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Would you enjoy more song recommendations?

It's Not Real by Common Holly

Did You Love Somebody by Peach Pit

Alone Tonight by Francis of Delirium.

Happy (belated) Halloween. I hope you enjoyed having spooks to enjoy that don't threaten you.

It's Not Real: An ode to anxiety and fear, a monologue of self-convincing. This song sounds like the feeling of someone scribbling their internal dialogue in a diary.

Did You Love Somebody: Such a profound piece about trusting others and yourself. We know how hard it can be to trust people. Interesting view of that sort of fear in a relationship.

Alone Tonight: Another song about repeating worries about all realms of life: love, family, and the self. A tragic wish for a normalcy that can never exist.

These were all good songs and good additions to my playlist. Thank you.

And thank you for the late Halloween wish. I didn't celebrate at all, but I appreciate the positive thoughts.

-Gwen B.

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why do u always wear that hairband

My headband? I don't know. It keeps my hair in place. I simply like the way it looks and feels. It makes me feel like my head is strapped on right.

-Gwen B.

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Listen to Analogue by Folk Bitch Trio!

I gave it a listen finally. Sorry for the delay, things have been.... hectic, to say the least.

I liked the melancholic pluck of this song. The images were very clear and somber and almost desperate. Thank you for sharing.

-Gwen B.

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Don't let them get into your head, Alice. I don't think there's much we can do now. But it's... I'm... I'm grateful you've been at the office.

-Gwen B.

alice you have to trust me. get to hilltop as fast as you can. i have a really, really bad feeling about where Sam and Celia are off to. but I think you can help them. or stop them. or anything.

Who is this? How the hell do you know about Hilltop?

It's... sorry. I don't know, I haven't heard from Sam, but we've got other stuff to deal with now.

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Honestly this way of getting a promotion is better than the... other way someone got a promotion. Just be careful about your eyes 👁👁

What? Actually, nevermind, I'll stay curious this time. Thanks for the approval... and the warning? Hm.

-Gwen B.

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Gwen, and I mean it with respect and love, WHY THE FUCK did you want that promotion SO BAD without knowing in the slightest what it'll lead you to ?

Look me in the eyes and tell me I won't do a better job.

I may lack guidance, but we all start somewhere. I've taken the initiative to try and make a change around here, which is more than anyone else can say.

I may not know where this job will lead, but I can't continue to blindly sit and do nothing. I'm tired of helplessly letting awful things happen to us. I have to get to the bottom of what's going on here.

Besides, I've been here long enough. This promotion is what I deserve. I'm supposed to be made for greater things.

-Gwen B.

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Gwen do you need a hug if yes may I offer one

I... don't know. I appreciate your earnesty. And I appreciate the sentiment behind the offer, since you can't actually hug me through the Internet. But, uh, thanks. Maybe I do.

-Gwen B.

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you really should listen to 'Cabinet Man' by Lemon Demon c:

Shut. Up.

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Absence.

I understand I've had an inconsistent presence here lately. Something... has happened. At the office. We're trying to... we... I don't know. I don't know what to do.

Support or encouragement won't do anything to help, but it might be nice to hear.

-Gwen B.

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please dont die

Believe me, I'm trying. (Not that it's been easy.) Thank you for your concern. Or encouragement? Whatever you're trying to express, I appreciate it. I'll do my best.

-Gwen B.

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What if you got a case that was just “mama a girl behind YOU 💜” ? How would you file that?

I would need more information.

Is the girl a regular girl? Is there something unnatural about her? Is she somewhere she isn't meant to be? Can "Mama" see the girl as well, or just the speaker?

At face value, I would say:

"Child (unnatural) -/- stalking [video]"

I hope this is helpful.

-Gwen B.

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you really just crave attention, don't you? not a bad thing, just an observation. but it's okay to just ask for attention girl, you don't have to act out for it

I don't— what? No. What makes you say that. First, that's an unfair assumption to make. Unless you're some sort of psychologist, which I highly doubt. And second, I do not "act out." I'm not a bratty toddler, I'm an adult, and I like to be treated as such. Thank you.

-Gwen B.

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Music.

I was thinking today, while listening to the playlist you all helped me make, about music and my relationship with it.

My family never really liked music. Well, that's not quite true. They like music that is clean, neat, and tidy.

And it's so boring.

I admit I'm not the most interesting person. But growing up in a home where the only music you would hear was classical music, so quiet you could barely make it out? It was a form of punishment no one should ever endure.

I remember finally getting myself a pair of headphones. I could listen to the music I wanted to without them hearing. It was nice. I slowly found music that I liked, songs that built my taste. When I tell people I enjoy genres like female-lead metal music, they don't believe it. I understand why, but it's amusing to me.

I think that's why I like asking you all for song recommendations so often. You're helping me grow my music taste, one of the only interesting things about me. I appreciate it. Thanks.

-Gwen B.

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Have you ever heard the song "Artificial Heart" by Jonathan Coulton?

I just gave it a listen. The concept is intriguing. I wish that I... nevermind. Great song, thank you.

-Gwen B.

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Higher.

I knew the minister's visit would come to something. I knew that I could rise to the top. This is what I deserve. It's where I'm supposed to be.

Things are going to be run my way now. The better way. And when everyone's back in the office and I tell them about this shift, I hope they can take the news gracefully. It's for the best.

-Gwen B.

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My home page was quite silent in your absence. You can decide whether that was a good thing or a bad thing.

Either way, welcome back.

Well. Giving a tumblr a break was downright miserable, let's not do that again

I'm back babes, did you miss me? ;)

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do u have any other music u like ?

Well, yes. I have another playlist I listen to where I keep some of my favourites in rotation. I'm constantly adding and removing things to suit my mood. It will probably have changed again by tomorrow.

It will probably be easier to just post screenshots. It's sorted by artist (it's more visually appealing that way). This is the current lineup:

Some of these songs are ones you all have sent to me. Thanks again for expanding my music taste.

Also, these are just songs I enjoy listening to. Not all of them are necessarily songs I can "relate to." Just thought I'd put that out there.

-Gwen B.