused look, but he just responds with a wave with his hand. “i can tell you’re tired. i know you haven’t been sleeping quite well.”

your mouth opens to try and convince him that, no, that noise he heard at 2 am this morning wasn’t you! it was a mouse! but zayne shakes his head, and waves his hand toward him again. “you need sleep.” he says softly. with a sigh, you slowly scoot closer to him and gently plop your head on his chest. you feel zayne loosely wrap his scarred arm around your waist. much to your disappointment, it doesn’t take long for you to drift off into dream land.

but before you drift, you feel lips gently touch your temple, and a gentle “goodnight, love” gets whispered into your ear.

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(not) just roommates

synopsis: what it's like being their roommate

featuring: rafayel, zayne, and caleb

content: modern/university au. roommate au. sfw & slight nsfw (minors dni!!!), pre-established relationship, teasing, sexual tension (?), talk of masturbation, pillow humping, sub (?) raf, reader implied to be shorter than the boys, reader is so oblivious, boys being pervs (or creeps?) at times, being friend zoned, jealousy, boys being domestic, boys being hopelessly in love with reader. not proofread.

author’s note: oh em gee!!! i'm writing again!! yippee!! i also added something at the end that i've always wanted to try (hehe). let me know if u want a part 2 with sylus and xavier :)

rafayel

he is an art major (duh) and swims competitively.

if you don't come to watch him swim from time-to-time, he'll be the biggest menace.

he places cups, plates and bowls on the top shelf,

let's dirty dishes pile up until you're forced to do them,

leaves his dirty clothes scattered around the apartment,

and so much more. that's just a handful of things he does.

bro is so annoying...

he's very clingy (which is normal for him) and follows you around the apartment SO often.

if you're doing something when he's acting all clingy, he'll whine, pout, and sigh loudly to try and get your attention. if that doesn't work, he'll tug on your sleeve while giving you the biggest, shiniest, puppy dog eyes.

it obviously works on you. the feeling of pride that fills his chest when you do drop everything, you're doing in that moment is laughable. you'd definitely laugh at him.

actively steals your clothes & perfume. he puts one of your shirts on one of his pillows and sprays your perfume on it to make sure it always smells like you.

cuddles with said pillow, since he believes that you think of him as just a friend or roommate.

some nights, he humps the pillow like a dog in heat, whimpering your name out and asking for permission to cum, even though you're not there to grant him such a wish.

after he cums on your shirt, he attempts to get the stain out. he scrubs and scrubs, but the stain is never coming out. so, he keeps it. he keeps it on the pillow, he keeps spraying your scent on it, and he keeps cumming on it <3

even though he's annoying, he's kind-of sweet.

he leaves cute little notes around the apartment which you frequent the most (an example would be your bathroom) with little doodles of him as a chibi-like character. he would also sign it like he would for a painting.

you, of course, keep each one up until the stickiness of the post-it note wears out.

he knows exactly when to get groceries- and he ALWAYS gets the groceries. if you send him a text saying that you're going to the grocery store to pick up a few things, he gets mad.

definitely still has his pet fish, reddie. he also definitely baby talks to the fish, his pointer finger gently tapping the class to try and get the fish's attention.

though, he does this in private. he would NEVER talk to reddie like that if you were around to watch.

funnily enough, you did catch him doing it once.

"aww, you swim so prettily," rafayel murmurs, his purple eyes gazing lovingly at his beloved fish. as reddie swims around the way too large bowl for one fish, he traces his finger against the glass, almost in sync with the fish. a small, warm smile is plastered on his face, and his free hand is propping his head up on his cheek.

while staring at the beta fish swiftly swimming around his bowl, rafayel doesn't hear the door to his roommate's door open. his mind is too focused on the beautiful sight in front of him. oh, how much he wants to be like a fish. a mindless, pretty beta fish. no more adult responsibilities, no more boring gen-ed classes, no more friend zoning from the person he lives with-

