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It’s weird that we keep trying to armchair diagnose asshole behaviour with mental health labels and in doing so throw people with mental health conditions under the asshole bus when we could just call a guy an asshole and leave it at that

It just seems far more straightforward, you know

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maybe it's not the gender you're jealous of. maybe you just want to feel as confident at being yourself as she does.

Fine. Maybe I’m jealous that Father found her at such a young age and gave her a home. Maybe I’m jealous that she’s had a chance to recovery while I’m still trapped in that place mentally.

…. And maybe all this jealousy is proof that I deserve what happened to me. Because I can’t even support my baby sister.

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Um. Hi. I— I know this isn’t A, but I was hoping you could pass on a— a message? If it isn’t too much trouble—

I just— wanted to say that— that I hope she takes better care of herself. Unless someone over there knows, um— ghost cultivation, then you can only live once. Even then, being alive has lots and lots of things that I miss. Um. Sorry if this is too much.

-Wen Ning [@wolf-look-at-chicken]

Thank you for your concern. Honestly, I used to think that not liking your body or taking care of it was normal, but... then again. Transgender. Turns out, mirrors aren't supposed to feel uncomfortable? Interacting with humans... I mean, it's never going to be easy, but it got so much easier. I didn't realize how much being misgendered made me dread the idea of going outside in the city.

I don't know if transitioning would help my oldest sibling, and I'm not going to push the matter. Knowing her, she's got a dozen reasons tangled up for why she can't, and she can't articulate the first one right now.

She's been cuddling with Mom most of today. I'll tell her you said to take care.

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Hm. I have to say, I'm not particularly impressed by you.

How do I join team plasma? Will I get a cool hat?

There are loyal Plasma members stationed in all major cities, please speak with them about the registration process. You will be provided a uniform, which I suppose includes somewhat of a 'cool hat'.

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Right.

She... hasn't always been my sister. I mean I was adopted at a young age, so my birth parents are just a faded memory. But she was almost an adult by the time she came to live here. So we're still trying to figure out how to make her comfortable. Thank you.

....hey, uh. Please slow down, I think you gave my sister another panic attack.

I get that you're trying to help, and I really do appreciate it. But she's not very good at processing shocks like this. If you have any advice for how I could help her, I'd be willing to hear you out.

~N, of @ghet-it-sis

agh. yeah, sorry about that, it's— long story not relevant i have issues with being reflexively intense and off-putting.

basic bitch answer is be there for her. be patient with her when she messes up and do your best to assure her it's not the end of the world and it's just, like, A Thing That Happens. and be... polite but firm that she needs to respect her physical and mental health and safety. her art isn't worth burns and burning out and most people aren't going to be pleased that she's doing that to herself for the sake of her art no matter how good they think it is.

and, uh. maybe don't do what i did and spontaneously impress upon her the fragility of being an abled person and the fact that disabilities can and will happen and severely affect your standard of living. like, that's an important lesson to learn but. be more careful than i am about it.

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There's a LOT of trans options that being said. Even just "not that" while vaguely pointing at your AGAB.

I AM A NORMAL CISGENDER GIRL.

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Well, yeah, Father gets really weird when I bring that up, so I stopped doing it after a while. Still feels like death to fail even on accident.

i think for your own mental health you need to learn how to flunk things and flake out and be a disappointment

I would literally rather die.

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i think for your own mental health you need to learn how to flunk things and flake out and be a disappointment

I would literally rather die.

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make art for yourself. screw anyone else, make something YOU'LL be happy with.

I don't know who "I" am outside of the reflections I see in the eyes of others. Is that so wrong?

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...I thought you were still helping them with that fundraising event tonight. I was going to delete the post before you got back.

It's. I don't know how. To make art in the way you want me to. To do it for the "right" reasons. To do it the right way. It's easier to keep going like I always have until I crash and burn and try again.

ma'am(?) results are and always should be secondary to your health, physical and mental

I wouldn't know how. It's never been that way for me. It never will be. Sure, I have better supplies now, but there's also this... expectation. That I have to be good. I have to meet it, don't I?

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Sweetheart, did you think I was doing all this out of an expectation? It's not about the fame, it's about the community. I wanted you to have an outlet to express yourself. You never wanted to talk about your feelings, or anything at all, and then suddenly you had a paintbrush one day and you were making progress. You made things that were dark and strange and you talked about what they meant.

You don't have to get invited to galleries. You don't need any awards. All I ever wanted was for you to have an outlet, I promise. And I'm sorry if I haven't said this properly before.

ma'am(?) results are and always should be secondary to your health, physical and mental

I wouldn't know how. It's never been that way for me. It never will be. Sure, I have better supplies now, but there's also this... expectation. That I have to be good. I have to meet it, don't I?

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ma'am(?) results are and always should be secondary to your health, physical and mental

I wouldn't know how. It's never been that way for me. It never will be. Sure, I have better supplies now, but there's also this... expectation. That I have to be good. I have to meet it, don't I?

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Get proper equipment then. Arcdamn

i do. okay? every time i do something concerning, father upgrades my studio. you know he bought me a collection of books on safety?

I just don't always feel like doing it.

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girl (?) no needing to suffer for your art is a myth invented by people who want to sensationalize artists

Clearly someone has never worked with polyester resin. It gets you way better results than the epoxy stuff.

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I've come to announce that my baby sister is a horrible horrible traitor and Father's forcing me to install a station for taking care of chemical burns in my studio.

...It's not that bad. It's just part of making art. You have to suffer for it, right? I'm not the vain sort of girl anyways.

Father’s back from his trip— he was out at a conference learning about some new thermoplastic. Pretty sure A is getting chewed out badly for how many times she’s hurt herself for her art.

Which is to say, Father’s trying not to cry and is just fussing harder over her. I think it’s normal for children to be scolded, but we were never normal children. Maybe my sisters were, once upon a time. But never me.

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Father’s back from his trip— he was out at a conference learning about some new thermoplastic. Pretty sure A is getting chewed out badly for how many times she’s hurt herself for her art.

Which is to say, Father’s trying not to cry and is just fussing harder over her. I think it’s normal for children to be scolded, but we were never normal children. Maybe my sisters were, once upon a time. But never me.

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Hey.

I promise I’m not angry, and I promise I won’t yell. I know that you’re all of age and can take care of yourselves. But this…doesn’t sound normal, sweetheart.

Not my thing personally, but, yeah, I definitely agree working on art like that is definitely pretty healthy way of dealing with it overall. Glad it works for you, and I'll bet there's definitely some who'd love to hear about the specifics of your process behind the piece.

It's not healthy when she keeps getting chemical burns.