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THIS SONG HUTS SO HARD AND I FEEL OYS UNDERRATED LIKE EEATHS AT MY DOOR

no cause run run brother gets me so bad. like the grease got a hold lyrics mixed in????? what was a previous anthem of becoming a greaser becoming something more haunting as it’s what follows them out of town. they can’t escape it and despite how much they love it, it will always cost them everything in the end, it will push them to near death, to murder. then far away from tulsa comes in. they are getting away but dear lord it’s not in the way they want

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Why tf does she’s the man make me sob?

Oh maybe it’s because of how easily viola was able to pass as Sebastian and how that would be literally impossible to remake today and I just wanna be able to be that masc.

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THEY NEED A TONY CATEGORY FOR BEST REPLACEMENT BC AARON TIVEIT AND SUTTON FSTER DESERVE AN AWARD AND THEIR OWN RECORDING OF SWEENEY

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Do I have a friend crush or am somehow developing feelings for a person/ want a qpr w them????

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I DONT KNOWWWEW

bc it’s so hard to tell. Esp bc ik they just got out of a shit relationship

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I love this so much. It honestly almost made me cry for some reason tho

guys i'm sorry i was rewatching high school musical three last night and this was all i could think about

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Every week or week and a half I get a really strong urge to make an anon insta page where I just post videos of me singing musical theater. Bc I’ve never really heard of anyone who sings with a speech impediment. But at the same time I’m scared

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Bill from bill and Ted gives off such twink vibes to me

Or maybe it’s just his fit

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This week has been quite eventful as I fenced in 6 in platform boots,

Got tickets for 2 concerts. One being MCR

And got top surgery scheduled.

And yet my mental health is so shit

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The funniest thing abt watching the Agatha behind the scenes documentsry is coming to the realization that Joe Locke is like proper tall.

Cuz in heartstopper kit and will are taller and so he is short in my brain but he’s really not.

It’s like Jensen ackles talking abt projects other than spn where people realized he was tall when not next to Jared

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I see the vision

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babe what are you doing. no i don't care if you have a job. you need to be on dash talking about my chemical romance. yes this is important

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Happy Edmund Fitzgerald day to all who celebrate!!

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Honestly crying and like wanting to give up and go back to the old ways and like sh or try. But knowing how disappointed my therapist would be because there’s no real way for me to vocalize the hurt that I constantly feel without feeling like I’m maximizing small problems.

So instead I read sad fanfics, cry to music, (rn it’s sodas letter) and fuck up my body by being reckless with injuries

In a sense I stopped being actively suicidal but have always been passively suicidal for as long as I can remember with my lack of care for what happens to me

And whenever I talk about my family and something shit they did, I always feel bad because I know abuncha my lgbt friends who have it much worse. And I want to tell people just how much they mean to me but at the same time I’m afraid of scaring them off because of how attached I am when they probably are not that attached to me

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Starting to reworkout bc therapy hw is literally to do that. And the playlist I have for working out is one that should be right except none of it is the vibe anymore.

And I made it during the worst time in my life but the music on it still slaps

Help what else can I listen to while working out??

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Sobbing after reading this

When I was younger I never felt like I was anyone’s favorite. My sister was my dad’s favorite, and my brother was my mother’s favorite. But then I got older, and me and my sister got closer. And I realize that now I’m her favorite, and that just makes my inner child so happy because I’m someone’s favorite for once.

And idk WHY but I think this could apply to the Curtis brothers.

Hi anon, I'm so sorry for the late reply, my life is hectic as hell right now.

I kind of relate to this, not that my parents have favourites so much, but me and my younger brothers are always and forever locked in a war to be our older brother's favourite.

I think in terms of Outsiders verse it's kind of implied that Ponyboy was the 'odd one out' in the Curtis family (Johnny mentions Darry acted like their mother but looked like their dad, and Soda looked like their mom but acted like their dad), HOWEVER, I think this might not have played out in the family dynamic as Soda and Darry being the favourites. I think Darry was their dad's favourite, and while I don't think Mr.Curtis would be blatant about it, I think the fact he and Darry were so close and Darry always wanted to be just like him would make it clear to Soda and Pony there was a bond there that they didn't/would never have with their father. And Pony was the baby. Moms often get really attached to their youngest kids because its their 'last chance' to see their kids so, well, everything. Last baby things, last first steps, last first day of school, etc. So I could see Mrs. Curtis' kind of falling prey to this mentality, and Pony being her favourite, especially since Pony is the youngest of the gang and would probably stay with her while Darry and maybe Soda got to do 'big kid stuff'.

But Soda? Sodapop Patrick Curtis? People pleaser extrodinaire? he's the quintessential middle child struggling with mental health issues and a learning disability in a time where neither of those were properly adressed. Sure, his parents loved him but he knew he wasn't either of their favourites, even if Mr and Mrs Curtis treated them all the same. So when PONYBOY starts following him around at age two? When he chooses to run to SODA after a nightmare instead of mom? When he gets a little older and tells soda about the kids who are being mean to him at school? Soda's heart is GONE. Pony stole it, because Pony CHOSE him. Soda is used to being Steve's favourite, but he is used to being overlooked by his own family, until Ponyboy comes along and makes it clear from day one that Soda is his hero, his unequivocal FAVOURITE? Yeah, Soda was done for. And when their parents died? The only reason Soda didn't sink into despair or turn to booze as a way to cope was because Pony still looked at him like a hero, maybe even more so than before, and Soda couldn't let him down. He couldn't do anything that might jeapordize Pony looking at him like that. Because Pony CHOSE him, and Soda couldn't handle a reality where he wasn't Pony's favourite anymore, because being Pony's favourite is half of what keeps him sane.

Thanks for the ask xx

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Im the outsiders- if it took place a few years later they all probably woulda been drafted into nam.

Also like pony would be in his early 70s today

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If you think about it the outsiders and moulin rouge are the same bc it’s the main charachter telling the events in some artistic medium

Pony’s book and Christian’s play/song

Im sure there’s more musicals like this but the only other one I can think of would possibly be into the woods bc narrator