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contemplating posting my face on here … 😭 🎀

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Maybe with enough people telling you are beautiful you will believe them? You don't need to cut yourself to make yourself pretty <3 you already are.

I appreciate it, but im not ready to recover yet:(<3

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repost if ur an active ED or SH blog in november 2024 :3

active again on this blog bc of relapse, prob will be for awhile. most of my moots aren’t active anymore, soooo if ur an active ED or SH blog in november 2024 plsss repost so i can follow u

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thank you to this very kind stranger. ❤️

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i completely understand why girls dont like it when they get unsolicited meanspo in their DMs. Even though it stabs me in the heart i use it as fuel. I need it.

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Sorry guys i burped! -delusional me

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I WILL NOT EAT TOMORROW.

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FAKE BLOOD!!!

post-sh tissue. <3

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hey, i’m 18 so I wont post this with my profile, but i just wanted to say u seem like ur trying your best and i hope you know this stranger is proud of u xx

ur rlly pretty also :)

have a wonderful day !! ✨✨

awwww thank you so much whoever this is!!!💕

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i should just kms if i cant starve correctly and im too lazy to cut. All of those nasty dms and messages were right. Maybe i should stop just blocking them and listen

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i looked in my front camera and saw this. Why am i so fat? I deserved to be insulted and made fun of. Im disgusting.

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to all of my girlies who were victim to the “ill start tomorrow” loop

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SFX MAKEUP! BLOCK DONT REPORT 💜

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guys i am deink rn lowkey

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i fucking hate you dad i hope you slit your fucking wrists and weep and weep in pain and kill yourself over the fact youre still living with your parents at fucking 40, youre a middle school dropout, unemployed, and fucking ugly. I hope you fucking kill yourself slowly and painfully and i hope you get fucking raped by 100 men in prison and get your asshole stretched you little fucking twat FUCK YOU BITCH IM SO FUCKING EMBARRASSED I SHARE DNA WITH YOU I HOPE YOU GET FUCKING TORTURED

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decided to write out my life story because i felt like it was time to. HERE ARE SOME MAJOR TW’S: father-daughter 1nceśt, SA, animal abvse, hypers3xuality, svicidal ideation, drug mention

Okay, here we go. I havent told the full story with details to anyone i know in real life before. Nobody on here actually knows who i am, so i feel safe enough to just spill here. Keep in mind i havent let these instances details truly leave my mind. 

My father, lets call him Jace, my fraternal grandmother, Betty. The reason i give these family members actual names instead of calling them dad/grandma is because i do not consider them family.  Now, lets begin with some context. Jace and my mother had me when my mom was 15 and he was almost 30. My mom thought he was cool because Jace and my fraternal aunt would buy her marijuana and alcohol, hence them getting closer, him grooming her, then she became pregnant, and had me. Betty had already not liked me from the moment i was born, because my mother had absent parents and was living with Jace, putting alot more on Betty’s plate. This house was old, build by my fraternal family ancestors in the 1800’s. The house was 2 bedrooms with a small living room and garage accessible from the dining room, which was next to the living room. Im bad at explaining it, but its just a very small house. With a newborn baby and a teenage girl, we were not suitable to be living there. Betty loved having cats and dogs, but didnt care for them properly, making the house reek like cat/dog urine. The carpet in the living room was a whole darker shade because of how much urine stains that were embedded into the carpet, and on top of that, in the hallway going to Jace’s room, we had a VERY old cat that could not walk. He had a spot at the very end of the hallway that he liked to sit, and eventually Jace got too lazy to carry him outside so he urinated and pooped in that spot, and it smelt 10x worse if it hadnt smelt like death already. We had six cats (including the old one) that were always vomiting all over the house. We had two dogs, a sheep herd dog and a small chihuahua. The sheep herd dog had SEVERE fleas and would constantly rip its flesh open damn near to the bone trying to itch. Our dog was constantly limping around the house yelping so loud it almost sounded human, leaving droplets of blood sometimes. The chihuahua got fleas from the sheep herd dog, and she was one of those chihuahuas that had bulging eyes that pees everywhere when they get too excited. Her fur was severely matted and there was clumps of her blonde fur everywhere. Once i was older, and my mom had her own house and had my siblings, the fleas seriously got bad because the sheep herd dog got older and had gotten more infected. The fleas began nipping on my flesh too. Id come home from Jace’s house with open sores on my legs, arms, and stomach. 

