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I want to die. I shouldn鈥檛 but I want to
Nothing is ok. I鈥檓 just lying
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I can鈥檛 die. That sucks
I wrote you this
No I didn鈥檛. It鈥檚 just weird to say out loud
I wish I could die. No I wish I could kill myself. Even though I know I can鈥檛. Not because I don鈥檛 want to. I just have too many responsibilities at the moment
That makes it worse right? Imagine? Not even being able to have the option to kill yourself. My face burns from embarrassment
And shame. But this shame isn鈥檛 mine. You just make me feel ashamed of myself. And worthless. Worthless and unimportant. A lot of people do
Life is weird
You鈥檙e not allowed to say anything about that. It鈥檚 like we鈥檙e all playing the quiet game.
Shh! Nobody talk about life or what it鈥檚 like! Talk about something else!
I miss drugs. They made it easier to ignore people. Why鈥檇 I do that? Stop doing drugs? Why鈥檇 I open up?
I kind of preferred being high and ignorant. And lonely. I preferred being lonely. It was more fun than this. This is sadness and rejection. This is shame and embarrassment. This is ugly and useless
I miss not being told to be ashamed of myself and made fun of. Looked down on
I miss not being made to feel so worthless. Even if I was at least I didn鈥檛 have it told to my face as constantly
I did write you this. Sorry
Hey. Why am I not good enough? Why doesn鈥檛 anything I do matter? Is it about money? Is that all you want
I don鈥檛 have much of it right now. Does that mean I lose you? Is that the world? Is that everybody?
I wonder what would make me good enough
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I wrote you this
No I didn鈥檛. It鈥檚 just weird to say out loud
I wish I could die. No I wish I could kill myself. Even though I know I can鈥檛. Not because I don鈥檛 want to. I just have too many responsibilities at the moment
That makes it worse right? Imagine? Not even being able to have the option to kill yourself. My face burns from embarrassment
And shame. But this shame isn鈥檛 mine. You just make me feel ashamed of myself. And worthless. Worthless and unimportant. A lot of people do
Life is weird
You鈥檙e not allowed to say anything about that. It鈥檚 like we鈥檙e all playing the quiet game.
Shh! Nobody talk about life or what it鈥檚 like! Talk about something else!
I miss drugs. They made it easier to ignore people. Why鈥檇 I do that? Stop doing drugs? Why鈥檇 I open up?
I kind of preferred being high and ignorant. And lonely. I preferred being lonely. It was more fun than this. This is sadness and rejection. This is shame and embarrassment. This is ugly and useless
I miss not being told to be ashamed of myself and made fun of. Looked down on
I miss not being made to feel so worthless. Even if I was at least I didn鈥檛 have it told to my face as constantly
I did write you this. Sorry
Hey. Why am I not good enough? Why doesn鈥檛 anything I do matter? Is it about money? Is that all you want
I don鈥檛 have much of it right now. Does that mean I lose you? Is that the world? Is that everybody?
I wonder what would make me good enough
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I really need to cum. But I don鈥檛 want to masturbate.
I want you
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Song: STEVE J*BS
Out everywhere. Video soon. Link in bio
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I鈥檓 starting to feel very undeserving of love
Very morbidly ashamed of myself
Embarrassed to be myself because being me is the reason people keep leaving me for people that aren鈥檛 like me
Very disgusting and ugly to look at
Very gross and unimportant to the world around me
I want to cry
And throw up
I鈥檓 not gonna but I want to
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I want to cry
And throw up
I鈥檓 not gonna but I want to
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I wrote you this
Because I can鈥檛 do anything else
You鈥檝e invaded my mind and taken over
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I wrote you this
You never came
I like you better in my dreams
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I wrote you this
Because I鈥檓 so nervous about the idea of seeing you I can鈥檛 breathe. It鈥檚 turning into self doubt and embarrassment
And fear of canceling. I wonder if I should even write you at all
Why? To remind you of our plans. Is that how I should feel about myself? Like I鈥檓 something someone needs to be reminded about otherwise I鈥檓 forgotten?
Maybe you鈥檙e nervous too. That can happen too right? Maybe you鈥檙e just as worried I鈥橫 going to cancel and you鈥檙e waiting for me to tell you I haven鈥檛 forgotten you.
That can happen too right? Somewhere in the world. Mostly in my imagination
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