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Yeah, um....yeah, people-- people go away and i-it's sad and it hurts. But, you know, not everyone goes away forever. Sometimes they come back, and as much as we miss them, that's how happy we are to see them again.

Evan "Buck" Buckley + being left behind

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patron saint of one way trips

@lakefucine | patti white | the reverent marigold | eleanor hsieh | gus greshem | oleg gazenko | alan shapiro | boston manor | @caputvulpinum | pigeon watch | brennig davies | sleeping at last | @fateology | sarah doyle.

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open a new window somewhere in the world. 

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Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water

it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.

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turning of the leaves

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Found

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Deconstructing misogyny.

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Knitting, 2021 - by Joseph Ford, English

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but it's gonna be alright i did my time.....

(watch in 4k)

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“The way they handled the break up was bad writing!”

My brother in Christ… this is 911. We don’t watch it because of the stellar writing and thorough timeline. We watch it for the vibes, the angst, and the found family.

I mean, fuck, Eddie broke up with Ana by randomly saying “go home”. The last words he said to Shannon before she died were “don’t talk”. WE JUST HAD A DOPPELGÄNGER PLOT LINE. Like be so ffr rn. This show has always been a mess when it comes to writing and I love it for that. It’s so deeply unserious and has been since the jump.

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I’ve slept on it. And I find the breakup to be actually quite good to me. Let me get into it.

Someone else mentioned it but linking Tommy and Abby together is perfection to parallel these two relationships. Despite what people think, Abby was the first serious relationship he had. It may not have been serious for her but it was to him. And we cannot discount that, nor can we discount this relationship with Tommy. But linking the two of them really showcased that Buck really loves with his whole heart and yes he is impulsive when it comes to new relationships.

Buck went from 0 to 60 in this relationship, just like he did with Abby. However, the difference lies in the reasons why they left. And this just came to me.

Tommy left because he didn’t want to get hurt (really the unsaid Eddie of it all). Abby left because she needed to find herself. Buck has held onto relationships so he doesn’t get hurt. But now Buck really has to explore what liking men in addition to women means for him.

Tommy doing so, knowing Buck is still finding himself, really allows Buck to dig deep down and figure out why he’s fast forward through relationships. It’s selfish really. Tommy knows he’s not Buck’s last but being his first is just a special. Abby was the same for Buck. She helped change his view on casual flings and looking for love.

The one major difference in these two very similar relationships is the Eddie of it all. He went all in with Abby and when she left, he waited. But then Eddie (and Chris) came along and he found a new person to go all in on, even if he doesn’t know that yet.

Tommy, however, comes in with Buck and Eddie already established. If Buck is there, most likely Eddie is there too. And Tommy does go into this relationship knowing how these two are. And he was exactly like Abby, wanting to shoot his shot. Eddie’s straight after all right? Buck is a charmer and Tommy is like ok this could work.

But it doesn’t. Tommy realizes this as they celebrate their six month anniversary and seeing how Buck reacts to Tommy saying he can bring Eddie to the Lakers game definitely tells him he’s gonna get his heart broken eventually.

Him telling Buck this, saying I’m not going to be your last tells me everything in this breakup. Eddie has haunted their narrative from day 1. The minute Buck asks him to move in, he knows. He knows that if he goes further, then he’s gonna get hurt just like he hurt Abby and Abby hurt Buck.

His reasoning is actually kinda perfect if you look at it through the Abby lense. Buck was very offended that Tommy hurt Abby the way Abby hurt him. And once it’s shown they dated the same woman, Tommy is like oh. I can’t say yes because he’s misplacing his feelings again. And that he needs to walk away at this point. For Buck and for him.

Buck does need to see what else is out there. He needs to know that he can be attracted to both men and women and that it’s ok to be.

Tommy (and in part Abby) were stepping stones to his forever love. Tommy knew this and allowing Buck to settle into who he is now, his sexuality, is to be honest good for us and good for Buck.

Because after Abby left, Buck threw himself into the Diaz family. And Buck and Eddie need to find themselves

And love themselves before they can ever be together.

This is one step in the right direction for Buddie.

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bro, this got me.

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Clinging to hate, for generations. Slave owner, Confederate, Jim Crow, segregationist, Reaganite, Tea Party, MAGA.

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I couldn't have said it better myself.

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“I promise you nothing is as chaotic as it seems. Nothing is worth your health. Nothing is worth poisoning yourself into stress, anxiety and fear.”

— Steve Maraboli

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Misogyny and racism shape our politics.