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Recently uploaded my canon warriors designs to my main blog, so here we have my Fireclaw designs.

Fireclaw’s mane like fur is more shaped into bangs for this design, and he’s got more scars from training and fighting with cats. The scar on his heart marking was given to him by Clawface during their battle when he killed him. The one on his shoulder he received from Greystripe during a fight, and the scar on his nose was given to him by tigerclaw when he found him trying to kill bluestar.

His leader marks instead of the glimmering stars are claw like stripes that symbolize his temperament and training with Tigerstar. StarClan in this universe is split when it comes to Firestar, some think he was misguided and is still the hero they prophesied would come, others think of him as a disappointment and a traitor in many ways, Redtail himself not liking Firestar at all and being the one to give him these markings. They’re seen as more of an ill omen than a blessing at first, but overtime they come to symbolize his strength through struggle.

We have the older Firestar designs and then we have my little bonus design in place of my StarClan design for him which I haven’t finished yet.

I forgot to mention in my notes that in this au, Tigerclaw takes Firepaw to train in the dark forest with him. In his dark forest design, Fireclaws colors change to reflect a great desire of his; to be like his father figure, Tigerclaw, and ironically, it also may be his greatest downfall. His scars become red and fade into black, which I think is gonna happen to most cats designs in the df, and his eyes are now amber.

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You Told Me Not to Be Like Anybody Else

So for a few weeks I’ve been sitting in this au idea for awhile now. Basically this is as self indulgent as it gets and is meant to mostly suit my own needs and fix my own personal gripes with the books

I call the au Raging Fire/Fireclaw, and basically, it explores a world in which instead of being mentored by Lionheart and bluestar, Rusty is trusted with tigerclaw instead. This au explores mental health problems and learning to overcome some of the worst parts of yourself, including childhood trauma, trauma related to family members, and the realization that, as much as you may have tried to be a good person, you’ve failed in those aspects, and that’s ok. I’m kinda using Fireclaw in this as a bit of a self insert, not completely ofc, but this au did spawn from a lot of my own thoughts that came with coming of age. I guess you could just call it a darker interpretation of the coming of age themes in the first arc.

You can send in asks about this au, I’ll be posting my designs for it here including any stories, drafts or small tidbits I have for it!

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AU Notes So Far

These aren’t finished at all yet and will be updated once I’ve got time, but here’s what I’ve got so far

Firepaw is apprenticed to Tigerclaw so that Tigerclaw can get over his hostility towards kittypets, Bluestar often coming along during their training to make sure he doesn’t push him too hard (or rusty is found when he’s too young so morningflower decides to become his foster mom and tiger begrudgingly becomes his foster father)

Spottedleaf sees Firepaw as her kit, not a potential mate

Ravenpaw is apprenticed by Lionheart after Firepaw joins the clans, training alongside Greypaw

Sandpaw and Firepaw train together due to tigerclaws and Whitestorm’s closer relationship

Tigerclaw slowly gets used to Firepaw enough to even say he’s proud of him

yellowfang still joins thunderclan and Firepaw gets close to her but tigerclaw, like an overprotective father doesn’t trust her

After the trip with mother mouth, when tigerclaw is declared deputy upon lionhearts death, Firepaw does not initially believe ravenpaw when he says tigerclaw killed redtail

Firepaws suspicions only grow when tigerclaw accuses ravenpaw on being behind the shadowclan attack

when spottedleaf is killed Firepaw is heartbroken due to losing one of the only mother figures he’s ever known

He still does not believe ravenpaw or yellowfang have anything to do with this though tigerclaw believes the opposite

Instead of leaving Ravenpaw decided to become a medicine cat when Spottedleaf visits him right before he makes his decision

When Firepaw is about to kill clawface, tigerclaw does not attempt to stop him at all even though he’s near, ending in the death of the cat

Firepaw is named Fireclaw in honor of his mentor, and is proud at first until he remembers what ravenpaw told him

Ravenpaw trains under Yellowfang, and looks relatively happy to be away from all the drama and protected against tigerclaw, but he still wants to get the truth out

Greystripe is more interested in solving Redtail’s murder than Fireclaw, who believes this is all some misunderstanding

Fireclaw feels a bit distant from the clan due to his kitty pet blood, especially upon seeing Cinderpaw and her siblings bonds. Tigerclaw offers consolation as best he can, remarking that his siblings died young, and his father left the clans, leaving him only with his mother. Fireclaw is only briefly comforted by this

Fireclaw and Greystripe still leave to return WindClan, and all goes similarly besides meeting ravenpaw at the barn.

