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#a few times a month i guess?#but like.#when i say i wear makeup#i mean i've put silver or red or turquoise eyeliner on my lower lash line#Maybe mascara depending on the vibe#a glittery lip gloss with or without dark red lipstick on rarer occasion#all my makeup choices are made in honour of that one old lady i saw who had a solid half cm of turquoise under her eyes#and i thought Oh. she Gets It#anyways shoutout to the first time my mom saw me with red eyeliner and told me it looked kind of demonic#never felt more encouraged about my fashion choices in my life#thats a lie actually#its anytime a small child sees me wearing the rhinestone fishnets#they were hell to make but they spark so much joy
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No one loves me. I’m all alone. Everyone hates me. My mom never loved me. I'm bad luck.
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#i really said 'okay i'll finally start using tumblr properly and follow people and reblog shit'#and then ignored doing any of that in favour of watching#uh#the 1999 worlds ice dance free skate#this is not a fs blog but my love for fs aus is really doing me in#as is the anissina and peizerat od from 99 worlds#pretty sure that rewired my brain a little
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I'm really resistant to the idea that ray did something bad by leaving sand to go help mew especially the implication that it's why sand was upset at him. that was definitely NOT why sand was upset - why would sand who took care of a drunk guy he really didn't like very much be upset at ray helping out his drunk friend??? the entire first two episodes are set up so you would know that Sand would never be upset at someone helping out a friend esp if they were drunk. But the way Ray IMMEDIATELY disengages with Sand, even before he knew anything was wrong, nearly flinging Sand's arm from around him. The way he leaves with ZERO regrets like yes he says his perfunctory sorry but there's no 'aw this sucks i really wish i didn't have to go but my friend's in trouble'
like ray goes from a hundred to negative 3000 in 0.2 seconds and it was probably quite unsettling to experience. Mew called and IMMEDIATELY the vibe was leave my car I have more important things to do and THAT'S what was wrong with what Ray did and why Sand felt so jilted.
#was trying to articulate why the takes completely agreeing or disagreeing with ray felt off#this is it#it's not that the central action was wrong but the execution#oof#also just like#narratively#it reeks of precedence#like its obvious this is going to be a Thing#which makes it feel bad even if this specific instance is reasonable#ofts meta
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slightly tempted to make figure skating au kimchay lesbians
#on one hand: girls#on the other hand if i go the ice dance route and the route of kim suggesting chay switch to ice dance before they decide to be partners...#suggesting a girl from a tiny ass fed switch to ice dance without a confirmed partner is uh. insane#would still be buck wild to suggest to a dude#but the gender imbalance in ice dance and pairs mean guys are wayyyy more likely to successfully get a partner#fs politics are a nightmare: the fic#fun fact at jgp bangkok thailand only had entries into womens singles#considering the host country gets free spots if they have Any skaters with qualifying mins....#oof
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How new WIPs are born:
#the way i am now digging through years of scores from thai skaters for a figure skating au that is like. 90% plotless#looking at 2023 and then went hm wait and went back to 2018 to see if things were going a bit better pre-covid#anyways if you want to know just How undeveloped this whole au is#i still dont know if i want to go the route of kim coaching chay as a singles skater#or the ice dance route#singles is the like.... reasonable route here#ice dance would be the 'kim is a little insane' route#because it would be kim looking at chay#who hasnt had proper coaching in years due to how expensive fs is#and kim looks at how the few jumps he does are beyond rough but his steps are impressively clean#and there's a genuine musicality to his movements#and he thinks chay could've done well in ice dance#too bad that if breaking into singles from a small fed is a nightmare ice dance is absolute hell#from what i can tell thai nats doesnt even have categories for ice dance or pairs#anyways eventually kim comes to the insane person decision that hey#people are expecting the isu to follow canada and gender neutralize ice dance and pairs sooner than later#and kims been on hiatus while he heals from an injury that is likely to become chronic if he keeps doing jumps and chays jumps are a mess#why Not ask chay to learn ice dance with him#.... alright maybe i do know which route i want to take#fuck me now i have to go find ice dance performances i think would fit them
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#if i had a nickel for every time i've done a double take at seeing jeff with a chuang idol i'd have two nickels#which isn't a lot and nene does make sense but bo yuan??#anyways. he might as well start collecting them like pokemon#and by this i mean i want to see jeff and riki in the same room#jeff satur
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Jeff Satur - ก่อนที่เธอจะลืมฝัน (Lucid) 【Official Music Video】
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sometimes i'm like "i have overcome all anxiety. i am no longer an anxious person" and then i feel mortified at the thought of something being The First Reblog onto a new blog. having a janky brain is really the gift that keeps on giving
#i just want to have proper discussions with people instead of dumping essays into peoples inboxes on anon#also my theme is cute as hell and the only way for people to see it is if i post shit#forget the mortifying ordeal of being known this is the mortifying ordeal of existing
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