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Yesterday after hoco my friend and I went to a local restaurant where we got small chocolate shakes and a large fry to share. We were talking and it was all fun until we got on the topic of weight. And this mf told me how he hated how skinny he used to be. Liek I understand the feeling of not liking your body but PLSSSSS. Ik you’d rather have your hip bones sticking out other having stomach fat like I do. I wish my bones stuck out uncomfortably. I wish I was 80 lbs instead of 260. It pisses me off sm that he said that to me knowing that I struggle with my body and weight.

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I’ve been eating like shit for these last few days… but the bright side of it, is that I haven’t gone over 260!!! It’s only between 255-206.8 ! So that’s really nice(:

I NEEEEEEEEEEEED. An Ed buddy to keep me in check, I don’t need to be eating 500 cal+ a day but it’s hard to keep track when there’s no one supporting me in that typa way… I could ask a friend to do it but I highly doubt he will

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today was the first day of school and it was actually super good(:

BUT OMG. MY FRIRND WAS LOOKING A LITTLE TOO FINE TODAY.. I’ve already determined I have a crush on them but UGGHHH it’s annoying to have a crush on a friend. UGH he’s so fine tho istg.

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Cals today was 711.. only bc I had boba and YOU KNOW. That shit got at least 200-1000 cals. And the one I got was 254. Without the boba I would’ve been at 457 cal and that would be under my 500 cal limit.

Anyways, boba was too yum to pass up. I’ll do better tomorrow

Ate 230 cals for breakfast and so far during work I’ve burnt 131 cals!! So in total my intake so far has been 99 cals!!!

I also just ate pizza, which means I chewed it then spit it out.

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Ate 230 cals for breakfast and so far during work I’ve burnt 131 cals!! So in total my intake so far has been 99 cals!!!

I also just ate pizza, which means I chewed it then spit it out.

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I ate 1,117 cals today. So yuck.

I thought that my dinner wouldn’t be that bad but that shit was 500 CALS FOR NO REASON.

I can’t wait till school time, I can use my homework as an excuse to not eat dinner or just to eat very little.

It sounds like such excuses but I promise it’s not. My house is just so genuinely unhealthy that it’s impossible to eat anything remotely healthy or low cal. I can buy healthy food bc my family eats em up so fast

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So far I’ve only had 567 cals, gonna two just dance later to burn cals LOL.

yesterday I had 1,680 cals. Felt so gross. It was only that high bc I have 3 slices of pizza and a fucking  10 piece.

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so real

A weird side effect of starting this account. I'm now convinced I need a heart shaped bowl.

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living in a nigerian house is so hard, bc ALL of the food is oil based, and they feed you so muchhhh

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i feel you on that< im not nigerian but Mexican instead. and i swear all the foods that's cooked has so much grease, oil butter.

living in a nigerian house is so hard, bc ALL of the food is oil based, and they feed you so muchhhh

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spitting out food

its so stupid how ill bite, chew then spitout my pizza but GLADLY eat candy??? like what???

ig if i eat enough itll act as a laxative (sugar kills me)

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UGHHH KVEFRGJELRF

being plus sized sucks when you find someone cute, like i cant flirt and try to be all cute or whatever bc they might not like plus size people!!! it sucks so bad when i see someone i find attractive and i cant even say or do anything bc it'll just humiliate me.

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food diary july 19th

(i dont count fruit or roasted/raw veggies toward my calorie intake for the day!!!!)

anyway...

breakfast time i had a bowl of honeydew and some water, was so yum

lunch i have 3 hashbrowns, it wasnt oily of greasy at at either!!

and dinner i had two peices of grilled chicken with roasted veggies and this mayo, ketchup, siracha sause my dad makes.

i dont count calories very often but today was an exception bc of the amount of food i ate, it adds up to 961 calories, its only that high bc i had some candy too(: and bc i don't exercise i barely burn anything off, but i did take 6.4k steps today....which is equivalent to about 413 calories i guess!!! (i used this website to find out my steps to burnt calories>>> steps to calories calculator!! ) so in total i ate 961 cals, burnt 413 and have 548 left over!!! pretty good !!!

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food log for the day!!!

i had a jimmyjohns sandwich for lunch, roasted veggies and meat for dinner and a blow pop !! deff not the best but its a step into the right direction!

tmw i have work, so thatll cause me not to eat as much !! yaya, i need to buy some gum that i can chew thru out the day to help me not eat. (they provide food if wanted)

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faded scars feel so invalidating

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family and their body issues.

i fucking hate hearign my step mom be up my sisters ass about eating, body weight and fat. my sis is only 7. she should be allowed to eat snacks without worrying about gaining weight. it makes me so sad.

to hear my step mom say " you don't want to end up with my tummy, do you?" LIKE SHUT UP. i hope she knows shes giving my sister an ed. even if my sister doesn't exhibit symptoms rn, they will come up later in life. hopefully by then my step mom will stop projecting her flaws and insecurities!!!!

theres so many times where she'll have dinner, lots of it then a bowl of cereal and ice cream??!!! like what?? even if i didn't have the mindset of someone within ed i know that, that's too much food!!!. and she wonders why shes the size she is... at least I'm doing something about it, maybe its not healthy but I'm not shaming others in the process.

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me fr

(its so bad, when covid started i was a size 16 then after covid got lifted i became size 22... USA sizing)

You say you're going to starve and then you eat like a pig.