"what're you doing?" his roommate says with amusement. a small yelp falls from his lips, his body jumping slightly from his roommate's sudden voice ringing in his ears. rafayel's head snaps around, the view of his face finally coming into y/n's point of view. his pretty eyes are wide as saucers, his lips are slightly agape, and there's a slight blush adorning his face. he's so embarrassed, in fact, that the blush reaches the tips of his ears.

rafayel realizes how he reacted right after he's done it unconsciously. his rigid body becomes more relaxed as he clears his throat. "nothing," he says, his teeth slightly clenched. "nothing that concerns you." y/n doesn't buy it. both of their eyebrows are raised and a huge, smug smile is on their lips. they cross their arms across their chest as they lean against the wall of the living room. a warm feeling runs through rafayel's body looking at their face. they just- look so attractive. rafayel's eyes fall from their form, too flustered to meet their gaze.

"i'm pretty sure i just saw you talking so cutely to your fish." they chuckle. rafayel opens his mouth, trying to deny what he was doing, but quickly shuts it. a sigh leaves his mouth, still avoiding his roommate's eyes.

"oh, you're never living this down."

he should've never gotten a roommate.

zayne

THE KINDEST AND PATIENT MAN

you forget about a ton of things (which zayne finds endearing) and he's the one who remembers for you.

"did you eat this morning? no? alright, let's get you a snack. ah, no, no more studying for now. you need to eat and you absolutely need a break."

"did you drink water today? an energy drink doesn't count. here, take my water bottle, i have another one in my bag."

on the months where you can't pay for rent, he pays for your half. he started doing this a few months into first living with you, when he found out that you have two jobs and you're still not able to pay for your half of the rent.

he liked you your company too much for you to leave and move back into your parents' house. you try your best to pay zayne back, but he always refuses. though, you pay him for half of the amount you're supposed to pay for rent, much to his disagreement.

makes sure that you get to class safely. is the type of guy to say, "let me know when you get there."

you appreciate him caring so much for you.

waits for you to come home to have dinner. only IF he comes home first.

since he's going to school to be a doctor, bro is so busy all of the time.

since he waits for you, you wait for him. it feels weird to not eat without him, you think. even if he comes home at 10 or 11 at night.

you both have movie nights and sometimes you bake together!! when you figured out that zayne loves treats, you wanted to bake him cookies for helping you with rent that month. and the other months.

he walked in on you making said cookies, and when you explained that they were for him, his brain shut down. his heart skipped a beat.

you're so cute.

he walked over and helped you with the rest of the steps you needed to do. he insisted that he would put the cookies in and out of the oven. (he didn't trust you).

ever since then, he makes you bake with him on the weekends when he's free.

barely shows his emotions. he's too scared to be vulnerable in front of you. when he has a nightmare, he keeps it to himself, even though the only thing he wants after he has a nightmare is to cuddle with you.

he doesn't though! he doesn't know if you would cuddle with him or not (you definitely would) so he keeps his hands to himself.

bro has so much restraint when wanting to touch you, it's crazy.

if only u knew what goes on in his mind....

loud clangs of pots and pans woke zayne up from his already rough sleep, the bags under his eyes multiplying even more than before. a deep sigh leaves his nostrils as he rubs the sleep out of his eyes. he slowly sits up as the loud clangs continue. the first thing that comes to his mind is his roommate, clumsily fumbling with the kitchenware in the cabinets. a small grin appears on his face, finding the imagery so cute.

zayne makes his way towards the kitchen of his shared apartment, finding what was happening in his mind to be what was truly happening. he sees his roommate bent down, their hands roughly going through each metal kitchen item. he leans against the counter of the kitchen, slightly admiring the sight. he tries his best to not look at their ass, but his gaze keeps getting drawn back to it.

he wonders what it's like to be right up against them, their ass right up against the crotch of his pajama pants. he wonders what their reaction would be if he just walked right up and did what he so desperately wanted to do- touch them. touch them everywhere. their face, their hair, their arms, their hands, their waist, their hips. the thought of it made his dick twitch in his pants.

suddenly, his said roommate stands up straight as they groan loudly. they place both of their hands on their back, trying to crack it desperately. "stupid kitchen," zayne hears them mumble. a chuckle leaves his lips and his roommate responds with a loud yelp. "oh my gosh!" they yell as they turn towards him, their hand placed flat on their chest where their heart lies beneath.

zayne smiles apologetically. "sorry, didn't mean to scare you." he says softly. he pushes himself off the wall he was leaning on and makes his way to his roommate. "what're you doing anyway?" zayne's head tilts to the side slightly, his eyes never moving away from his roommate's eyes. his heart flutters as he watches them look away and they begin to fidget with the bottom of their pajama shirt.