Fireclaw and Greystripe are assigned cinderpaw and brackenpaw as apprentices

Ravenpaw soon after the ceremony warns Fireclaw of danger on the path ahead, and Fireclaw is perplexed

Fireclaw meets princess, and though extremely hesitant to even amuse her due to having some of tigerclaws opinions rub off on him, the prospect of knowing one of his family members becomes too tempting to pass up

Ravenpaw and Greystripe investigate more into the redtail scandal than Fireclaw, who seemingly doesn’t believe it went down the way it did. Grey and Raven find out that before redtails death, he and tigerclaw had a tense relationship, and at both ends both cats were being aggressive towards each other, and that oakheart died by rockfall. They find out more about redtail, and even rumors of him being involved in the death of an older warrior, Thistleclaw, Tigerclaws mentor.

After the incident at the lake with silverstream and their talks with other riverclanners, Greystripe develops a relationship with her that Ravenpaw and Fireclaw take notice of, and both agree nothing good can come of it.

Ravenpaw battles with discovering he has romantic feelings for Greystripe.

Fireclaw struggles with wanting to support his friend and the following the warrior code, much more so than the books. He often ignores greystripe and reacts badly when cats speak of him, but still refuses to say a thing about the secret relationship. He still trains brackenpaw reluctantly.

Fireclaw and Sandpaw get along a bit better than in canon here, so by this point they’re already fine friends. He spends most of his time with her and Longtail, who he has also grown accustomed to due to training closely with both cats. During this time, small little redemption arks showing how these two have grown take place, along with some change from Dustpaw, who’s still the most stubborn of the bunch.

Tigerclaw asks to meet bluestar near the thunder path and all goes similarly as to what happened in canon. The gears begin to turn for Fireclaw as he’s met with someone else he knows being affected by Tigerclaw in a more violent way. Tigerclaw is extremely apologetic and even a bit shaken by the incident, but Fireclaw remains in shock for a few days, his world shaken.

Yellowfang isn’t able to fix Cinderpaws leg, but she insists Fireclaw not give up on her and keep her in training. Fireclaw agrees and Cinderpaw continues to train, though her leg does get in the way from time to time.

princess asks Fireclaw to take in her son, and fireclaw refuses at first, but does take in CloudKit. The clan is still not happy with his choice, but Tigerclaw, though believing it wasn’t the best choice, understands Fireclaws reasoning of missing his family, Tigerclaw himself being very closely related to his own. Ravenpaw and Sandpaw also come to defend Fireclaw.

The RiverClan patrol goes similarly as it went in the books, But the fight between greystripe and Fireclaw is a lot more violent, Fireclaw taking it too far before Ravenpaw breaks them apart. Both cats distance themselves from Fireclaw.

The rogue attack on ThunderClan takes place, this time, it’s Greystripe who is overwhelmed by Blackfoot, who Fireclaw notices, also noticing that Tigerclaw sees this too, but willingly moves on instead of helping his clanmate. Fireclaw fights off Blackfoot, and he and Greystripe share a moment of brief understanding.

The relationship between Ravenpaw, greystripe and Fireclaw is still hostile, but Raven and grey are still determined to prove tigerclaws guilt. Ravenpaw is able to piece together via dreams sent by spottedleaf and stories heard from other clan mates that Thistleclaw was a blood hungry cat with a penchant for abusing his apprentices, one of which was Spottedleaf herself. Redtail, having had enough of the cat, decided to get rid of him in secret, though Tigerclaw, who saw Thistle as a father figure, always had his suspicions. It was true that oakheart died due to rockfall, but Ravenpaw doesn’t know what caused Tigerclaw to kill the deputy, whether it was his desire to be deputy, or his knowledge on the crime he’d committed.