(These next details were told to me by certified court documentation and notes taken by cops/detectives and my mom, relayed back to me.)

My mothers house was clean and pristine, a “normal” house for children. My mom was livid i was in these living conditions but couldnt do anything about it, because my family would lie to the court that i hated my mom, even going as far as to say that i was so terrified of my mom that i called my aunt “mommy” instead because i “wanted her to be my mommy instead”. When i turned about four or five, i came home to my mom one day, and i causally told her something that would change everything indefinitely. “Dad touches me, and he says i cant tell anyone because the cops will come, and it tickles.” See, i had thought this was normal for a mom and dad to do. I thought it wouldve been okay, assuming that my mom wouldnt think anything of it. Clearly, my mom knew what was going on, and god did she flip out. She called the police, and filed a report. Cops came to the house to interview me. The only memory i have of them coming to my house was when the cop sat on the couch, i was showing him my sparkly purple Leapfrog tablet. I was so oblivious. After what my mom said was two hours of asking me questions, he had asked me the color of Jace’s penis, and i told him without hesitation. The cop asked where he touched me, i told him without hesitation. Then the cop asked, “do you know the difference between good and bad? Can you tell me what a good thing to do is, and what a bad thing to do is?” Obviously i was fucking four. The question was far to complex. So, the cop took his stupid fucking clipboard, and left. I did 3 pap smears and all three showed severe vaginal tearing, which the doctors and court said that children like to “play with themselves” and i couldve easily done it myself. They gave me and my mother a one month restraining order, and that was that. 

Fast foward to about when i was 8-10, i was going to my dads house alot less. I had no memory of Jace molesting me and no memory of me telling my mom, just the cop and the Leapfrog tablet. Thats the only thing I remember that my mom didnt have to tell me years later. Jace had bad hygeine, and since i was hitting puberty, i needed to shower more often due to body odor. He didnt care to ask me to bathe or make sure i did. After staying at Jace’s house for five days or more, i wouldnt shower that whole time. I would sit on my computer, talking on reddit, discord, and twitter since Jace literally did not fucking care who i was interacting with online. Once my mom yelled at Jace, he began making me shower at his house. The shower knobs in his house were old and complicated so when i needed to shower, he would have to turn it on for me. He would weirdly wait to leave the bathroom and watch me get undressed and get into the shower. He told me he was just making sure the water wasnt too hot when i got in and i stupidly believed it. When i would get out of the shower, he’d always “forget” to bring me a towel so id walk into his room dripping wet thinking nothing of it so i could get a towel. Then, he’d insist on helping me dry my body off. He’d let me dry most of my body off, then he would make me turn around and bend over my bed, and he would dry off my butt, thighs, and legs for me. Again, i thought this was normal. 

Once i became aware that my dad was sexually assaulting me on the daily after my mom told me, i still was pretty much forced to stay at my dads still. I began doing sexual things with my neighbors daughter because she had been molested too, and i guess we used eachother as an outlet. She would force me to get under the blanket and put my fingers in her and keep them there while she watched television, and if i took them out and tried to sit up, she’d hit me and force me back down. Jace eventually found out about us doing this, and told my mom, and i got grounded from seeing her for around a year but Jace would still let her come over without my mom knowing as if he was secretly encouraging it and enjoyed the fact he knew this was happening.  Years past, me and this girl grew apart, and shes a tweaker now. My mom along with all of my maternal family have blocked Jace and all of my fraternal family on all social platforms, in fear that because i am “developed” Jace might see my body which I totally agree with my familys concerns. My mom only has Bettys phone number unblocked from when i needed to get my passport expedited, and she will occasionally text her asking to talk to me and to forgive her for not believing me. Up until she texted me, i had no idea she didn’t believe me, only because of the fact she never got involved in her son being a pedophile. Over the years when i run into my fraternal family members in public, they treat me like a lost puppy and apologize a million times.

Thank the lord that i am nowhere near my father, although he lives somewhat nearby. Me and my mom are working on getting him arrested and put in prison. My mom is my main support system, and i love my maternal family. Theyve always believed me, supported me, loved me, and defended me. Big thanks to all of these people that cared when i felt disgusting in my own body and wanted nothing but to die. If youve read this far, thanks for listening to my story. 

I am fifteen years old, sophomore in highschool, with a clean home and clean bedroom, real food and no dangerous people. 

Im sorry if i called him “dad” Accidentally in the story, its been hard lately to forget i dont consider him my father anymore.