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embarrassment has good bones

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it killed you to grow up there, in the dark like that, with nothing but the bones of your childhood. they punished every version of you that wasn't a god. forced sainthood into saturdays and now when you're out in the sun, your hands shake. your breathing puffing into cold mornings, alone in your room, wondering how you could be so broken and yet never have anyone notice the break.

in the dream of that house, you sometimes remember meals and silence and long hallways and your hand cramping over your homework. you sometimes remember the yelling or the limegreen falsehood veneer your parents could construct in the presence of guests. mostly you remember the way time seeped through you, dripped onto everything, how the words it'll get better felt like an arrow through your chest.

you would lay in bed and hope for death with the same fantasy air as romance, picturing a glorious coffin. sometimes you'd picture a dramatic end or a tragic illness that would sweep you away. but mostly you pictured some kind of strange miracle; that you'd go to sleep and simply never have to deal with that again.

when you got out, you had to burn the atmosphere to escape. these days you reside on another planet entirely: one bright and full of lights and color and friends and spice and laughter.

and still sometimes when people say summer, you still remember the back deck. you still remember building a castle. you still remember the birds. when you lay yourself down at night - some part of you still whispers about catacombs, and the dark, and the bones.

some version of you is still resting in that tomb, after all. some version of you will always see the outline of that place and say that's where we used to call home.

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You know when people say “I watched this movie because you talked about it” or “I’ve been listening to this artist because I know you like it”, tenderness

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Listening to a non-fiction book about maritime disaster and the way this author is describing the ship sinking is so sexual

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The different genres of Doctor Who episode:

The dumbest bullshit you've ever seen. Just absolute baby brain nonsense.

Man, aliens are weird, huh?

Genuine high-concept science fiction serving as biting if heavy-handed social commentary on present issues

*Lisa Simpson voice* Look, Mom! It's Ea-Nasir!

Nightmare fuel that will traumatize a generation of children while adults roll their eyes.

The villain is determined to out-camp every other camp villain combined. There will probably be a needle drop.

The harrowing story of one character's personal hell

Tbe Doctor is sorely tempted to break one of the laws of time and/or one of his firmly held moral boundaries, never mind all the times he's done this without comment.

The Daleks are back, and they're purple now

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My five year plan is to listen to music

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i’m so fucking sick of people taking aspects of historical gay sexuality and saying “but what if i made it squeaky clean and sexless so i can have it” sometimes not everything is for you babes!!! sometimes you don’t get to have everything!!!

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Trying out ballpoint pen on hot press paper

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Unknown , Morning Coffee - Kaoru Yamada 

Japanese , b. 1975 -

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tulips season 🌷💐

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"youd do numbers on tumblr" girl i am on tumblr and the numbers? 4

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i love writing porn and i wont feel bad about it. understanding the eroticism of a character is character analysis if u are enlightened.

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summer storms, switzerland

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Tender knights

Tip jar

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♡ Princess Mononoke もののけ姫 [1997] ♡

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