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Never fall asleep with an ice cream cone on the bus

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Submitted by: slayingxorangexjuice

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Submitted by: katatonicstate

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the pizza guy’s confusion makes this video so brilliant

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Doesn't Timothy Dolan's ash resemble the shape of a person?

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My (Probably Less Than 366 Days Because I'm a Lazy Ass) Project Entry # 2: The middle term of a math expression, to represent the fact that I'm studying for midterms. Boring picture for a boring task.

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My (Probably Less Than 366 Days Because I'm a Lazy Ass) Project Entry #1: The scarf I used to cover myself, after ripping my pants in improv class.

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You know how it feels when you have 4 research papers due in 2 days? And you basically want to kill anybody who breathes around you? Applying to college adds about 5 more papers to that mix. However, on the good side, I'd cut down the killing by about 10%, because now I really just care about killing the people who are better than me.

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Remember to Travel with a Voltage Converter!

So I'm in Germany now on vacation. The outlets here are different than in the US...and I guess the voltages are too. Since it was brutally hot today, I get my little adapter and plug in my fan. I turn on the fan, then after a minute I start smelling something like play-doh. After about another minute, I start to smell some tuna and sour cream along with the play-doh. Then one popcorn kernel popped and I saw a bolt of lightning. Then the fan magically turned off and magically wont turn on again. Next time, I guess I should (read the title) =D.

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Perfected Non-Perfection

Now

Where do I start?

I even sit here now

Having trouble saying exactly what I have on my mind on a daily basis.

So how do I make this work?

I know I have all this stuff inside me

Words, thoughts, feelings, points.

But both finishing something, and doing it to my standards of perfection is not easy.

Especially while having anxiety about many facets of life all at once,

And about things that are not in any way related to what I have to be doing at the moment.

It seems like my goal preventing me from accomplishing the goal itself.

Usually, when I Google search “easy way out” in my mind,

The first result that comes up is always to say “fuck this shit” and retreat to bed

But it’s not an easy way out.

It's not easy lying in my room, watching Full House and eating spaghetti.

It's not easy sitting on the computer all night,

Waiting to find out that someone likes my Facebook status,

Or to beat my high score in solitaire.

And I don't know if I can handle watching Elaine getting yelled at by the Soup Nazi one more time,

While the inside of me feels all derailed.

Just feeling the need to escape from all my troubles

Physically or mentally,

Temporarily or permanently.

Like I know, I know,

It’s simple

“Just do it”

I know that I can,

But no,

It’s not simple.

Because if I don’t take my time to do this well

Then why am I doing it?

It would just be wasting my time.

If I know my abilities,

Then why should I sell myself short and just do it for the grade or someone else's satisfaction,

And not express my capabilities?

It's like as if I were MacBook Pro

Running at the capacity of a netbook.

I don't want to project myself as a slacker, or someone who doesn't care.

It may be easy for somebody to think I don't care by just seeing me on the outside.

Honestly, I don't know if I give a shit about all the topics I learn

And I don't know if I give a shit about the characters of the Latin script that appear on my report card.

But I will tell you something I do give a shit about.

I give a shit about how I project myself to the world

Accurately, honestly, and uncensored.

So, here I have just that.

A somewhat perfected version of my non-perfect mind rambling.

And I if I see this homework assignment in the grade book with points taken off,

I will know for sure that that number of points subtracted from 25 will not be because it’s late.

(this was a homework assignment, that actually ended up getting 25/25 =])