"just wanted to make breakfast for us." they say nervously. their eyes drift back to zayne's for a moment, then looks down at their sock covered feet.

zayne hums in response, nodding along to what they said. he's never had cute aggression before, but after he met them, all he wants to do his shake them violently. zayne gives his roommate a small smile. "i can help, if you'd like." his deep, calming voice rings out, making his roommate look up at him with glee.

"that would be great! thank you, zayne!"

they're so cute.

caleb

unlike rafayel and zayne, you've already met caleb before you two became roommates.

similar to the canon story, caleb was your childhood best friend, and lived with you and your grandma.

though, once you went to college and moved out, your communication with caleb slowly deteriorated. not anyone's fault though, you two were just busy.

in senior year of college, you decided to finally live off of campus. surprisingly, you found an apartment close to your college's campus. but, there was already a person living in it.

it was too much of a great opportunity to pass up though.

who could've thought that your roommate would be your old childhood best friend?

you realized how much caleb never changed - still the teasing, protective guy you knew back then. however, he was more possessive.

when you wanted to go out with your friends, caleb always stopped you before you went out. he made sure the outfit you were wearing wasn't showing too much skin, and made sure that you should contact him if you needed anything.

you didn't pay any mind to it, though you should've. the more you ignored his outfit checks, the more intense his actions became.

locking you in the apartment or your room so you could stay home with him, hiding away the keys so again, you wouldn't leave, and he even sneaks into your room to make sure you're sleeping. you only know this because you caught him one time.

even though his new side of his personality is showing, you still enjoy his company. he is your childhood best friend, of course you enjoy his company!

though, he sucks at cleaning right after making a mess.

i headcanon that caleb LOVES legos, so sometimes you find small lego pieces around the house after he's done building one on the kitchen counter.

you yelled at him once because you stepped on a lego piece one time, which caused you to lose balance and fall on your face. for weeks bruises were scattered around your legs from how hard you fell.

caleb is barely in his room. the only time he's in his room is to sleep and change. that's it.

so, he usually hangs out in the living room, if he is home.

he's a very quiet roommate. you barely know when he's home and when he's not home. you have to text him to make sure where he is.

you figured that out through the hard one, when you walked out in only your underwear.

caleb sits comfortably on the couch in the living room with one of his legs crossed over the other. one of his arms is laying on the top of the couch, while the other scrolls through social media on his phone. he sighs deeply, feeling extremely bored. that's when he shuts off his phone, throws it gently next to him on the couch, and tilts his head back with his eyes closed. he thinks deeply about what he's going to do later in the day; maybe he can go grocery shopping? maybe he can continue building that one lego set his roommate got him for christmas...

a loud, squeaky door kicks him out of his thoughts. he hears his roommate softly walk across the wooden floor, their footsteps becoming louder as they reach the space between the living room and the kitchen. caleb opens his eyes, but doesn't lift his head off the back of the couch. when his gaze drifts to their form, his heart almost stops.

in front of him was a beautiful sight- his pretty little roommate dressed in nothing but a large t-shirt and underwear. his breath catches in his throat when he sees their shirt ride up as they desperately try to grab a glass from the cabinet, showing more of their soft looking skin. a shaky sigh leaves his lips as his eyes wander down to their ass, only covered by a thin layer of their underwear. he could feel the blood rush down to his dick, twitchy slightly as he continues to stare. a corner of his lips rises when he hears his beloved roommate sigh in frustration, a soft, quiet chuckle following after. he quickly stands up from the couch and makes his way toward the kitchen to try and help them.

what would they do without him?