During the battle against RiverClan and ShadowClan, it’s Fireheart who instigates the battle with silverstream, before he realizes who she is and releases her. He is shaken by his lack of self control and the fact that if he wanted, he could’ve killed her. Leopardfur, taking advantage of his shock, attacks, nearly killing him, but Tigerclaw throws her off, giving his apprentice a wary eye, as if he saw what happened with silverstream, before the battle happens as it does in the books.

Fireclaw, Ravenpaw and greystripe argue over what happened in the battle, both cats bringing to attention Fireclaws lack of self control when he’s angry or in battle. Fireclaw attempts to shrug off their worries, but Ravenpaw is genuinely concerned he might do something worse, more intentional. Greystripe brings up Clawface and how Fireclaw killed him, making the Tom defensive, Fireclaw arguing that Clawface was a murderer, and greystripe bringing up all of his most recent incidents. A fight breaks out, and when Ravenpaw tries to separate them, he’s injured. Greystripe stands defensively over his friend, and Fireclaw realizes there’s something terribly wrong with him. He runs off before either cat can say anything to him.

the next book begins with ravenpaw and greystripe investigating another piece of interesting information. They attempt to get Fireclaw in on it, in attempts to continue the conversation about his issues and repair their long lasting friendship, but the moment the tom sees them he scurried off, leaving them extremely worried. Though greystripe is still angry with Fireclaw, he fears for his friends safety, and Ravenpaw fears that Tigerclaw has left permanent damage on the tom, damage that Thistleclaw had implanted in him.

Greystripe and Ravenpaw meet with Silverstream, all three cats seemingly enjoying eachothers company. She is able to get Mistyfoot to speak with them. Ravenpaw asks her why Oakheart would specify that no one thunderclan cat would harm Stonefur, and she seems at a loss.

Ravenpaw is left to stew with many thoughts on the current mystery, but what boggles him most is a reoccurring thought he’s had on Cinderpaws incident, specifically that it was meant for bluestar, and that poor Cinderpaw was just an accidental victim. He corners Fireclaw and asks him about it, and though the tom is reluctant, he agrees that the incident has him questioning tigerclaws loyalties as well. Ravenpaw invites the tom on their next trip to RiverClan for more answers, and though Fireclaw is hesitant, he agrees.

Ravenpaw, Greystripe and Fireclaw question Graypool about oakhearts words, and she tells them the kits are from ThunderClan. Fireclaw is left speechless, and Ravenpaw and Greystripe keep him in check as to make sure nothing slips from him.

the three return, and Fireclaw continues on, mentoring brackenpaw and Cinderpaw while greystripe runs off with silverstream, babysitting his nephew, and trying to keep his relationship with tigerclaw healthy while also constantly questioning his actions.

When RiverClan is in trouble, Fireclaw hesitates to help them, but he and greystripe are still caught by Bluestar and Tigerclaw, and while they at first only punish greystripe, Fireclaw insists he was apart of the plan to too, repairing their strained relationship a bit.

the battle between ThunderClan, RiverClan and shadowclan and windclan still takes place like it did in the books.

Brackenpaw and Cinderpaw are named Brackenfur and Cinderwing.

greystripe finds out silverstream is pregnant, and when she gives birth ahead of time, Ravenpaw is the one to help her give birth. Though a more talented medicine cat at this point, he cannot stop the bleeding, and Silverstream still dies. Fireclaw is horrified as the two toms grieve, the reality of the situation setting in for all three of them. Tigerclaw runs in on the scene, and Fireclaw begs him to not tell the clan, completely and utterly terrified of what will happen to greystripe, but Tigerclaw refuses, disappointed in Fireclaws bias towards his friend.

