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I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

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So...how do I put this. The person who I was going to be staying with in September has cancelled those plans, and my mother had already served me an eviction notice. So while I'm going to try and talk to my mother about it, (not that I want to live with my mother any more than I have to, she is abusive and an awful person) it's starting to look like there's a good chance I'm going to be homeless in September.

I'm on disability with CFS, and because of my depression, autism and ADHD that makes it extremely hard for me to organize myself and remember things, along with the rest of the suite of issues.

I currently don't really have the funds to move elsewhere in London (Ontario). I've been looking for a job for months and it's been over a year since I last had a job. I can't really do a lot of stuff due to my disability or need accommodations that employers don't want to or won't provide. I also just haven't really gotten a call back in ages. I would prefer to work on my own schedule because I have days where I can't even get out of bed and would prefer to work part time but at this point I can't really afford to turn down any opportunity to make money, even if it's a full time job that I'm only going to last for a month or two in.

My body just shuts down and stops working the more I push it. I have good days where I can do some chores and stay out of bed for 12 hours and I have days where I take 2-3 naps for multiple hours and spend most of my day in bed.

I know everyone is really struggling. I know money is tight. I don't have much to offer. I'm just a sad depressed 30yo tgirl virgin who's had every relationship she's ever had fail miserably trying to find happiness. I'm trying to survive. I really am. I didn't ask to be born or thrust into the life I have. I'm doing my best.

My paypal is aelathehuntresshf@gmail.com

This is my wise, I guess? I'm not really sure how it works, but it's one of the few non PayPal options we Canadians have. wise.com/pay/me/annal3831

Please share/reblog. Any donations, no matter how small, will help me.

Thank you for reading this...and I'm sorry.

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Queer 👏 people 👏 are 👏 not 👏 all 👏 fucking 👏 activists 👏

Stop quizzing us on queer history and asking us questions we aren’t qualified to answer about the world and about politics and about our identities

Stop trying to back us into a corner so you can justify your discrimination on the basis that we don’t know what we’re talking about or can’t “defend” ourselves to you

Stop treating every queer person that stands up and says “I want to be treated like a person” as if they’re an activist

Cut that bullshit out

Marginalised people just want to exist and be happy

I don’t know everything, and that doesn’t make me undeserving of your respect or my human rights you fucker

I don’t even owe you the stuff I do know- I still am entitled to basic fucking respect

TLDR; Queer people shouldn’t have to be historians or scientists for you to not be a fucking dick

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summer affirmations

i am fuckable

i am the hottest lesbian in any room at any given time

something gay will happen to me in the next 24 hours

LIKE AND REBLOG TO AFFIRM

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So...how do I put this. The person who I was going to be staying with in September has cancelled those plans, and my mother had already served me an eviction notice. So while I'm going to try and talk to my mother about it, (not that I want to live with my mother any more than I have to, she is abusive and an awful person) it's starting to look like there's a good chance I'm going to be homeless in September.

I'm on disability with CFS, and because of my depression, autism and ADHD that makes it extremely hard for me to organize myself and remember things, along with the rest of the suite of issues.

I currently don't really have the funds to move elsewhere in London (Ontario). I've been looking for a job for months and it's been over a year since I last had a job. I can't really do a lot of stuff due to my disability or need accommodations that employers don't want to or won't provide. I also just haven't really gotten a call back in ages. I would prefer to work on my own schedule because I have days where I can't even get out of bed and would prefer to work part time but at this point I can't really afford to turn down any opportunity to make money, even if it's a full time job that I'm only going to last for a month or two in.

My body just shuts down and stops working the more I push it. I have good days where I can do some chores and stay out of bed for 12 hours and I have days where I take 2-3 naps for multiple hours and spend most of my day in bed.

I know everyone is really struggling. I know money is tight. I don't have much to offer. I'm just a sad depressed 30yo tgirl virgin who's had every relationship she's ever had fail miserably trying to find happiness. I'm trying to survive. I really am. I didn't ask to be born or thrust into the life I have. I'm doing my best.

