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two old men have followed this past week and it's starting to weird me out a little

i've dealt with enough creepy old men at my job that i am not trynna deal with on my own blog. i am not into that. if someone's gonna obsess over me, have it be someone around my age!!

luckily, they just follow me but don't interact...but i might still block them for my own comfort >_>

i don't even know how they find me in the first place...like what tags are you looking through to find me specifically. the more i think about it, the more it creeps me out (´-﹏-`；)

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Relationship goals is “if you die i die” life linked forever <3

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Oh, to have someone want to message me on the daily. To check in one me, tell me about their day, ask me questions, get to know me. To make me feel like they understand me. I want someone to love me. I want to be an obsession.

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"i always feel a bit jealous seeing people with so many cute anons and asks

i hope my turn will come eventually"

it's 5 am currently and i put that in my drafts like last night and it's like my wish came true. i'm like this rn

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hi, i saw your post about your ex bf and the same happened to me with a "yandere" bf who dumped me after a few months of pretending to be obsessed with me and i am going through hell rn. i quit college i quit my job and need a lot of therapy (which i can't afford). how do i go about avoiding such a liar in the future if i ever open my heart again?? why do people pretend to love someone when they obviously don't?? im broken and feel like he squeezed all the energy out of me and there is nothing left. i feel lifeless. i try to figure out if this is common behavior in the yandere community?

i am so sorry you had to deal with that as well. i would give you such a big hug if i could.

i'll be honest, i still don't know how to avoid such people. i literally had a good friend similar to my awful ex-boyfriend just last year and dropped him sometime in june or july. i didn't realize how bad he was until something happened and my entire friend group collectively realized "holy shit, this guy's an asshole" LMAO. after everything, i was feeling so so empty and i had no idea why. i had a small idea because the entire situation felt so familiar and i suddenly realized why days later. because my friend reminded me of my ex-boyfriend. and that small realization caused me to spiral. hard.

if i'm still encountering people like that today, how can i be sure that i won't encounter people like that again? what if i do? why do i seem to attract people like that? is there something wrong with me?

my friends really did their best to console me. and something my best friend said kind of stuck with me

i think what they said summarizes all i can really say to that question. as for the other ones, i believe it's like a power dynamic thing when people choose to pretend to love someone they actually don't. it's for their own selfish satisfaction. to make themselves feel good. all they really care about in the end is themselves, not caring about the destruction they leave in their wake and the people they hurt.

to this day, i feel nothing but pure hatred for my ex-boyfriend. i choose not to think about him too much or the memories my brain refuses to let me vividly remember for my own sanity. i truly hope that you're able to heal and recover someday. i can already tell you're a very strong individual.

also i haven't been in the yandere community very long yet, so i'm unsure. i only just joined earlier this week...so i guess we'll figure it out together.

anyway some ending advice i have is, don't listen to anyone that tells you to 'let go and forgive'. people like the ones we've dealt with don't deserve forgiveness. personally, i think resentment and hatred is one hell of a motivator. ☆

take care of yourself, anon. you got this!!

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Ahhh thank youuu!! It’s my sweet piano

OHH I THINK I'VE SEEN HER BEFORE. or at least the last image. she's so adorableee, i wanna sob omg

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Hiii I saw you in the community and you’re blog is super cool!!! 🤍

awww, thank you! i like the style of your blog as well ^_^ your pfp is my melody, right?

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You are my god, and I am your faithful disciple. I will worship you, pray to you, and devote every breath to your existence. Let me live on my knees for you, forever. You are my deity, my everything.

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I'm going to ruin all of your relationships I'm going to drive everyone away from you so that you'll finally turn to me and only me because I'm the only one who will never judge you I'm the only one who can make you feel better.

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"i love you" then show interest in me. ask me questions about pointless things, text me good morning and good night, check in on me, tell me how i remind you of things, write about me, make note of the things i like. do you love me or the idea of me?

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Yandere who's devoted their life to worshipping you. But they're just to shy to admit it, what if you found it creepy? Every morning, the moment they get up? Checking to see if you've posted anything, messaged something, or if something that has to do with you comes up. Always grateful and thankful that you're in their lives- no scratch that- that you've given them the honored privilege of letting them be a part of your life. Every single thought and word meant for you. "Oh you like that little thing? I'll get it for you." And you're trying to tell them it was just a passing comment, meaningless. But they're looking at you like you've said the most crazy thing ever. "What do you mean? Everything you say, do, and feel gives meaning to my life."

+ Yandere who has a whole room dedicated to you. "What am I without you?" Pictures lining every inch of the walls, even on the ceiling. Their drawers filled to the brim with letters and notes all about you. "Hey I didn't know you used a camera?" "Oh! That's nothing, it's just for show." As they're taking it away from you hoping you didn't see what's in the memory card. "Hey, what's in this room? It's always locked. You got something weird in there?" You're teasing, laughing lighthearted, but they're already running to stand before you and the door. "It's nothing! I promise! Why don't we watch that movie you've been wanting to see?" And you're already so eager, leaving them, not noticing how they're holding a hand to their chest, as if they know their heart will spill all those dirty secrets they have.

Secrets all about you.

"How can I worship a saint like you? How can I call myself your devoted worshipper when these filthy thoughts cloud my head, twisting my better judgement. I'm nothing but a sinner trying to stand under your shadow."

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" The skies are black with blood-filled brain

A morbid painting on display

This is the night the young love died

Buried at eachother's side " ♡

partners in crime (set it off)

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Engagement ring? No, thanks.

I’d rather carry a small vial of your blood around my neck as a beautiful reminder of what’s mine 🥰. A pretty proof of your commitment to me.

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my ex-boyfriend was a piece of shit. i'm not even sure if he loved me at all. or if i was just.. a toy to him. to secretly be laughed at and used.

he gave me the impression that he loved me. i would be lying if i said i didn't enjoy the way he acted. he hated almost everyone else but me, always giving me nothing but his 'love' and attention, protecting me, saying he'd kill anyone who'd touch me, spamming me if i didn't answer..

but in the end, i was discarded like i meant nothing. how could he do that to me? i gave him EVERYTHING. was my love not enough for him?? was i not enough for him?

i tried to kill myself. and when i didn't succeed, i snapped at him. he didn't even seem to care. got his stupid little friend to reply for him.

i was a mess for an entire year. even now, i wish someone would obsess over me like he used to. despite the fact i hate him now.

i just want to be loved.

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What more do I have to do to get your attention? I'll beg at your feet to forgive all the things I've done. I'll be your obedient dog. Just pay attention to me again. I want your eyes only on me.

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someone complimented me today. now it's gonna live in the back of my head..

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Dreams fade when the dreamer moves. Please fuel my existence with your eyes on me.