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Ten years in the Lighthouse

The idea of Solas living all alone in the Lighthouse for ten years is really viscerally upsetting for me.

Ten years is a long time. (We know, because that's how long we had to wait for this story to be resolved!). He ate alone at that long table every night for ten years. He went to bed alone in a little corner of his office every night for ten years. He spent ten years worth of unhappy evenings in his music room, playing virtuosic sonatas and drinking alone.

In that time, apart from the events of Trespasser, he never had a conversation with a single (embodied) person who liked him or cared about him.

He repainted his Inquisition murals because he missed his friends. He went personally to that meeting in the Tevinter Nights short story because he just wanted to see someone who knew him; someone who would call him Solas. And when it really became too unbearable, he visited Lavellan's dreams. He knew he shouldn't, he knew it was wrong, but the loneliness was dragging him under and he was afraid to lose himself in that vast darkness.

His greatest fear is dying alone, and yet that's exactly what he was doing. Inch by painful inch, he was killing what remained of Solas, replacing him with the Dread Wolf.

No wonder he sobs when Lavellan kneels to tell him she loves him. It's a decade since anyone has been kind to him; he's not just touch-starved, he's starved of connection of any kind. He clutches at his heart because she is his heart, and after ten years of existing without really living he finally has a chance to be whole again.

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if you're on instagram get off that thing and go outside

if you're on tumblr hold fast and keep scrolling soldier

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sorry if this is controversial but if you’re rude to cashiers i think you should. idk. Explode

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for april fools we’re deleting this entire site sayonara you weeaboo shits

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Solas trying to look cool and casual, standing by himself leaning against the statue, the crossed legs and whatever the fuck that hat is 😭

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“YOU KNOW WHAT SOLAS DICK LOOKS LIKE?”

Solas is, in fact, packing heat. 

He must have painful erections as his pants are, as geeky-jez put it, “one step away from cutting off his circulation”. 

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Provoke the blade and suffer its sting 🗡️

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This is a set of illustrations inspired by Liam O'Brien’s round of Narrative Telephone featuring Caleb Widogast recounting an old Empire fable. 

–also did a bonus version of the same academy room setting, but where Jester fixes the end of the story, while the rest of the Chaos Crew assists as lookouts. :p

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Astarion.

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Commission for Vaneschka on twitter.

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imagine ur emotional support morally ambiguous misunderstood full of trauma touch starved yearning for love drenched in blood responsible for numerous atrocities comfort character in a cozy knitted sweater. do u feel better?

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insane item for a game that doesn't mention the tranquil to have btw

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Friends described living under the Trump Administration as being slowly beaten to death by a rubber chicken.

It still hurts. It's still painful. But you keep hearing a synthetic BAWWW every time it hits you as a constant reminder of how it's the stupidest possible way to die.