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Dear Diary..

So, back in grade 6, the prevailing tradition at school was that anyone who had a birthday would come to class and distribute small chocolates to everyone in the class. This one smartass, however, decides that for his birthday, he would present us with notebooks. Now, in the true spirit of making lemonade from lemons, the whole class unanimously agreed to keep a diary for however long 50 pages of a cheap notebook would allow.

Anyhow, I happened to stumble upon a few, degraded pages of this wonderful “experiment” for the lack of a better word, when I was cleaning out my old room and realized the extent of acceptance in a child’s brain. A perfect demonstration of this would come from the diary entry for the 16th of november, 2010; Completely unaltered, it read:

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 11/16/10

Dear diary, 

Today I went to school. 

My friends teased me and pushed me down and i felt very sad.

my knee is paining and i got hurt on it when they pushed me. I can not play cricket and everyone is laughing at me. After that, i went to canteen and ate masala chips. they were nice. after that I saw varsha and felt very nice. then i went home. in bus, i sat in front <That’s where the cool kids didn’t sit> . Then I went home and listened to taylor swift. I felt like crying because i can not get varsha. Then I ate chocolate and watched edednedy. Today was awesome.

good night diary.

“

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Why..

A bit of back story. I am 18 years old, and for however long tumblr has existed, I have always been reluctant towards joining or even browsing it with incognito mode. I’d always felt it would have social implications too “triggering” to describe here and thus, had a strong disdain towards the community. I thought I would never join, until this morning when  I woke up to the sounds of about 10 alarms going off in conjunction waking me up for the inevitability of routine life, realizing that I need to be in college in about 10 minutes, which includes cleaning up, finding my stuff from the very busy previous night and taking a bus to a college that’s 5 kilometers (metric master race)  away. When I was in the shower, my face eerily representing the “Sudden Clarity Clarence” meme, I realized that I live on an infinitesimally small chunk of rock orbiting a nuclear reactor made of gas which is in itself part of a massive galaxy consisting of hundreds of billions of such stars, all part of a universe which consists of an infinite(?) number of such galaxies and that due to the inevitable increase of entropy , all of.. well ,everything is doomed to the eventual heat death of the universe and then, nothing that ever happened will matter. 

I then proceeded to get out the shower, thought eff society, eff societal norms and eff my friends who would think im gay for writing a blog, I’m going to start a tumblr. Now i feel like :

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Couldn’t be more true about today morning.

Just 5 minutes more

I have had those “Once in a lifetime moments” where after waking up at 7:30 in the morning cuz of my alarm and thinking just 5 minutes more and sleeping again, I wake up and when I see the time-it’s 7:35 and I don’t feel stressed out or sleep deprived.Infact I start wondering about how it actually happened and whether it’s real or not because it never works, I never wake up after that. Not being able to believe how the 5 minutes thing actually went right and worked, I lose consciousness and fall on the bed once again and then fall out of my dream.