Tigerclaw outs greystripe to the clan, sure Fireclaw would have come to his senses and stood by the code by then, but to his surprise, Fireclaw stands by Greystripe, alongside Ravenpaw, Sandstorm, and hesitantly, Longtail. Bluestar herself is visibly sympathetic to greystripe, which gets Fireclaw thinking.

Bluestar admits to Fireclaw that misty and stone are her kits. He promises to keep her secret like he keeps yellowfangs.

CloudKit is instead apprenticed to Sandstorm, and while he, her, and Fireclaw are out, they notice the scent of rogues leading to ThunderClan, intermixed with another familiar scent. They return to camp to find it being attacked by the rogue.

Fireclaw runs into bluestars den to find Tigerclaw, ready to attack. He’s able to fend him off, using the knowledge that the cat he is fighting against gave him in training, and due to Tigerclaws own hesitance it seems. RiverClan arrives to fend off the rogues.

When bluestar announces her deputy’s murder attempt, Tigerclaw reaches to Fireclaw still, asking him, as a father, to join him, telling him he accepts him as his own. Fireclaw rejects him, and goes on to announce all the details he had known on redtails death, that tigerclaw had done it, and that if it weren’t for Ravenpaw they would’ve never known. He also says the incident on the thunder path was meant for bluestar, not for Cinderwing. Tigerclaw, shocked, leaves.

bluestar announces Fireclaw as deputy.

Ravenpaw become a full medicine cat and is named Ravenpelt

greystripe leaves for RiverClan, and Ravenpelt and Fireclaw are left to themselves, to worry over the future. Ravenpelt wrestles with the guilt of being unable to save silverstream, a cat he’d grown very close to, and Fireclaw struggles to accept his greatest hero was a traitor and a liar, who may have even hurt him more personally as an apprentice, inflicting permanent damage.

in the next book, Fireclaw struggles in taking care of the damaged clan, fearful that what everyone is saying is true and that his deputyship was the wrong decision.

Ravenpelt helps littlecloud and whitethroat, even against yellowfangs orders, and him and Fireclaw agree not to tell anyone.

Sandstorm has better control over Cloudpaw than Fireclaw does, and though he’s still rebellious, he doesn’t try to eat kittypet food. Sandstorm often invites Fireclaw to watch them train, and the two get even closer.

Fireclaw leads a patrol that’s attacked by the rogues, and he finds runningwind, dead, whitethroat leaning over him. Fireclaw, enraged, chases the cat into the thunder path, and kills him. Before he can realize there’s something wrong, Tigerclaw leaps onto him, saying he’ll regret not joining him. They fight, and though Tigerclaw has the chance to gravely injure him, he chooses not to, and runs off.

The Fire still breaks out, and yellowfang is lost. Ravenpelt and Fireclaw meet with greystripe again, but the happiness is only short lived by the overwhelming grief.

Fireclaw and greystripe examine what’s remains of the forest, and Fireclaw gets to say goodbye to yellowfang. ThunderClan returns home, bluestar even more shaken than before.

Fireclaw, while leading the clan to the gathering in place of bluestar, is shocked so badly by Tigerclaw becoming leader of shadowclan he needs whitestorm to take his place, as he feels too faint.

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You Told Me Not to Be Like Anybody Else

So for a few weeks I’ve been sitting in this au idea for awhile now. Basically this is as self indulgent as it gets and is meant to mostly suit my own needs and fix my own personal gripes with the books

I call the au Raging Fire/Fireclaw, and basically, it explores a world in which instead of being mentored by Lionheart and bluestar, Rusty is trusted with tigerclaw instead. This au explores mental health problems and learning to overcome some of the worst parts of yourself, including childhood trauma, trauma related to family members, and the realization that, as much as you may have tried to be a good person, you’ve failed in those aspects, and that’s ok. I’m kinda using Fireclaw in this as a bit of a self insert, not completely ofc, but this au did spawn from a lot of my own thoughts that came with coming of age. I guess you could just call it a darker interpretation of the coming of age themes in the first arc.

You can send in asks about this au, I’ll be posting my designs for it here including any stories, drafts or small tidbits I have for it!