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Once again it happened

I had a really great shooting content with another provider. The chemistry was great. We all looked hot. And had so much fun. Then she found out Damazonia doesn't like me and told she may not post the content because she's worried Damazonia won't associate with her. She wants to be rich and famous

How many people are going to continue to walk out of my life because they're concerned they will miss out on the social statues and climbing the ladder

Do i keep getting in the ring if I'm losing before I even get started

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I know I have to forgive to move on , I know I have to stop talking about how much I hate my ex

But I don't want to forgive her

I hate that I have to forgive her to get better

It makes me cry

I don't want to forgive anyone for what they've done , I dont want to have any understanding for it . I dont even like thinking the words. I dont want to give her or anyone any forgiveness or softness , I guess even at the expense of myself.

I don't know when I turned so hateful , but my hate runs so deep and it's so strong

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I think I've got Borderline Personality Disorder, and I was REALLY hoping that I didn't

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I am so scared that I will never handle anything right

I never feel in control

And I always overshare

Just shut the fuck up

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I wish I had more love and empathy in me

But I am mad, paranoid, and selfish

If I just had more love in me, I think I'd do better

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I am happy tonight

I like my apartment

I was approved for a Mortgage

My best friends right now are Dita, Vaughn, Bee, Shae, Jess, and Pete.

I got rid of all the people I felt weren't bringing me happiness and support. The best part is they won't be around to enjoy my success with me , they will never again have a spot at my table

I am going to Vegas on Jan 20th for 5 days

I am looking the hottest Ive ever looked

I haven't been suicidal in 2 months

I got cosmetic tattooing done so my scars aren't even visible anymore

I go to the UK this summer to see Chappell Roan

And then EDC Vegas

Most of the people I hate are old and broke

Kassandra and Damazonia haven't seen the last of me , and I will make take my revenge at the right time

I found a better work set up

Nancy can trash talk me all she wants but she's suffering. How's that $1400 rent . About time you joined adulthood

I am single and I am actually loving it , now i don't have to be SEXY on my time off. I dont have to worry about my sex drive , or my medication... or get my heart wounded. I dont need to worry about being enough for someone. Plus I'm making more money now that I'm not giving up work days to spend my time with marty

Vaughn wants to date , I said no. But hey, it was a nice confidence booster , although I think any man interested in me is probably a loser

I started cooking, so far I've made chilli , pasta , and cinnamon buns . Found out I love cooking and feeding people

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Also considering that she came to me almost every week asking me to teach her escorting, and to set her up. Well, it wasn't a far stretch for me to think that maybe she could have more income for rent money

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Stay away

Don't touch me

I don't want to care

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