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Would you let a sensitive white boy into your house?

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seeing some people on tdor posting "mourn for the dead fight like hell for the living" while the rest of the year they say the most whorephobic shit and don't do anything to actually make our community safe for sex workers makes me want to scream. at least half of trans people murdered this year were sex workers. every trans sex worker i know has people that we've lost and seeing how people show up to mourn our deaths but refuse to support us while we're alive is maddening.

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ah, an opponent arrives... [draws my sword and turns around] hm. your footsteps made you sound taller... [sheathes my sword and draws a second, smaller sword]

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Me reaching what looks suspiciously to be the end of my rope: oobh i got plany off rope

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oh man i love reading patch notes

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john marston redraw of some doodle i made a year ago

old art below cut

i made him greasier lol

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ahehehehe!! Weeeeeeeeee!!! ^w^ *holding your hand and skipping with you as we are hunted for sport*

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Tumblr's algorithm has decided that I occupy the intersection of a very specific Venn diagram.

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something that should be taken with a grain of salt are the statistics talking about the high rates of mental illness + neurodivergence among trans people (ocd, bpd, adhd, autism, etc)

I see both sides of the political spectrum taking these studies at face value - conservatives say we're broken, and trans people try to come up with reasons why for example autism + gender dysphoria makes sense and why one of them feeds into another

at the end of the day you have to remember that we're the one category of people on this planet who are legally required to go see a psychiatrist in order to receive non-psychiatric medication and surgeries.

more trans people are in therapy by law than any other demographic of people, and as a result, this captures more comorbidities.

if I had to look at my own family & rates of mental illness?

mom, dad, 2 maternal aunts, maternal grandmother, paternal grandmother, sister, sibling, and me all have OCD.

7/9 of them are cishet, never been to therapy, never diagnosed. 2/9 are trans, required therapy for hormone treatment, and were diagnosed.

you don't have to do any math to just see that the resulting statistics end up intensely skewed.

and we can think back to how autism was virtually never diagnosed more than 50 years ago - ruling out any grandparents being included in statistics - and even my parents' generation (they're in their 60s now) wouldn't have been included either.

I don't think it's to anyone's benefit to accept these studies uncritically. a lot of these things are hereditary and far more prevalent in the overall population than people realize

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Anon making bold assumptions about OP’s career

Not you thinking you are better than industry-hired people with your goofy a$$ art-style. You said you wanted to be a creature designer? Good luck with your cartoon dinosaurs. You are not qualified to criticize designs in published works when nothing you are making is any better. Try working on your own art, especially realism, first.

nah

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IM LOSING MY MIND?? WHERE DID THE BREAD COME FROM. WHY IS IT SIDEWAYS. WHAT IS HAPPENING

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I think in the same way there's a 90/10 rule with horror and comedy (horror works best when it's 90% horror and 10% comedy and vice versa) there's a 90/10 rule for some relationships in fiction that's like. Wholesome and fucked up. A good friendship is at its most compelling when it's also 10% a bit fucked up. Fucked up relationship is at its most compelling when there's at least 10% of something actually sweet and substantive within. Do you get me

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to you, person who is thinking about "maybe i should get a cane" and having imposter syndrome about whether you are "really disabled enough"

if you do not work on your imposter syndrome now, you will have the same imposter syndrome when you are half paralyzed, at 9/10 pain, stuck in bed, and unable to swallow or speak.

the imposter syndrome won't go away on its own once you reach a certain level of disability.

imposter syndrome is something to work on whenever it starts to rear its ugly head. because no matter how disabled you are, you can still feel it. you will still doubt yourself.

don't wait to "get worse" and assume that you'll start to magically care about yourself or value yourself when you reach some externally or internally imposed definition of "disabled enough."

"disabled enough" is not an objective experience. you have to believe yourself to be "disabled enough" to deserve help, to deserve care, to deserve assistive tech or acommodations or any kind of help you need, wherever you are now.

waiting for "disabled enough" will not be enough to save.you from self hatred and self neglect. you have to respect yourself regardless

this is ok to reblog

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hundreds of beavers is free on youtube even as we speak

you will not regret spending two hours watching hundreds of beavers

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every time i see someone call kirk and spock the oldest ship, i'm filled with the urge to go "hmm actually the holmes and watson girlies have been here for a hundred years now", and i refrain because i know the natural conclusion of this game is gilgamesh and enkidu