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[fivefiveofme]

Lessons Learned This Year

Too many to count.

Everyone will hurt you eventually—some more deeply than others.

Only a rare few will be worth enduring the pain for.

Trust sparingly, and don’t unmask yourself simply because someone claims to be a friend.

The less others know about your true self, the safer you’ll be.

Your time and energy are precious; don’t waste them on those who don’t value them.

Don’t waste your effort on someone who doesn’t see your worth

Be cautious—many will try to take advantage of your kindness.

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They say, ‘The light is at the end of the tunnel,’ and so I waited, my eyes fixed on a distant glow. Yet as I lingered, a truth unfolded: the light was not at the tunnel’s end, nor was it something to be found. There was a bright flame in me all along, constant and unyielding, needing only to be realized.

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Love you Gizmo!

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Imagine meeting the perfect person—someone who checks every box, embodies everything you’ve ever wanted. On paper, it’s flawless. You even meet all their ideals, their perfect match. But here’s the twist: there’s no spark, no attraction on either side. What a strange and quiet tragedy.

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By the way, Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz—that once-in-a-lifetime kind of love—only happened with you. But life had other plans for us, and I wish you the best, wherever you are. If you ever wondered, life is good. One day, I’ll find the courage to send the many drafts of letters I’ve written to you. Till then, I’ll say this: You were the best thing that ever happened to me. Meeting you helped me embrace my true self.

This heartbreak made me reflect deeply on how life will unfold, and I’ll say this with certainty: I will be who I promised to be, and nothing will stop me. If it takes everything I have, I’ll die trying to become the person I’m meant to be.

P.S. I hope baby is doing well. From afar, I’ll say ‘meow meow!’ (lol). Until we meet again.

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I can finally see the light at the end of this labyrinth.

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Hmmm

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Tell me you don’t miss our endless conversations—

those delicate dances of words about everything and nothing,

the cadence of our tone like waves lapping at a quiet shore.

Tell me you don’t miss the way we shared a secret language,

a love for cats, a lens through which we viewed the world,

as if it belonged only to us.

Tell me you don’t wish things were different,

that we could still love each other

the way we once did, raw and unguarded.

You said we would never work,

but I beg to differ—

our souls are forever knotted,

tangled threads in the fabric of this universe.

P.S. I’m sorry I keep writing you into these pages,

but how else can I carry the weight of what we were?

I suppose I’ll live with this ache until the day I vanish

into my paracosm,

where at least I’ll relive our finest moments—

over and over again.

I hope that day comes soon.

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lua - bright eyes :)

Oh!

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My mind replays it all on a loop—I need it to stop. I just want peace.

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A tragedy, when a mature mind and a romantic heart are in the same body.

- Nizar Qabbani

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I’ve never stimmed so hard! I saw you at that one place we used to go have drinks with your person. You seemed very happy. I’m so glad you are happy! Farewell. I will never pen about you again!

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Well I saw you! Ans you look happy! I’m glad!

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Worst news ever! My camera was stolen. :/

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I haven’t forgotten I’m just scared to deliver this letter! If you went to how I’ve been! Show me a sign that I may mail this without fear!

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A supernova only emerges after the star collapses under its own gravity.

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That day, with the sun gently casting its golden hue over us, we sat together in the quiet, sharing stories and laughter amidst the warmth of the earth. “Remember that corny picnic we had?” To me, it was one of my favorite moments—simple, yet profound. The world faded away, and in those hours, nothing mattered but the connection between us. Even now, though we no longer speak, I can still recall every detail, as if time itself preserved that afternoon just for me. You remain, somehow, a vital part of my heart, woven into the fabric of my soul’s most cherished memories.