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i like this so guy so much it hurts...threw all my self respect and elephant sized ego down the drain yesterday

[gay-saster]

One of the most dangerous things in the world is not being able to say no to people because you don't want to upset them or dissapoint them. This will completely ruin your life in every way possible, at work, in your private life, your sex life and your friendships. It's a way of removing your own consent in your own decisions and go against your wishes, it is always a crime against yourself. Let yourself have a say. Upsetting people is better than traumatizing yourself.

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If you want to date me you have to defeat my 7 evil attempts to push you away and sabotage the relationship

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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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i think the reason i love studio ghibli as much as i do is because it encompasses everything i love about life. wearing clothes that make you feel young and free that you can run and jump and climb trees in. the sense of peace that only comes from sitting on a train watching scenes move by the in windows, walking through the city at night, reading on a bench. the way there is so much grief and pain and hardship in each movie, and the world being torn apart but in spite of that, there is wholesomeness and warmth in bowls of noodles and dinner with your family and singing loudly without worrying about what your voice sounds like, and if you love someone enough it doesn’t matter that the world is falling apart around you. it’s about romanticising the little things in life, the hot mug of tea, that moment in the streetlight in the rain, the sunrise looking pretty through your little window; and it’s about the quiet, soft, warm moments you share with other people through those. those the things i cling onto in life, the small moments of joy that make life worth living.

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hands and everything they hold

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nothing fills you with greater false confidence than managing to wake up early once

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leave me alone!!!

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I love toxic romance as much as the next bitch but tbh it can't hold a candle to toxic sibling relationships where there's rage, yes, and maybe even hate, but love too, and you can't escape it and you can't embrace it so what's left? No one will ever know you like they know you, and no one will ever be able to hurt you like they can. This hole in your side and you can either stand by them even though what they've become turns your stomach or you can try to leave them behind but it doesn't matter how far you run because they'll always be your sibling. They'll always have a piece of you. You were born knowing them.

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i actually dont mind tumblr posts reposted to pinterest. the 13 y/o "pinterest in the only social media my parents let me have" girlies deserve a little treat

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idk idk i just randomly got really sad

something something like

no one is going to love me like my parents do in the way that no matter how much i mess up they will still love me because thats the way the world works. no matter where i am in the world my mother will be thinking of me and loving me bc thats what mothers do and that kind of makes me sad. my mother will love me till the day we both die but not in the way i will ask her to and she will never understand me. every other love may not be conditional but it is proximinal and the less time i spend near them the more out of love they will fall.

i am a different person around my parents than i am around everyone else. i am whiny i am annoying i am a child. i am this way bc i know no matter how annoying i get they will still love me. im not sure i quite like who i am. but im not sure i always like who they are either

my family will never understand me. my friends at college will never touch me. no one will understand me like my childhood best friends. but thats all gone now. i think i grieved heavily when i turned 20 not bc i wasnt a teen anymore and ppl expected things of me now but because i knew that my childhood was over. i said goodbye to the friends from my childhood and they took my childhood with them. i left a different me in my hometown. a better me a more real me. i said goodbye before i was ready. i dont think i will ever be ready.

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saw this on twitter rn, if you ever feel discouraged about writing fanfiction, read this again

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obsessed where stories where it is like. the mistakes are unfixable and the worst thing that could happen happened and nothing can go back to how it was. but there was still love in this and love will continue after this and love endures always.