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Trick or treat, and happy Halloween!

happy halloween ghost!! :D u get..

an infinite chocolate bar!!

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all i want is a job that pays enough for me to survive and live on my own

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work from february 2020 using photograph from july 2017, self portrait in my aunts’ childhood bedroom where i sleep when i visit my grandparents

Elle Howard

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John Bauer - A Knight Rode Forth (1915)

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my awesome and super personal sexual timeline

5th grade. read some manga on my favorite pirating site bc it had “fifth grade” in tbe title. it’s child porn hentai

12 years old: force myself to read the most explicit and jarring fic i can find on ao3 so that i wont be a prude. end up reading every single word of a hannigram tentacle rape mpreg fic

13: discover feederism through persona 5 fanfiction. this was a point in 2017 where i read every single new persona 5 fic posted regardless of content. this was a really awesome discovery i cheered

14: attempt to jerk off for the first time. im not really sure what to do so i listen to mozart in the dark with my eyes closed

15: feel deep shame for being attracted to another 15 year old girl. thinks this makes me a pedophile and try to avoid thinking about it

16: go on omegle and dont have sexual conversations on purpose but sometimes men jerk off there while i talk and tell me and i feel really honored that people can be attracted to me

17-ish: go to block a porn bot on tumblr and actually watch the porn on their account for a moment. find myself surprised no one gets injured. realize that bc i dont watch porn ive only really seen pornographic content in shock pics or videos like goatse or tubgirl and various horror films

18+ NEVER HAVE SEX!! I HATE SEX!!

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i should post a sexual timeline so people realize how fucked up i am and empathize with me

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when i was ten one time i told my best friend that her grandpa was a pedophile because her grandma was 10 years younger than him. she tried to defend him until i said Would you marry someone who was born right now?

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harry dubois if he was a young witch trying to solve the disappearance of her neighbors cat in a small village in the alps

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WELCOME TO 98.6 AGE GAP FM!

WHERE WE PLAY NOTHING BUT THE BIGGEST [cougar growl] MOST PROBLEMATIC [explosion] HOTTEST AGE GAPS AROUND!!!!!

THIS IS YOUR GRANDMAS STATION!

SO GET READY FOR SOME TOXIC!!! AGE GAP!!! YURI!!!!!!!!! [cacophony of noises and then fadeout]

up next: the one tweet that goes “you were 13 when i graduated high school” “can yuo put that out on me”

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having public social media is insane like imagine if someone could just google your legal name and find your tumblr

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rhack lorax au

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The whole Once-ler family is working full tilt!

Here's my full piece for the VK Onceler Zine! I was very lucky to get to be a part of it...🥹 I used concept art as my inspiration this time: [link] Keep reading below for my process vid and all my director's commentary!

Thank you for being curious! Here's a video of my WIPs:

Deadlines were TIGHT for this zine! We were given only 2 months (compared to the 6 months I had on the previous onceler zine), so to make sure I could finish on time, I decided to do only base colours and lighting, with almost no shading anywhere. Still, trying to balance all the colours took the longest for me, as you can see in the vid. xP

Also idk if anyone noticed, but for the face I chose to use an already existing onceler doodle: [link] Why? Well, why not! I really liked that doodle and I didn't want it to go to waste. 😆

Things that I enjoyed sneaking in:

-the golden spiral! Vaguely, at least! At the very least I hope your eyes can follow the order of thneed production, from the fallen tree at the window to the tuft harvesting to the thread spinning, to knitting the thneed and then drawing up plans for bigger and better things, and then ending with him pulling on his iconic glove to show he's going to take control now

-15 cents, a nail, and a great great great grandfather snail, as well as a tin pail since that's where you're supposed to deposit your payment

-combining things from the 2012 movie and concept art, the 1972 movie, and the 1971 book (e.g. that funny wrench he uses to fix pipes)

-Miss O'Schmunce-ler! You can see from the vid that I added the bracelet pretty late, because it was a late decision to have a Miss O'Schumunce-ler somewhere. I chose her to be the one picking up the pencil in the end, since she's pretty good with a pencil in the movie hehe. You guys can pretend the arms holding the phone is Miss Funce-ler.

-a thneed, a seed, and a (grickle grass) weed on the floor. The thneed is just the first of many that will soon create a giant pile. The seed lies forgotten in the corner. The weed is foreshadowing the future.

-hinting that Lorax and Once-ler were actually good friends, like they were in the Lorax musical stageplay. 🥺 I kept this part of the script in my mind for this piece:

This was aftermath Once-ler talking to the Lorax, reminiscing on their good times...and also being stupid and inconsiderate because the Lorax was in fact there all along as his friend, trying to warn him of what was going to happen. 😔

So in my zine piece we're witnessing a peaceful time before all the real biggering really starts. I like to think that in this scene, the Lorax had been sitting on the Once-ler's lap, holding his gloves for him and having a nice chat together with maybe some harmless bickering, but then the Once-ler gets a phone call so he cuts their convo short and rolls his chair over to the window to answer it. Putting business over friendship as usual, of course. Inspo for the lap sitting comes from this fanart by Emi that I love: [link]

What else...the parts that I'm proud of the most are the stool (I spent 2 days just drawing this stool), the curtains, the fact that I was able to include every truffula colour, and the Once-ler's pose. I was close to giving up on that pose because I had no idea how to draw it but I'm glad that I tried again. I wanted to show him at ease during a stage in his life that we never got to see much: the happier and more innocent days of his biggering when he only had a small shop. 😊

That's all, I think! Thanks for reading if you did! Once again it was an honour to be part of this zine!!

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im getting my rhack on

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oh he's such a loser freak

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