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With all the pain in my heart…

I’ve come to the decision I have to give up on Macau.

Now, this breaks my heart but I’m aware that I haven’t been here as much to be considered quality.

But it has a reason and the reason I decided to give a little explanation is due to the amount of asks I’ve received in the past about my activity…and it’s the fact my life is quite busy. My mom is a 59 yr old woman with Polymyositis a rare disease that destroys muscles. And possible lupus.

Due to this , she needs a lot of attention, help, etc. And since, I lost my father years ago, I’m the one who takes care of her. Feeds her, bathes her, takes her to apportionments or…to the hospital but I’m also the house keeper, the one who cleans and makes food everyday.

Sadly, last week she was taken to ER due to pleural efussion.

Now she’s doing better but Is still serious.

But still, life will change a lot. I’ll need to move out to another place since she cannot use stairs anymore. I’ll have to catch up with school since I dropped this month.

And I’m aware and can’t be that selfish to keep stealing other fella mun’s time.

Thanks for everything, thanks for the chance.

Thanks for enduring with me. Thanks for not giving up on me.

Thanks for your attention.

Thank you.

If any of you still wants to keep contact with me you can message me to my personal blog. (Earth–intruders or main fandom blog danshikoi zboth run in queue but I try to read messages )

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The Doors

Touch me

Above and beyond.

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Hou Fai breathed deeply, his muscles tensing as the stretching burned -just slightly.  It was as if Jan, and only Jan knew every place to touch, to bite, and Macau couldn’t help but cry out his name, panting, arching up over the sheets, forgetting about composure, he needed him there was no denying it.  He needed the touch, to feel the Dutchman’s hands all over his body, he need to feel him inside. He bit his thin lips, he ran his long thin fingers into his very own dark silky hair and he dared to bite his hand to control the moaning escaping from his lips. His whole body trembled in ecstasy, knowing he had this beautiful being, pleasuring him, he felt proud, he felt wanted, needed, he was lost. Hou Fai levered back on his finger, softly rolling his hips, the slight burn had been already replaced with blood-tingling anticipation.   “Jan, please…”

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As Hou Fai bowed into the Dutchman, his breath caught in his throat, captivated.

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Hou Fai whimpered – yet pleasantly surprised- at the touch. He did in the back of his throat as he bit his soft thin lips, failing to suppress a moan.  He did spread out his legs in a more automatic response as he wrapped his arms around the Dutch’s neck pulling him down for another kiss, caressing softly with the tip of a curious tongue, moaning on Jan’s lips.

And his heart was beating fast.

However, as the kiss ended and Jan fond his way below, Hou Fai arched up into him, shuddering, his back bowing, and he let out gasp and a deeper moan. And for him, it felt all new as if for the very first time he was giving it all out.  And if felt incredible, because it was Jan.

With that, he breathed deeply, holding on whatever was close to his hands, and caressed Jan’s hair; and his whole body started to tremble with a wonderful sensation of discovery, as if for the very first time he had discovered the sweet taste of the berries, and the delightful feeling of being with someone as special for him as Jan. and as only Jan could be.  It felt warm.

And he couldn’t deny it, he, himself felt erotic in that position, in that very situation.  Soon enough, the Dutch’s name left Hou Fai’s lips, with a shaky tone.  A part of him, implying he needed him.  “Jan…”

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Real siblings stick together no matter what.

APH | { Siblings. } Macau & Hong Kong.

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“Yeah… I also just really like saying ‘Hermes’,” Hong Kong snorted, shoving his hands into his pockets as they made their way through the mall. He caught quick glimpses of the Christmas displays he helped develop, particularly proud of the owl-like snowmen creatures that served as the mall’s overall theme. However, he looked up at his older brother when they took a deliberate wrong turn, wondering if Macau wanted to visit another store first.

Confused as to why they’d ended up in front of a Shiseido (“Are you out of moisturiser Houhou?”), Siu-chun simply shrugged and took a seat on an available bench, automatically pulling out his phone. A faint blush appeared on his cheeks as Hou Fai spoke, asking him the questions he never thought to ask himself, mostly because he didn’t want to admit to the answers. He pouted, not out of annoyance, but rather from how difficult it was for him to answer such a simple question. It should have been easy, and yet it wasn’t…and that was frustrating.

“I guess I just…want to see him happy,” Hong Kong said quietly, after a long stretch of silence. “And I want him to like me. But like, I dunno if he likes me me, or just what he thinks I am and expects me to be, so… I mean, even if he doesn’t, at least he’ll have a lot of nice things in exchange for dealing with me?” he finished weakly, not really sure where his thought process was even going.

Macau took his time to listen to his brother’s words, just a few seconds, he wasn’t trying to irritate the other after all. He stared and the store and he seemed focused on the people entering and leaving.  One could say that -maybe- he was eavesdropping on the chattering from around but his mind was actually miles away, back to many, many, years ago, and the things that had changed.  

He glanced back to Siu-chun, brows slightly furrowed, however there was no pity, but softness on his expression; the face of someone who was worried. He smiled softly, “I see…” but how could he even try to find the right words? He knew about his brother’s insecurities; he knew about the fragility of his soul and heart. And just as well, he knew the teen was now facing a new stage in his life and -naturally- feeling more nervous and insecure was even, something it could happen.

Something naturally human after all.

His voice was soft, meant to calm and recomforting. “To be fair…I don’t think he sees the time spent with you as ‘dealing with you.' The both of you put forth effort to be with each other, and the mere fact he is so bad at receiving gifts it’s a proof, if you want to see it that way…” Hou Fai rested his weight on his palms, staring at the decorations around them; huge ornaments and lights everywhere in sight.

“Say… do you enjoy yourself when you’re with him?”

His gaze was set on Hong Kong again “You said you want to see him happy… and, answer this to yourself, not me. You don’t have to tell me…  but, are you in love?”    

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☼ : try to have confidence in yourself ; sometimes your hesitance holds you back and your writing is great!

// Actually.. you’re right...  almost 90% of the time I have to cut my replies because I feel they’re weird lol   but definitely it’s something I have to work on! Thank you for this and the compliment!  

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✉ : Don't be afraid to Rp with more people, your writing is great!

// AHH! thank you!!  I’ll try!! I’m SO self-conscious and I guess is noticeable from miles away haha  but this is really sweet, thank you !!  ! I’ll do my best! promise (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

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✿ : your character is too perfect ; everyone needs SOME flaws

// I agree 200% ! no, but seriously, I think at some point Macau’s perfection is a gag xD but actually yeah he’s not perfect.  I guess with all the hectic lifestyle I have is preventing me for developing a little further into this topic but we can always learn how to.  Thank you!