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I can't delete the account because I've forgotten my password hahaha it'll just be an inaccessible account

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So thanks to me using an old email address that I can no longer access I haven’t been able to access tumblr from anything but my phone for a while. I’ve been worried that my phone will log out of the app or I’ll accidently uninstall it and not be able to get back on. So I’ve made a new blog so I don’t have to worry about that shit anymore. Buy guys, it’s been fun. Cya over at oceans-of-stardust

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This account is now deactivated

So thanks to me using an old email address that I can no longer access I haven't been able to access tumblr from anything but my phone for a while. I've been worried that my phone will log out of the app or I'll accidently uninstall it and not be able to get back on. So I've made a new blog so I don't have to worry about that shit anymore. Buy guys, it's been fun. Cya over at oceans-of-stardust

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Honestly it’s so dumb to say to a mentally ill person that they shouldn’t label themselves like when someone tells you they have cancer you’re not going to be like “you shouldn’t label yourself” or such a thing, both are legitimate illnesses so shut up maybe???

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What depression isn't...

-Something to be glorified -Something to be ashamed of -Something to be compared to or competed with.

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a/n: so, I’ve been slow with catching up with the 100 lately (exams do that to you), but today I finally got the chance to watch the latest episode. and let me tell you, I wanted to throw something at my screen. clarke’s conflicting emotions over her decision and how it affects bellamy (and her mother) vs. bellamy’s drive to save his sister and the need to prove clarke’s skepticism wrong, all brought to a sudden end when the scene cuts off with clarke bringing her hand down and letting bellamy go. i’m sorry, where’s my resolve? emotional backlash? hurt feelings? where’s my bellamy and clarke get to talk like in season 3 where he confronts her about her leaving him? where’s my bellamy telling her off her high horse? where’s my clarke says she’s sorry scene? where’s my- well, you get it. 

and since i got nothing of that, i decided to spin my take on it. so have a 4x11 missing scene that will hopefully let you breathe a little easier (worked for me)

together or not at all (ao3)

He looked at her one last time, at the gun hanging from her hand, at her face - and God, Clarke felt that look spreading like poison through her lungs, making every breath a struggle - and then kept on climbing the stairs, heavy steps fading into nothing as he neared the hatch.

Her fingers were numb from clutching the gun, her wrist hurting from the pressure of having it pointed at him and not wanting to shoot him at the same time. Her eyes stung from her tears and the air rattled inside her ribcage. Then, like a puppet having had its strings cut, she stumbled back few steps, feeling dizzy, weak, and leaned on the wall behind her, sliding down on the floor, the gun slipping from her hand.

The tears keep on sliding down her cheeks and she doesn’t try to fight them. She figured that was how the monuments of the Old World felt when the nuclear bombs hit them - empty, cold, crumbling to dust, big hunks of stone and metal reduced to shadows of themselves, having lost all that made them stand proud and represent an idea.

Her left hand, the one that had pulled the trigger on him, was shaking. Clarke brought it to her face and laughed, let out a sob, was this what she had become?

One sob turned into a second one, into a third one, until she was heaving with the force of her crying, arms around her legs and pulled tight against her body, rocking back and forth in a desperate attempt to keep the panic away.

She had let Bellamy open the bunker. She had doomed her people to a possible death. She had risked the fate of the human race. She had lied and gone behind the backs of people she had claimed to care about only for it to be just another hollow promise, another hollow explanation,  another deceit born out of desperation and having the world rest on her shoulders.

She took a shot but couldn’t pull the trigger, not on him. And there laid the problem.

Her ears still rang with the sound of Bellamy’s voice, with the noise from the bullet. When did she become this girl, this woman? When did she lose herself in the desperate attempt to always have all the answers, to always be right?

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Octavia Blake in 4.12 “The Chosen” (x)

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#god bless this show

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my lesbian mutuals

my autistic mutuals

my nonbinary mutuals

my mutuals who are poc

my trans mutuals

my gay and bi mutuals

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my lesbian mutuals

my autistic mutuals

my nonbinary mutuals

my mutuals who are poc

my trans mutuals

my gay and bi mutuals

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1x01 // 4x11

inspired by a post by @nadiahilker​

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arthur weasley looks in the mirror of erised

he sees himself. his reflection looks the same, but there is a knowing glint in his eye. he knows, arthur realises. he knows exactly the function of a rubber duck.

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Happy Mother’s Day!

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The next time a man starts yelling at you, cut him off and tell him you just can’t talk to him when he’s being so emotional.

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You gotta smooch some more happiness into him!

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Honestly, watching Brooklyn 99 comes with this weird and unexpected crush on Andy Samberg… like never would have thought but y'all know what I’m talking about

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