My paypal is aelathehuntresshf@gmail.com

This is my wise, I guess? I'm not really sure how it works, but it's one of the few non PayPal options we Canadians have. wise.com/pay/me/annal3831

Please share/reblog. Any donations, no matter how small, will help me.

Thank you for reading this...and I'm sorry.

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i'm gonna be thinking about maid-knight post for a while i think

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every tgirl you know will become one of three-ish kinds of people. If she's unlucky she'll become multiple kinds of people in a really annoying and bothersome way. they are all different people but they come from the same place: this world fucking hates us and we need to become something that can weather it. she needs to survive and this is how that works

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God i havent been bred in weexxxxxx😔🤕🥺😭😭😭😭

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does anyone have that quote that goes something like 'white germans under the nazis lived just fine as long as they were loyal to the state, gave their children to the army, and paid their taxes, and in this sense many americans would be comfortable living under fascism' trying to find who said it but google is giving me jack shit

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kinda want to inaugurate this blog with titular pictures (read: post some kitty girl titties) but also scared of getting blammed by staff

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nvm i forgot that bethesda made leveling up skills outside of combat functionally impossible so i will simply wait til oblivion has an alternate start mod i can use i guess

playing through skyrim with a new character who has been isekai'd into the world with access to all spells and some Super OP Magical Items but is otherwise just a normal guy girl with no save game or respawn mechanics (except for save on exit) so she trains all of her skills in riverwood for 5 billion hours before setting foot anywhere else because she's afraid of dying

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Whew. I've arrived in Windhelm, and the state of things has been...somewhat explained to me. By a voice in my head. Very strange. But they did say they gave me access to a bunch of books to read, and would allow me to use any spells I had the magicka for, so that's good I guess? I've found myself an inn for now, while I read these "Skill books" they were called...though I don't have that much money, so I'll need to find somewhere else to sleep or more money...

playing through skyrim with a new character who has been isekai'd into the world with access to all spells and some Super OP Magical Items but is otherwise just a normal guy girl with no save game or respawn mechanics (except for save on exit) so she trains all of her skills in riverwood for 5 billion hours before setting foot anywhere else because she's afraid of dying

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playing through skyrim with a new character who has been isekai'd into the world with access to all spells and some Super OP Magical Items but is otherwise just a normal guy girl with no save game or respawn mechanics (except for save on exit) so she trains all of her skills in riverwood for 5 billion hours before setting foot anywhere else because she's afraid of dying

[findingoblivion]

So...how do I put this. The person who I was going to be staying with in September has cancelled those plans, and my mother had already served me an eviction notice. So while I'm going to try and talk to my mother about it, (not that I want to live with my mother any more than I have to, she is abusive and an awful person) it's starting to look like there's a good chance I'm going to be homeless in September.

I'm on disability with CFS, and because of my depression, autism and ADHD that makes it extremely hard for me to organize myself and remember things, along with the rest of the suite of issues.

I currently don't really have the funds to move elsewhere in London (Ontario). I've been looking for a job for months and it's been over a year since I last had a job. I can't really do a lot of stuff due to my disability or need accommodations that employers don't want to or won't provide. I also just haven't really gotten a call back in ages. I would prefer to work on my own schedule because I have days where I can't even get out of bed and would prefer to work part time but at this point I can't really afford to turn down any opportunity to make money, even if it's a full time job that I'm only going to last for a month or two in.

My body just shuts down and stops working the more I push it. I have good days where I can do some chores and stay out of bed for 12 hours and I have days where I take 2-3 naps for multiple hours and spend most of my day in bed.

I know everyone is really struggling. I know money is tight. I don't have much to offer. I'm just a sad depressed 30yo tgirl virgin who's had every relationship she's ever had fail miserably trying to find happiness. I'm trying to survive. I really am. I didn't ask to be born or thrust into the life I have. I'm doing my best.

My paypal is aelathehuntresshf@gmail.com

This is my wise, I guess? I'm not really sure how it works, but it's one of the few non PayPal options we Canadians have. wise.com/pay/me/annal3831

Please share/reblog. Any donations, no matter how small, will help me.

Thank you for reading this...and I'm sorry.

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You've been isekai'd to Lumiere and have the chance to engage in a very French pastime.