"i can help, pip-squeak," caleb says lowly as he stands right behind them. he chuckles again when he hears them yelp, almost jumping into the air out of fear. their head snaps around and meets his eyes. the smirk doesn't fall from his face when he sees their pouting face.

"christ, caleb!" they exclaim as they turn back around, their back facing caleb, to continue their attempts at retrieving a cup. "i had no idea you were home..." they grumble. caleb's grin widens at their flustered state, seeing how they begin to squirm in place. he approaches them while maintaining eye contact.

caleb places his large hand on their waist and squeezes it lightly. "here, love, i can get it for you," he whispers into their ear. as he speaks, his free hand reaches up and effortlessly grabs a cup and placing it on the counter in front of them. an amused hum leaves his throat as he hears them swallow thickly, almost making a comedic 'gulp' sound. caleb's hand slides down their waist and stops at their hips, only squeezing it once before backing away.

he watches as his roommate turns to him, their eyes as wide as saucers. he just laughs.

"i don't get a 'thank you'?"

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In regards of the Trump government scraping all trans inclusion in its queer information portion of its websites I have made this thing. Spread the word. Don't let them pretend we never existed.

P.S: Don't like! Reblog! <3

EDIT: Well this got a lot of attention! I got a few users asking to print or repost my art and I am unimaginably grateful to everyone's interest, especially since it's a really simple drawing I made on a whim haha! Anyone who is looking to print these out to hang or hand out or repost on another platform is free to do so, although I ask you to credit me and let people know it's from my Tumblr profile! If anyone wishes to do anything else with my art or post and wants to clarify what I consent to then they can message me privately and I'll explain! <333 all my love to my queer siblings

EDIT: I made an LGBTQIA+ version with a focus on trans and intersex folks, it's on my pinned if you prefer this version of the acronym.

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Art date

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No one wants to leave the country they grew up in, but news like this shows how difficult it is to live in Gaza with homes, schools and hospitals destroyed.

So I hope you can help me evacuate my family from Gaza so that my father can get treatment abroad. I beg everyone who sees this to either donate or participate so that we can get out of this nightmare.

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Lol I dont use tumblr much

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The doodle is done. SOL for the soulmates!

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in hiding

synopsis: he finds you crying and comforts you.

featuring: dan heng & aventurine (seperate)

content: sfw. comfort, pre-established relationship, dan heng has feelings for reader, tiny bit of flirting/compliments from aventurine, aventurine is kinda awkward, social anxiety (aventurine), anxiety attack (aventurine), reader’s gender isn’t specified, not proofread.

author's note: this is super self-indulgent lol. also this is the first time i’ve ever written these characters, so i apologize if they seem ooc! this also has been buried deep within my drafts- i finished this MONTHS ago….i felt too nervous to post it 😭 anywho, enjoy!

dan heng

you're another member of the astral express crew.

you've known dan heng enough to get the gist of his distant personality, even though you find him slightly intimidating.

you still managed to develop a crush on the guy, so he can't be that intimidating.

anyway, dan heng was tasked to go and 'fetch' you (pom pom's words) so all of you could eat dinner.

you’re usually in ‘his’ room, reading a book on his makeshift bed. when he enters said room and doesn’t see you, he grows a little worried.

in fact, now that he thinks about it, he hasn’t seen you in days. now, he’s really worried.

the only other place that you'd be is in your room.

when he finds you in your room, his heart sinks.

intensely worried about you the moment he realizes you're crying.

type of guy to immediately jump into action. he's not aggressive about it, no, he's gentle.

softly sits beside you where you're on your bed, his hand reaching out to touch you while asking to do so.

if you say no, he obviously listens to your wishes. would not want to harm you or make you uncomfortable while you're in this state.

he sits there, watching you cry in silence. it's a little awkward, having him watch you cry, but he doesn't know what else to do. he doesn't want to ruin anything.

he says a few things to try and calm your crying down.

"let it all out."

"it's okay, you're safe."

"i'm here for you."

if you say yes, his hand comes up to rub your back gently, making you scoot closer to him. also says comforting words in this moment as well.

after you're done crying, he listens intently if you start to talk about what is bothering you.

man's just wants you to feel better.

