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It’s been a while

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I don’t want to have feelings anymore

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me, interacting with another 20+ year old on tumblr:

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my favourite thing about tumblr is there is not one mention of sports

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the best place to run away from reality is here

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I think we need to talk about the under appreciated Window Seat fandom

I mean really? With the book shelves?

It’s like an alcove of happiness.

You want a whole row of individual seats? Fine, here you go. 

Or how about a whole window bed for those snugglers out there.

Curtains.. Guys this one has curtains.

Seriously? This is basically a glass cube of bliss.

 You can even get them with corners! Not enough corners? Okay.

Ba-BAM!! Corners for cocooning. 

There’s also the Roman-esque themed seat for the historians out there. 

 If you don’t want to snuggle up in blankets with hot cocoa in this then I don’t even know why you’re on this planet. I mean dat stonework. 

This one’s an entire rectangle. Just imagine all the cuddling that could happen in there. It’s practically a fortress.

This one’s fucking curved okay? it’s just chillin, up of the ground, and curved for your lounging convenience. 

don’t like rectangles or square? Okay. Have a fucking trapezoid seat.

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More fights, every night

Cant believe I’m back to my old ways

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I had a dream I was watching keeping up with the kardashians and Kylie had gotten cyborg legs like they had taken the legs of an AT-ST from Star Wars and put them on her lower half so she was like 11 feet tall and Kim was like “I think Kylie’s new legs are SO fun..”

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Kids are interesting. I’m babysitting a 9 year old boy right now who’s homework is to write a fictional story and he wrote about how in millions of years the sun will expand killing everything and one man fell asleep at the beach and missed all the official announcements about the world ending but he managed to be the only survivor of the solar flares because he applied SPF 100 sunscreen.

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when my dad moved away from home he needed a place to live, so he went to look at this one potential apartment. the only questions the landlady asked him were where he was born and when. when my dad told him, the landlady pulled out this huuuge astrology chart book. she looked at it for a long time in silence and finally said, “acceptable”

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Reblog If:

You’re depressed

Have an ED

You self harm

You’re having a bad day

You’re suicidal

I need to leave you a message.

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High functioning anxiety

People who suffer from high functioning depression often suffer from high functioning anxiety as well. And our anxiety beats us up daily, as well.

1. We decline invites even though we were excited for these events.

We get invited to a party, or an event, etc. and we are super excited to go there. We plan our outfit we are gonna wear that day and think about it constantly. But as soon as the day comes, we get really anxious. We fear that event so much, we cancel last minute and stay home. Where it’s safe for us. And therefore we miss out on a lot of stuff.

2. Obsession

We obsess over the tiniest things. Might it be a word or a glance from somebody. These little things wander around in our minds for days and we keep constantly thinking about it. Don’t get me started when someone doesn’t text back for hours/days. We start asking ourselves what we could have possible done wrong and wish we didn’t text in the first place.

3. Irregular sleeping pattern

We fall asleep late and wake up early. If we even fall asleep, that is. Our anxiety kicks in, when we gotta get up in the morning in order to go to work etc. Sometimes we don’t trust our alarm clock, so our anxiety wakes us up really early so we won’t oversleep. Meaning we are exhausted the next day.

4. Thinking about the worst

We can’t enjoy the moment, because we are always thinking about the worst scenario. Something will go wrong.

5. Rethinking

We keep rethinking conversation and event that happened to us a while ago. And we keep imagine what we could have done differently.

6. When someone asks if you are ok.

That’s a trigger for us. Because if they notice then it must be worse than we thought. And we don’t necessarily want to talk about it. But we also don’t like to lie.

7. Fearing the future

The future terrifies us. We really like to know what will happen so we can be ready for it. Not knowing stresses us out. Plus, the present is already tough for us, how much tougher will it be?

8. Constant comparing

We constantly compare ourselves to people our age. What did they achieve? How happy are they? Why didn’t we achieve all that already?

9. Mistakes

We can’t do mistakes, because our anxiety will always bring it up again and tells us that we are sooo bad. It doesn’t tell us that making mistakes is a part of life, it’s just bad.

10. Mentally tired

We wake up early, but are mentally drained and can’t get up on some days. Sometimes we need more time to get up.

11. Meeting new people

It’s so difficult. We constantly wonder if they like us. And if they are not coming to us to have a conversation with us, we just stick to ourselves and leave them alone.