"i'm sorry," you mumble, wiping your snot with the back of your hand. you don't see it, but dan heng shakes his head while he smiles softly at you.

"no need to apologize." his deep, monotone voice instantly calms your nerves. "crying can be helpful to some. don't worry about it." he places a hand on your head, ruffling your hair ever so slightly. you sigh, then sniffle. even though he said it was okay, you still feel a little ashamed at yourself. you almost feel embarrassed. you sort-of know what you look like while crying, and you know it isn't pretty. your heart soars with discomfort as you realize that dan heng has witnessed you at one of your lowest moments in life.

"gosh, i probably look like a mess right now." you croak out, a dry laugh following short after. you try to wipe the dried tears off your cheeks but to no avail. you'll have to wash it off with some cold water later. you hear dan heng hum, which catches your attention. your eyes look into dan heng's. you notice how dan heng's blue eyes soften at your stare.

dan heng's hand reaches out to a strand of hair that's in the way of your face, pulling it back behind your ear. you feel your face heat up, and your heart skips a beat at the intimate eye contact. you notice how dan heng’s face is in a similar predicament to yours; a light pink blush covers his cheeks and the tips of his ears.

"you don't," he whispers. "you're beautiful."

aventurine

guy doesn't know how to comfort other people.

type of person to let the person cry it out by themself, then come back later with gifts.

i've seen a headcanon where aventurine is bad at comforting other people due to his past trauma and i truly believe it.

aventurine can rarely take stuff seriously, what makes you think he can comfort someone?

anywho. he finds you curled up into a ball in an alleyway in penacony. he heard the sobs come from a mile away and was curious at what the sound was.

he honestly thought it was a stray cat.

he's seen you around before. yeah, he remembers! you walked up to him at the bar and complimented his outfit, telling him he looked like a peacock.

he thought that it was very cute when you blushed, explaining you didn't mean to say that outloud and kept apologizing.

but now here you are, sitting on the gross ground of the alleyway with your chin propped up on your knees, crying your eyes out.

aventurine bites his lip, trying to figure out if he wants to help you or just leave you alone.

but that's when you placed your hand flat on your chest, and he noticed how you began to breathe heavily.

he knows exactly what's happening, and he can't leave you alone now.

"hey, breathe. you need to breathe."

you hear a somewhat familiar voice call out to you, but it seems so far away. you don't understand what he says and try to brush it off. though, he doesn't go away. his legs are in your line of sight, and he doesn't seem to be moving. you watch as he crouches down, his hands shakily reach towards yours.

"i'm gonna touch you, okay?" he gulps, almost flinching at the skin-to-skin contact. you don't answer, you just continue to hyperventilate as your wide eyes dart across the environment around you. the man seems to notice this and blocks your field of vision with his face.

"y-you- you're-" you try to get out, but all you can manage is a few hiccupped mumbles. the man in front of you smiles.

"hi again." you can clearly hear his smooth voice now. "can you take a deep breath for me? i'll do it with you." you nod, looking into his multi-colored eyes. they're so pretty.

you follow his actions- breathe in for 4 seconds, pause for 4 seconds, breathe out for 4 seconds. you both repeat this a few more times until your breath doesn't sound choppy or uneven.

silence overcomes the two of you. your eyes glance down at your intertwined hands, then back up at the man in front of you. suddenly realizing he's still holding your hands; he quickly drops them from his grasp while clearing his throat.

"you alright?" he says softly. his eyes glance down at your body, trying to see if you're hurt anywhere. your words interrupt him.

"no, i'm fine now," you sniffle. "thank you, um.." you pause, waiting for the man to give you his name.

"aventurine. it's no problem." aventurine shrugs. he stands up quickly, holding a hand out for you to take. "now, can i get you a drink? you must be dehydrated." his gloved fingers wiggle slightly, encouraging you to take his hand.

he grins down at you, "you can also tell me why you were sobbing in the alleyway." you chuckle at his words.

without another thought, you take aventurine's hand.

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